Little Lady Candy Land

Complicated Desire

2011-06-29T15:24:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

I'm serious oblivious about friendship. Like seriously. Some people are my friends while some just pretend to be. I can't say I'm at wrong or there people at wrong but WHAT'S WRONG? I'm just so freakin pissed! It hurts to know how excluded I am. It just hurts.

Thank you for showing me your true light. So much!

Unsplendid Moments

2011-06-14T09:40:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

I'm currently at work now so I'm suppose to do work stuff but I'm a bit hasting about it. I can't say much but I'm a lot bored and well there's this and that and lalalala.. so yeah. working is fun but it's take times.

So this morning, I went to work driving and well, I wore make up today. I'm sure some of you think that's normal but for me it's the not normal thing in the WORLD! I wore make up only when Arief's around. If he is not, then I'm just plain jane. Seriously!

The thing is, I was stuck in traffic and I was like there's nothing much to do and I can't sing hahaha I sing like a donkey in a panic attack.. errr.. kinda?...

Traffic was bad this morning. I was lonely so I decided to wear make up today.. :P to release the loneliness and singing and I don't want to say. SO while the light is red and I'm like in line I pull out my foundation and blablabla tap here tap there. Put here put there.. suddenly I saw this guy looking straight at me from the left, he was like geleng kepala or should I say "what is she doing?"

he was like looking at me weirdly and suddenly he yelled at me "WOI!" I wasn't paying attention to him because the light is still red. why should I be bother right? Uhmmm perasan skit la :P hhuhu

Are men all like that? Terpegun ke perempuan pakai make up di tengah jalan? There's no definite rules saying we can't kan? Ada masa.

So why the hate? I'm not sure if it' is hate... hmmm... NVM..

Bye candy! Got to work. My boss is eyeing me since last week.. harhar har kitty face :P

A dedication for my special person.

2011-06-06T11:46:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I've been like a jerk lately since I've rarely blog and do stuff that is important to me and myself. SO! I can't really promise anything at the moment. I am rather busy with the practical training. Anwyaysssss!

cherriesandwhippedcream

Today is a very special day for my heart, my soul and my handsome bf! It's HIS BIRTHDAY!!!! Happy Birthday syg! Heeeeee....! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday to YOU!!

Actually, I'm trying not to praise him yet, I want to make him think that I forgotten his birthday but I actually didn't forget his birthday at all.. Do you get it?? You don't?? it's like this..

Arief; You've forgottenn my birthday!
Me: OMG! I did!
Arief: How could you!
Me: Syg, syg.. see here, tadaaa! A meal appropriate for your birthday! Yeeeaaaa! Happy birthday! I didn't forget your birthday at all! Lalalala

zingerbug.com

If you don't get it yet! You're in trouble man! Anwyays,
I wanted to spend the weekend with him celebrating his birthday and lots more but he couldn't make it here to KL since there were assignment and other works for him to do. SO i had to spend my weekends walking about ampang and visiting the rest of my family. Huhu what to do?

My plans of cooking this fillet of dory with mustard cream sauce is out the door, unfortunately. Hence, I'll try to make it a perfect one if he'll come.

ninarevenant

To my beloved! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you have a great life ahead of you, with all your dreams coming true and a long and prestige life. Semoga you, panjang umur dan sihat sentiasa. InsyaAllah.

cnbeyerfink

hehe :P I can't say that word but you definitely know what I'm saying... :)

favim

Have a great one. I'll always mulahmula you.. :P

Mother's day and Shiha's day

2011-05-09T09:43:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I know its a tiny bit late to update u on mother's day but it was not planned to be celebrated actually.So here's the story:

On friday, as I was finishing my work or training thing, I didn't exactly finished it on time so I was a bit frustrated. I'm not usually those who finishes late. I'm not really punctual but I hate the stress. So, I went back home and finished my work at home. Mama wasn't happy I came back late but I can't avoid it.

Anyway, On Saturday, Mama wanted to visit my aunt but when we arrived she wasn't home so We just left the wedding invitation to the post box. (did I say that right?) Uhmmm... Later, we went to my office or training place thing :P hehe to print my task and gave to my boss since he wants it on friday but I couldn'f finish that day but I finished at 12.30am on Saturday blablabla

Well, after printing and gave it to my boss, I was hungry like my stomach was like torpedo waiting to blow up. We went to this food restaurant. Hehe. I can't tell you the name because it's a secret :P We sat down not nearly for 10 seconds a free drink arrived for my mothers and its FREEEE!! I was like can I have one too?? he said no. it's for mother's day. I was jealous but hey it's mothers day. She deserved it.

So we ate and I took pictures.It was fun. She told me not to post it here though. The pictures' not that nice. HEHE Amateur photographer!

I think I said to many SO?? don't you think too?

On sunday, My friend Shiha wanted to come, I wanted to give her a full food fest but when I arrived to this korean restaurant. IT WAS CLOSED! I wasn't happy, I wanted to eat it too. GUILTY as charged. In the end we had pizza and I got to see Shiha's soon to be HUSBAND! yeaa.. ceeewahh la kawan ku ni..

check out what my mum said: "tengok shiha tu, tak da boyfren. tapi dapat bakal suami cepat" cewahh la xsabar nk makan nasi minyak la.. :P

ooopss shiha, all the best beb! Love ya!

Anyway, Happy belated Mother's day and I hope you arrived home safely shiha.

thisisgabriiel

A picture to calm the heart. My heart.

succumb these question

2011-04-29T16:31:00.001+08:00

Hello candy!

what's to say? I have no mention nor motion to fulfill my destiny. I can't think straight.

Bye.

Cute Kittens

2011-04-19T09:23:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

Here's a fun picture fiesta for you to see... enjoy~!!

http://www.spoki.lv/foto-izlases

fireworksinthenightskyy

alwayysinlust

sijayushka

-videung

BYE!!

very cute sleepy cat

2011-04-17T19:12:00.000+08:00

Inconsistency

2011-04-17T18:12:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm in no mood today, I don't know what happened but serious to death, I have no mood what so ever. Maybe I should just be non existence. No body seems to care. NO BODY! I mean NO BODY!

That might be much better for you too, when I'm gone. You won't be bothered.

good?

bye.

lifeless is the same as being dead. Everything is dead.

career fair

2011-04-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

with a long and tired hello, I bit you again with helloooo... candy! haha.. not funny, but yes i am tired and frustrated. I went to the career fair with yana and we meet up with lina and elia afterwards. But to be a considered honest person, we WERE LATE! we promised to be there by 10am and we arrive at 12.50 or so! that's like so late of a promise. I was the one to be blamed heeee :P woke up late, went to print my resume and that's how we were LATE! oh, there was traffic congestion every where we turn.. can't do mistake there.

anyway, lina had to leave early because her sister might get pissed and elia left after lunch because she was on time :P we weren't and so we stayed till uhmmm roughly 6-ish or so.. to tell you the truth i wasn't expecting that kind of environment, i mean people were hasty and rude. everyone step on everyone's foot and i stepped on the interviewers foot because someone pushed me. I hate places that have people being so unconsidered. I had to go because I am jobless but still a trainee at nasharuddin wong. Looking a for suitable job and applying everywhere is a good reason.

I applied at banks, engineering companies i didn't knew existed, consultancy I didn't knew existed and I applied all that I can apply, my feet barely touched the ground. I'm footless currently! Tired! I had fun though, some people were very nice, appreciative, communicative and sociable. I really like that especially at the end when we were leaving, our last stop was AIC, they were fun people. There was also an exhibitior from my late father's home town in sekinchan. There's a funny story behind it actually, it was one of our few stops and we didn't know that company but we both saw an opening for accounting and finance, yana was also looking technical electrian for her brother and the man said that he might get based in sekinchan, so yana asked "where's sekinchan??" I was like it was at my father hometown?? even the man was like "ohh you know? not everyone knows" I was happy actually because we were related some how but he was nice, he even said maybe we can stumble with each other on raya, he lives there. I was like ok maybe. If i go back.

Another nice man was a guy from RBC-Dexia and also panasonic. They were nice people, friendly too. It's good to have people like that to approach in the beginning because it makes you feel like you want to work there and some exhibitiors weren't particularly nice so I wasn't thrilled to be there though it was one of the companies I thought of in the beginning, but suddenly, my heart just dropped and walked away.

For me, it was a nice exhibition and I had fun talking to these people working because you get to know the company and how it works etc.. especially the environment. that's a lot of knowledge you need to absorb into to be able to know if you want to work there or not. I hope I do get a call from these companies. Maybe the one's I highlighted or the ones I just found out was actually my kind of space. We'll see.. I'm praying for it to happen. Till Oct then you might know.

ohh yeah, I'm still reading secret garden, it's really a nice book. A classic. Find it, and read it. You feel the same way.

bye candy! pray for me.

Sincerity and Diligent

2011-04-10T15:16:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy,

This week I have been very diligent. I was busy that I forgot to post I don't know why but maybe because I was tired from all the travelling and walking about that you became unknowingly out of my mind. Never mind now, I'll try. Sincere from the heart, I am scared for the next few months to come. I'm going to start on my practical tomorrow till end of September. I'm not sure what to expect or what to do there just that I will be there and I have to be there. So yeah, Can't find a reason to get out ey? hmm..

Well, on Wednesday, Mama and I traveled to Teluk Intan for some business we needed to attend. While we're there we ate the famour mee rebus, sadly I did not take pictures as you might know where I'm lacking at.. if you don't please read some more hehe later, we visited mama hometown in Chikus. It's quite lovely with all the Padi Fields and the scenery is just brave taking. I must say, I fell in love with the view. Yes, My mama is a Kampung Girl who grew up to be such a wonderful person in the world. Anyway, because the scenery was just spectacular for me, i kinda like it there, fresh air, cows, goats, even chicken running around. You don't see that in the city. It's always busy and compact that life in the padi fields is more refine. I quite like it. I studied in the jungle if you must know. So i'm quite reserved.

On thursday, after the quiet traveling, we both went to putrajaya and ikea. I'm still decorating my room. Haven't finished yet and haven't even tried to finish it soon. I still need arts decor and maybe a bookshelf or a tv shelf? I don't know. I can' seem to think. Oh, While we're at Ikano, we went shopping for some cloths. Mine to be exact, I'm working soon so I don't have much working cloths or Baju Kurung for that matter. So I thought of buying some, and I'll try to post but that is not a promise. Please do compromise with me, I don't have much luxury to begin with.

Friday, the same. Still looking for working cloths but I haven't got a shoe fit for work. Hmmm.. Oh! I bought a Sudoku book, I'm currently trying puzzle 10. I know its funny but this is the forth book and it's quite hard i'm not sure why. I'm stuck at certain puzzle for nearly 15 mins just trying to figure it out. But, Time flies and i'm at puzzle 10. How fun! I like sudoku. you should too! It's mind bothering me for some reasons. And I bought the secret garden, a classic, i can't get rid of it. I'm stuck reading it at the same time solving sudoku. hmm It's diligent i must say.

I don't know why suddenly my wording or writing is weird for some reason but i think it's because of the book. It's taken over me. I really like classical books. It's fun to read at the same time it's grammar is superb.
If you please, read the secret garden and try a little sudoku for fun? I'm sure you'll love it the way i do.

darylrosemd

lolpics.se/5994-boring

www.toxel.com/

I would totally agree to this, i won't be getting out the toilet any time soon!

Bye candy!

A party for the heart

2011-04-03T15:55:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

I know I've been away for a long time already. But I'll make it up to you, I'll try to post something in time. I'm sort of sad actually. Honestly I am.. I still am.. and I'm not going to lie about it but I'm crying in many way possible.

instead of telling you in a long paragraph I've decided to short listed everything and well here it is:

1. I've finished with my finals yeaa!!
2. I've finished studying! no more studying!!
3. I haven't graduated yet :((
4. I need to do 6 months worth of practical
5. I can't have my convo this year along with my batches! :(((
6. i won't be able to see my adore friends!
7. I won't be able to see my king kong, rimau, kambing, tuntung and kak min (whose name i don't know)
8. I haven't got to spend much time with arief as I wanted too :(
9. I'm going to miss my syg arief!!
10. I miss my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11. I miss the sight of life there
12. it's mama, shahrul and my birthday lunch today
13. I AM 23 YEARS OLD NOW!!

It's five years. TOTAL! So yeah, my studying days are over and my working days will begin next week monday! so I'm overwhelm by it but i'm kinda sad though. It's like the familiar faces you wanted to see, well they live far away from where I'm staying so it's hard. I miss them. I miss him. I will miss that life of studying there. It's where i can run free. trust me, life as a student is a life you can never forget. why? easy its the most easily thing you can do. and as student there's always a life. as an employess? not really, you're always stuck in traffic and in meetings.

if you get what i mean.

to all my friends: thank you for your wishes and i miss you so very much!
to my beautiful boyfriend; thank you for spending time with me, though it was short but i will remember it always. i will always love u. Our next life will soon begin and i hope every challenge comes, you can fight it. you're a fighter!

:)

Have faith in life

2011-03-17T21:21:00.001+08:00

I found this while browsing yahoo just now, so i thought i should share it with you guys and hope that it'll gives you the remembrance that anything can happen in life and that we are all equal, there is always hope. Keep on holding strong!

Here is the link to what I've been reading about it and I don't know if it touches you the way I do, but definitely it gave me something to look at, to think about and to remind me.

Dog in Japan stays by the side of its ailing friend in the rubble

(edited) sorry I've put an image of the dog but something else came out, so i had it removed. If you want, you can click on the link above for further information. thanks

Please read, and do help out.

Thank you.

Shaken

2011-03-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

luar-moonlight

Think deep.

2011-03-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy,

I may or may not be posting anything in the near future, meaning that my finals exam is coming near in just 2 weeks or less. So I'm going to be focusing on it more than I'll be posting on my blog. Even so, I've great news! I was offered by one of my closest friend to an interview at this big multinational company! and trust me! I will not miss this awesome oppurtunities. It's once in a life time, plus! I didn't even apply to it! So yeah, I'm superb happy about it!

Anyway, Some days have been rather bumpy for me. I don't know more or less, maybe it's because I'm finishing and time flies easily, I guess, People are affected by it, I think it's because people want to grow up and be mature and well, i'm going for my internship soon, so I must very well be skilled enough for such conditions. No matter what hell comes my way. That's the great thing about it, if life now is hard for you, sooner or later it's going to be better.

Someone told me or rather my lecturer told me that sometimes people brag about things that want but they can't have yet they don't get to see the big picture. Know what i mean?

"you may ask for a butterfly, but you'll get a cocoon" see it wisely, in the future the cocoon will turn to a butterfly that's the beauty about life.

I may not be perfect to some eyes, but I am proud that I am me and I can try for things I believe is great for me. Therefore, I'm sure in life you'll regret in doing certains things, should you be?

off course, that's what teaches you. Those mistakes teaches you to be strong and have a bountiful heart. Life is never cut to short. Move on. Live. then you'll see.

Get what i mean?

Bye candy! Sorry for everything.

hanging

2011-02-14T15:26:00.002+08:00

Hello Candy!

I've been very pissed off these past days, honestly I would love to tell you about it but maybe later. I have something to consider before publicly posting it. It's sensitive because it involves a few parties. But if I don't post it then maybe it means i'm in good terms, maybe i'll just tell you a bit. But that's later. I'm sort of busy.

Happy being busy!

Language Is My Creativity!

2011-02-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

My title has no relation what so ever with what I'm about to say. Oh wait! Green Bee is not suitable so I'm going to change it since I've got something relevant to say.

So, As you can see, My blog is fully English, only minor here and there but it's okay. I hope some people can read or understand. I know it's depends on circumstances of that particular person and also the knowledge that those people have to acquire those knowledge. But, let me say BUT not everybody knows english very thorough like scholars and english teachers would. Well, there's classical english and modern english and NOW there's uhmmm internet english?? Hehe like short term for oh my god! or be right back??

why? would? you? ruin? it?

I know I said OMG a lot but I kinda realizes that if I keep on writing in short or slang, I might actually forget the actual meaning. You know what I mean?

hmmm.. you don't?

Okay, so I heard stories from teachers, lecturers and even friends. I mean like Bahasa Melayu also have short slang stuff.. erghh I don't know what to call it... hmmm.. arief did a thesis once and theres actually a name for it... hmmmm.... never mind.. but the stories is that STUDENTs now a days, forgotten their language very abruptly! I mean like, in an essay, majority of them can't spell well or read well. Seriously? is this how we've become? I know it's like not everybody is stupid...

I'm not saying anyone is stupid but what I'm saying is what happen to the dedication and love towards the language?? there's used to be like novelty writers such A. Samad Said and Keris Mas.. what happen??

Sure some might say, "you're writing in english! why can't you write in malay?'
my answer would be "did you know that in todays working environment, people are majority looking
for people who are fluently speaking english so that can interact with overseas easily?"

So Do you get my point? I mean I speak malay sure I have flaws in speaking or understanding them but at least I'm not faking it!

I mean nowadays teachers are complaining that their students writes awkwardly?

example of proper malay : Saya sangat bahagia hari ini
example of not proper malau : Sy sgt bhgia hari ni.

See what I mean? Doesn't it ruin the beautiful pronunciation towards the lovely language we have?
It's not just that, even in english. Not all can read english and not all can understand.

What I'm actually saying is........

WHAT HAPPEN?

what happened to when we once love our language and fight for it?

Tell me your thoughts.

Kittens Upgrade!

2011-02-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

So I've updated the blog to a new layout. A more simple and something which I think is a great new way to express with the colour and bashful. But I'm not so sure since I kinda think my old layout is better than this one. However, though the old layout sort of had navigations and some error in terms of the comment. Not everyone can comment on it, so I've decided to change to allow people to comments.

I hope you'll like as much as I do. All the backgrounds are from blogger. There's no more from other sources maybe just the pictures I've posted. When, if you look at it very thoroughly you might find some thing new in which I'm not going to tell you. If your a loyal reader, I'm sure you'll find it.

Anyway, I'm going to bed now. Tomorrow I have 4 classes! and 3 are direct from 8am to 1pm and the last class would be from 5pm onwards.

Good night my little lovelies.

It's the great ravine!

2011-02-08T16:01:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm not sure how I should begin but let's begin, I think I'm having a writers block. I'm not sure what it means or what the heck it is but I'm finding a dead end to my creative writing blog. Hmmmm... I mean I've read others blog and other creative writing tumblr, but those people are like damn man, I wanted to write that and it was so superb the way the wrote it. Compared to mine, I'm like mediocre. I don't know. I starting to judge myself now. Is it worth it? or Is it damaging me? You know? I'm not sure if you do but I hope you do.

So, I'm gonna be truthful to you, I want to change my layout for my blog (both I think) but we'll see.. If I found anything interesting then maybe.

Maybe that could help me, find better idea.

But truthfully, there are people reading my blog and the respond is so nice but I'm judging that too. I guess I need to kick it up a notch yeah?

Saving require commitment

2011-02-07T21:09:00.001+08:00

Hello candy!

I know I've been posting something a bit smaller then usual, but anyway, I don't have anything interesting particularly. I'm back at uniten and I'm a bit because well, mama is at home and I'm here.

Well, to my topic, I've decided to save up some money and to do so I decided to fast! I mean it's a good thing and I can diet too. Hehe

Wish me luck.

Away on a cold day

2011-02-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

Well, today's saturday and tomorrow, I will be going back to Muadzam and I'm kinda worried because of the flood that's been going on and stuff, so I'm a bit worried if the road is okay or not, or you know. I'm just that worried!

Another thing is that, I'm going to be leaving mama. And it sort of a burden for me to leave her, she's going to be home alone with no one to take care of her, I know she can take care of herself, but as a daughter and I'm literally living with her, I am sorry for doing so. I only have 2 more months to go and I just want her to be happy and in 2 more months, I will be back home working and taking really good care of her. I hope I do well, and I appreciate it if people would help me too.

So It rained today, Hmmm that's not a good sign. Pray that tomorrow will be sunny and lively.

Bye Candy!

Pictures!

2011-02-04T16:35:00.000+08:00

mytinytots

smileysya

inspiredbythisfeeling

these are my curremt addiction!

inspiredbythisfeeling

sweet disposition

2011-02-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

It's friday, and there's something special today! I'm FASTING! Yeah.. :P well, Since during ramadhan I had a week of because I'm a lady and we have those days in the month so yeah, I'm replacing or something like that since I have missed some during ramadhan. And It's compulsory that you replace it!

So my menu for today is Fried Noodles and Dumplings! Hehe, I'll try to take pictures of it and post it if I can.

Happy fasting!

(500) Days of Summer [Bank Dance]

2011-02-04T02:53:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I've found this video on youtube and I kinda lovin the dance and the movie is just so surreal and sweet to watch. So i hope you enjoy the video. I do! I was smiling, it's like a tingle in my body.

Enjoy!

Music: Why Don't You Let Me Stay Here?
Performed by She & Him

Lovin it!

Loveable Lane

2011-02-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

So if you hadn't notice on my Facebook that I recently went on a DATE!! With two of my high school friends! Ct and Jay! Yeah!! That rhymed! hahaha Anyway, I'm going to tell you all about it! it's so fun yesterday!

First off, the night before, I set up an alarm on my phone to rang at 8.30 so i could get ready and make up and blablabla, but, the phone never rang!!! UHHHH!! My mom woke me up and like 10am! I was suppose to be at Pavilion at 11AM!!! And I got ready as fast as i could, I mean I was like in fast and furious with my self! I dislike my make up so much but my friends said "it looked good" but you've should seen how mane times I tried to changed it.. I tried like 5 times but it came up like that? huh... I really dunno! Another thing was that, I was suppose to wear purple but I couldn't find my dress, and it was somewhere there?? I think so I've decided to wear brown or warm colour tones. I think that's why I'd changed my make up a lot! So guess what? with the spinning in my room with make up all over the place and my scarf being changed so much too in an hour or less? I could say like 45mins?? tops hahahaha So fast! But it wasn't fun. But I made it out with looking great according to my friends.. you'll see

so, at around 10.45 or so, I got out of the house and rushed my way through the streets, calling arief telling him I would be going out with my friends and Well, I was walking, i'm out of breath! My new home is really near to the train so it's in walking distance like 500m or something like that?? I dunno I suck at measuring and math.. (yet you're an accounting student?) oh ok! so I was walking or run walking or whatever you call it, and ct called saying she'd arrived but I was LATE! uuuu!! Hmmm I wasn't too happy but I made it to the train like 5 mins or so, and waited for the train like 5 mins or so, I was pissed sweaty and I think i'd put perfume on.. wait... wait... yup I did! while waiting, I texted with arief, my mom and ct telling them i was waiting for the train and well the train was late! i was late! and I was sweatyyyy!! YUCK! So when it'd arrived, i counted the stops like first i thought it was 8, then I look again it was 6 but actually it was 7 stops from where I was.. huhu.. and thank you I didn't embarrassed myself! after getting of hang tuah, I went to monorail and decided to take a train since from there I could walk rather than walk from hang tuah, which would make me more sweaty, yucky and late! Ughhhh.. so waiting for the train and I'd came fast! I was happy. And I walked all the way from Lot 10 to pavilion with sweatyness and yuckyness. So i arrived but I went to the ATM first.

Later, I saw ct and I was like hugsss.. (eee I'm sweaty) but who cares! i didn't meet them for like ages! I missed them so much! Afterwards, I saw a GAP bag, i was like did you guys go shopping?? it turned out to be my scarfs that I asked ct to buy for me and she gave me 5 scarfs but since jay was there i gave her 1 of it. It was nice! Ohh.. I loved the scarfs! THANK YOU CT!! so we went to buy our food and chitchat a bit. About the crisis in egypt, ct is a dentistry student in egypt, so yeah i was worried about her and jay talked about her ex and school she's a teacher. I talked about crap, i dunno? I didn't remember :P but anyway, About the food?? uhh.. I was eating korean! it was my fave dish in the whole of pavilion! kimchi ramyeon! but didn't take photos because it was drying up and the ramen was getting over cooked! so I'll post photos later of the foods.. swelll!!!

later, we walked and found the times bookstore, I was like being uhmm a promoter? to ct which book to buy or which book not to buy, she decided to buy one it's from kazuo ishiguro. It's a wonderful book, i mean the writer is noted "the best writer of the century" right? Who wouldn't like it. So Ct bought the book and it's this book "never let me go"

oh before i forgot, the photo link is from amazon.com. So i'd recommended her the book. I haven't finished reading it yet but I loved it from the first few chapter i'd already read.

Later, we watch the movie "the green hornet" ahahaha i actually wanted to writr the green lantern! hahaha I'm laughing myself off it's was funny! Oh yup... The movie was a bomb! It was funny and though there's not much action involve I mean i was expecting like kung fu man! Jay chou! Yea. he was handsome! I'd love him it the movie, I'm a fan of his actually. but the english, I didn't think it was great, I didn't get some words jay chou was saying. So that's not a good thing. It's his amercian debut but i do wish he did his best and the american accepted him there. I wish you the best man! You're like a very good singer and actor. Plus you're handsome! I'm not going to comment on the movie but i thought it was funny and cool though there are mishaps but I had fun watching it. I was laughing my ass off haha.. But actually we were chosen to pick two movies, it was either the green horner (there i go again the green lantern???) or KHURAFAT a scary malaysian movie. But me and ct didn't want to because the reviews were scary and I can't sleep at night!

After the movie, Ct had to go home, so yeah we separeted and Left for our homes. I didn't tell you much about my time with them because It's best If I only know, it's my memories of them. I love them dearly and I do hope they do their best in the future, get married have kids, great jobs and well Friends Forever!

For ct:

"I wish you all the best in your life. I hope you take care of youself there and hope that no harm is done on you. I'm worried hell that if anything happens to you, because I can't help you there since i'm here but I will pray for your safety as well as your health. Thank you for spending time with me and jay, and thanking for the lovely scarfs! I do want more hehehe I love you for being my friend and you're always in my mind."

For jay (jay chou :P)

"there are other great guys in the world, I know someday, you'll find him. Don't go looking, It'll turned up. Life must be lived in the fullest and fastest way possible. You're beautiful. You know you're beautiful. I know you have a very big heart and that you'll always make your way. It takes time to handle it. You'll manage it. Don't worry. I'm hoping you have a great adventure as a teacher and you'll teach all the great things in life for them. Train them and have them to expect the world as we all know it!"

Oh here's the photos!

this is ct lunch for such a small girl! nasi padang and gimbap!

Jay's luch, ikan bakar! yummmyyy..

kerabu manga or mango salad. Jay's lunch..

this is us!

(blue: jay, purple and pink: ct, striped brown and grey: your's truly!)

me doing funny faces and habit

I so agree!

me and ct

me and jay

ct and jay

ct and me with funny faces..

as you can see, i need to lose the weight. Oh so help me! hahaha No food! Yummmy nyumm nyumm :P

Bye candy!

Help the need!

2011-01-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm on my holiday but it's not really a holiday since I've got mid term and assignments to finish but yet,, i'm too lazy so yeah. Yea me! but i really need to enhance myself I mean I'm going to get a job and I'm going to need to be more ethical and NOT lazy. We'll see..

Today, Is actually My sister's birthday but we celebrate it yesterday. Since yesterday is a sunday it's easier and no one's working on that day. So it was fun, food was DELICIOUS if I may add... I mean like Nasi Minyak, Kari Sayur, Ayam Kurma, Daging Sambal, Sambal Taun which is a seafood very nyum nyum, aca nenes and I made my specialty of course chocolate chip cookies. I wanted to make a cake but mama said NO! we BUY it.. So it's that my cake are bad, but i do agree i'm still a first time baker and i need to improve if i want to make a birthday cake not like those cikai2 cooking kan? so much needed for enhancement. my cooking, my habits and well my sleeping habits too. Hmmm.. So much...

So okay, today, we went to pay some bills and eat at this very tasty place near Pasar Gombak. Just right next to it actually a small minangkabau eatery. I was eating and when i was finished, I saw his begger and I think his from pakistan. He gave this small gift for people to pay.. you know? like you pay some money i gave u this as a token. Well, its a 1000 dinar and firstly, my thought was like don't come here because I'm myself don't have that much money since I'm an orphan and I have no sources of income but he came and My mom was like giving him coins instead of dollar bills because like i said, even we don't have enough that's all we can afford to give him. I'm not lying! it's the truth. So I think my mom gave him like $3 something worth of coins and he went to other people but they sort of ignored him, I was feeling bad really bad and i remember I don't have any cash on my hands so I couldn't do anything. When my mom went to pay at the cashier, I saw him sitting down, expecting some one to help him with food, and NO ONE CAME!! and I was like please man help the guy, give some food to the needy! and I was so embarrassed by it! I smiled at him though, He smiled back and That's all I could give him, a very generous smile with a heavy burden heart. If i have enough, I would seriously pay for his food. He was that hungry, but i didn't have that much in my wallet. When I left the eatery, I saw him going to the waitress pointing the coins my mom gave to him and the lady just pushed him away and told him to leave. I was feeling rather bad. Seriously. I was. I told my mom but she said, even we couldn't afford to help him. In my heart, I wished dearly that some one would help him, I know this why? I knew it deep in my heart that we have to help no matter what the races are. Just like them.

Why am i talking about these stuff? I saw on Tv last friday 2 days 1 night. koreans tv variety show. And I was amazed by them accepting their foreign workers and treating them so well. I mean if you'd watch it, you'd feel it too. I was touched seriuously! I don't know how much I said seriously? but seriously. Think! they came here for work, for money, not for themselves but for their family back home. They have no one else here but themselves and they came here with expectations of us being all kind, and generous like the promotions we did on tv being all nice and stuff but are we? are we being truly nice to them? I'm not sure because I'm seeing doubles. I mean I know foreign workers whom came here so much and some of them works at factories, mamak stalls and much more. I just hoped that their manager and employer are being nice to them as they were expecting. It's hard you know being in some body's else country. A place you don't know and A place where you hoped to have a better life but people treat you differently and rudely. It's just not nice.

Imagine yourself, being at their place. I know the feeling. Even though I haven't been through it but I know have hard it felt. If I were in their place, Deep down inside, I know how sad it would be to actually have to go through life without support and friends. It's that hard. People kept whining here and there but You need support to get you going. So that man, was in help but I couldn't help but I hope for others who read these and feels the same way I do to help them. Don't ignore them. If you have a bit of decency, gave a little money. It's not hard. Just $5 would do. It'll help them to eat for one day. I mean for just one day, they can eat and feel happy because someone out there help them. I'm sure those people wouldn't forget the kind hands that help them.

If you see a man, in blue shirt (not t-shirt) and black pants, that's the man I want to help, in turn please help me, help him instead. He needs it more than i do. I have my support but he doesn't. Please, it will give you great feelings as well as deeds. He have a kind heart too, it's in his eyes.

Thanks!

humane

2011-01-26T15:05:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm sorry I didn't wrote for so long or should i say I rarely blog nowadays?? well, since I have the free time starting today but ending tomorrow I might as well spend it with you! So what have i been up to? hmmm not much really just studies, boredom and well spending time with arief.

Truthfully, I've been having exams for these last 2 days and assignment as well as presentation since 2 or 3 weeks ago. SO....! I didn't have that much time to blog. But I did blog I think a few weeks ago about cakes? I wanted to do a part 2 which was more about how the cake looked like sweet, simply and delightful but I didn't get the time so I might as well start later (hmmm not sure when).

I've had these done:

1)malaysian economy presentation

2)Islamic Accounting assignment passed up.

The only assignment needed to do now:

1)individual and group assignment for malaysian economy

2)specialised accounting group assignment

3)specialised accounting mid term

4)job interview

5)malaysian economy individual assignmnet presentation

6)finals!!!

7)i don'r remember!!!

so there you go... this is my last semester studying and next semester would be working as an intern. I'm not sure how that'll be like but i do hope it's not stressful or hard (some stories i've heard). I must well spend my time living as a student and pretty much well.. be a student. when will i get to be a student ever again right? to feel young again? (i'm not that old!)

yup. let's get my study life over on this road and so that i'll be ready to be a worker soon and not brag how much i miss my life as a student. Since, i didn't want to grow up early or well i'm not that matured yet i think...

tralaalallala

I had my mid term exam for islamic accounting yesterday.. yea! guess what? i flunk it! I couldn't do it as much as I wanted too! I mean, i studied the whole 5 out of 6 chapters and I was expecting something else but It turn out to be what i wouldn't expect! grrr.. even arief couldn't do it. So yup.. I wonder how my final would be like.... since EVERY CHAPTER is in!! ughhh.. damn..

get the books out.. :P not yet!

i'm tired today.. why? I had two quizzes today. One is Malaysian Economy which i forgot to put on the list and second would be specialize accounting.. both were okay. thank you since i studied that part and i didn't even know it was all theory i didn't even focus on it. It was just a hunch that I've read theory. pheeww.. lalala

so now im here with you. well, i'm currently having a neck pain from a few days of studying but i need my rest. Oh well.. i'll see u soon.. oh not to forget.. i've found this so cute pictures which i thought was very humane! and I want to share it with you. I hope you like it. it's funny and cute. Enjoy!

from tumblr

9gag.com

neverkisswithoutlipstick

isn't this cute? I was looking for a picture about mad behavior actually haha i was just typing and seeing if theres any picture relevant. I want to continue with notes to dotts but these pictures came out! I mean like OMG so cute!! how is it even angry?? right? irrelavant!

omg! i haven't literally wrote a story for like ages!

ABC

2011-01-20T13:23:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm currently enjoying my eating time haha I'm eating ABC not as in the alphabets but Air Batu Campur. In englist it would be Combine Rock water haaahha funny... -_- hmmm not at all... huhu

Well, if u do come to malaysia, it's a must eat thing especially if the whether is hot and its in the afternoon, just like how u would drink tea in the afternoon right?

so enjoy!

splendid serenity Pt 1

2011-01-11T13:58:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm sure you all will be at auwwww or OMG or uhhhhh or lalalala or maybe just hmmmm so? right? right? right?

but for me when i saw these photos i'm like shhhhhhh.....!!! omg!!! waaaa!! damn i'm hungry! seriously??

ughhh.. why do you look soooo goood??

so for all you wondering here what i found to be like so hungry for... really I still am just thinking about it..

taaaadaaaa....

adaolivia

this is just a preview...! I have like tons more literally tonss! i don't know!

victorias-vintage

chocolate!! ohhhh... i know right?

nanaisreal

i'm droooling..!

blaynebrewsky

ughh.. ok stop! think rationally!

what do you think?? right right? don't lie if you didn't drool! u must have.. if you didn't.. i have more!

but.. don't like the one's above.. this one is different.. just splendid!

enjoy!

nice one right? pretty too..

cake's like these are suitable for any event! but the price is pricy like wow!

see? these are so festive!

as you can see it's for a baby birthday's theres no limitation for it!

blog.pinkcakebox.com

amongst what i think is just so beautiful to look. I mean they must've spend like hours really long hours too make it look so beautiful! the moolah, the cash, the $$$ is very much like $$$$$. know what i mean?

credits to the pinkcakebox.com

hmmm.. i just want to taste it!

here's some more that just simply delightful..

cheap-wednesday

gimorbeck

tumblelog/jingy

don't you feel hungry? I know I am...

okay! bye! see you next time...

Balls, Balllllllssssss, and more bbbbbbaaaaaaaallllllllllsssssssssss...

2011-01-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

Today is a very gloomy day why? there's no sun and obviously, there's no heat! Huhu.. what a sad day but, Well.. it was sad at first but then I went to meet with arief for lunch but was cancel because He was invited to play futsal..

So first thing I saw today other than the Tv and Internet is the Futsal... It's a very fun game. I had fun and watching him play was fun too...

Later, I saw a football game between Gun-punk and I forgot their name.. but Gun-punk won 4-0 with i'm not sure what to call the kick but it's seems like a far kick or free kick what ever kick la! I don't know there was a name for it... excuse me for being a football dummy.. but i know the last kick was well good one :P why? because the enemy kicked it into the goooaalll.. how luck is the game? but embarrassing for the player who kicked it.. :P

so that was my day. I'm gonna do my assignment now.. lalalala

bye

january event's is bashful!

2011-01-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

Again! Hii! i've been a maniac blogging.. i think it's because i'm boreddd!

so here's this month event!

8 january = my sister's birthday (elida)
17 january = my anniversary with arif (monthly)
26 january = midterm islamic accounting
31 january = my sister's birthday (alin)

huuuuu so much birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

bye candy!

Happy Memories With Friends

2011-01-06T20:09:00.002+08:00

Hello Candy!

Well, This post is about friendship. I love these people so much not only because their my housemate but it's because They Don't Care and they help you no matter what! That's why I love them so much!

Awanis A.K.A Cahaya Hati left us hanging without notice! I mean she abandon us! With nothing! No money! No love! No one to hold on too! HAHAHAHAH I'm just joking! She's the most responsible person in the house actually. And yes she left us for her practical training which doesn't mean she left us totally! she's coming back for a visit on 21st Jan. I'll be here waiting!

Awanis has a gift, a real gift! She can cook very delicious food and I mean delicious as in Yummy Yummy YUm YUUUUMMMMM!! She's sweet, take good care of me and well very concerning friends of course! She have a lot of stories she can tell, from her younger years till now, and you can't even get bored! I don't know why. Though in recent event, she went through tough times, she managed to get over it and move on, be happy and well, we entertain her well. :P If you have been able to see her in the eastern peninsular of Malaysia, SAY hello WANIS or something very nice "NEK NIS!" :p

Nealy A.K.A Tok li! hehehe... she's insane and she'll very much follow any insane behavior you've got! why? well let's just say, if we're bored and wanting something even if it means going to KUANTAN then, we'll go! No doubt about it! That's how crazy she is but she's nicer if you talk to her. Cunning too.. I mean, she's just nice to be with. To talk to. A good listener and a good cleaner :P Hi nealy! hehe... if you're reading this, I want to tell people how HOT and GORGEOUS you ARE! She's single and available! want her number? :P
(nk kena bunuh kot aku nih promote org mcm ni) hahahahaha sorry! I'm not selling me frens.. but I love her because she's there for me always when in times of vain.

Lastly, Never forgeting the cutest and the smallest

Hazirah A.K.A Mok yah! :P Hi Mok Yah! I love you. She divorced me like last year you know? However, We didn't get married legally or illegally... I mean there's like no black or white or prenuptial agreement. And suddenly, we're divorced? (actually it's just fun and games) hmm.. awkward! she's my roomie.. She's the noisiest, loudest and funniest in the house! without her, the house seems silent. You must need someone to scream right? Mok yah is the perfect candidate too! she's a busy woman i must say! You don't see her on weekends unless she's that busy! well what can i say about the cutest! somethings she's here sometimes she's laughing out loud!! really loud! we have something in common that is addiction to movies!

uhhhhh.. not forgetting! Moi the most sexiest and paling cunnnnn la! :P perasan jap je.. :p

i'm not going to comment on me.. haha... but i'll say something. I am the sexiest in the house :P Only They Know why... lalalalala

from left to right: neally, hazz, me, wanis

the green hijab is wanis, the pink one is moi (hehe) and the one in black is nealy

me and hazz

roommates!

me, wanis and hazz

i love them very much! we are like sister and we stand for each other. If one person is in trouble, we would held and help to get them out of it. That's what they mean to me. Even, at times of loneliless, when i'm with them, they make me laugh so loud that it's refreshing!

photos; credit to photgrapher all of us! and facebook! nealy tq for the photos. :P

muah muah

Green Parody

2011-01-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

I haven't been blogging for a while right? well, it might be that I'm bored (which is normal) or I'm busy (which is also normal) or i'm lazy (very normal!) The truth is, I don't know what to blog about so I've been blog walking and reading catcher in the rye. I haven't finished it yet though. Sorry but It's nice to read you know! You gain knowledge as well as your spelling and grammar improves too! Killing two bird with one stone right? but I don't like killing birds... I'm an animal person especially cat if none of you noticed! So how was your week recently? or your new year celeb? or anything?? I know i'm like wayyyyyy behind with it but I'm not gonna say much just that I've had the best new year celebration ever! EVER! why? I've spend time with my mom on new years eve and day too! hehe... We got to watch 2 days 1 night at KBS world which is pretty fun! yea...! I am happy, I wouldn't trade it for anything else.. Plus! it was family bonding time too.. though I must say, knowing your new year is starting with someone whose no longer with you, that is just saddening for me. I miss you Papa! I'm not gonna start with posting something very sad or very you know... gloomy.. instead i'm very much sure, my Papa would want me to be happy! and very protective of my mother! who wouldn't want that right? you're love of life.. so instead or resolution and achievement or whatever! i'm not gonna start having this shit about what i want to achieve or some random thing because i know myself WELL too well to even do it. i'm that lazy and forgetful!

so here's my lifetime resolution!
1. get a life!
2. get a job and decrease the unemployment rate!
3. save money for benefit of my future babies and mama (of course!)
4. go for HAJI!
5. continue studying? get a master or Ph.d maybe?
6. accomplish what I've been trying too that is my writing
7. get married!
8. die in peace and harmony!

so.. yea.. I'm sure some of you are shocked by number 8 right? but you must consider it. You might not know when you're going, thus! you might as well start preparing for it. Or maybe, pray that you'll have a longer and bashful life! I'm a muslim so I'll pray for everything that is good for everyone.

it's a lifetime resolution so i might as well begin now and know that it's not hard to achieve any of the above but there will be test, more test and more pain, resentment and well, people leaving you. soooo... i don't like doing year by year resolution because it's cheesy! very cheesy! honestly, i don't think I've had one before hehe so that must be why i'm so bored! hahaha... ohh shoot! NVM...

my life really sucks socially, fashion-less, and seriously! i think i have Alzheimer's disease or dementia! oh.. you need to remind me to take my food from shiha! hahaha they might hate me for it.. ouch! i'm very forgetful!

lalalala...

tastelikehoney

i've been blog-walking alrite..? so I've been seeing like these boots everywhere I think their the IN thing right now or the trend is that they super hot or something.. like PUNK would wear or Skinhead would too.. uhmmm wait? did i get that right? oh no matter! i'm not sure they r hot for me but to think about it, They do make you look better wearing a skinny pants! right?

walkthisroadalone

cute right? another new trend i'm seeing.. hmm i sort of like it but recently i saw on a post or somewhere It's not proper to wear leggings! because it reveals your curve and all... but skinny jeans doesn't?

curtainsclose

you know how i'm obsessed with red heads right? I'm still am! I don't know why but like OMG that colour really can spark your inner beauty!

oh! another thing, I'm thinking of cutting my locks too.. I kinda like these style she's doing.. it's cute but I don't know.. maybe I'll keep it long or short..

reschellyn

barbiebitch

oh so classy! don't you like these pumps? You can't find it here though..

mmishelle

I loving boths actually! I know this is so cliche! but People are now wearing leopard and floral print! I mean even the hijabs are all in leopard or tiger stripes or feline! and HONEST to ALLAH! I'm a freak for these print! I just gushed! I've been looking for these type of print like forever!!! only now, it's much more easier to find.

I think it's like a bit weird when you're craving for something delightful and sultry and nutty and nyummy and addicted and lustly and you get what i'm talking about! Seriuously?? Is the world thinking the way I am?? ehem.. ehem.. what? NUTELLA!

TADA***

tastelikehoney

so there! That is my parody of imitating some other people blog or website. or easy enough.. what i see in the internet and the world have been up to for 7 days or so... i think, the trend is spread so evenly and delightfully people are listening!

Mila Kunis

photo from ♠

OHHHH!! before i end my post, I've been loving her since that 70's show and she is just so pretty and cute and well, I'm a bit sad that she and Macaulay Culkin broke up but I'm hoping for the best of them. They have been in a relationship for a long time! She's just too pretty to see! One of the lovely people I would so wanna see..

before I end this really "I have no idea what i just post" post. I liked to post a few words of wisdom from random people and photos that really struck me that "there is a ray of light in the end of the tunnel" and that there will be people holding on to us no matter how we fall and help us as we heal BUT there will be people whom let us go because they're afraid we might infect them too. I know these come right out of nowhere, I just thought that maybe I just share with you that's life is what it is.

theskepticisafool

Love , Quotes , Reality / jaggyfries

theskepticisafool

kimaree123

princess_numnim

I know these is rather a long post with pictures and stuff. I do hope that these year everything would be alright, better and memorable than last. Things happen, bad things happen or more importantly, I'd lost you Papa but I hope these year, I can keep my end of the promise that I would take good care of Mama for you. I miss you, everyday I do. No body can change that right? We'll see each other soon.

that's all for it candy! I hope, you'd enjoy my parody as much as I do!

Life's too short

2010-12-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

How are you today? I'm swell dear internet friend... I'm not on my mind actually. I'm more of a...a... crazy? I don't know why... Maybe because I've lost communication with my brain or my heart or well.. something..

I've been reading The Alchemist By Paulo Coelho.

It's rather good actually. I mean if you're in searching for yourself then you should definitely read this book. It's some how, realistic.

The story is that, Santiago, the shepherd whom had a dream of treasure in the pyramids of egypt. Being uncertain of his dream, he had help from A King, A Crystal Merchant, An Alchemist and Gypsy Woman to find those treasure and also his destiny. I found it rather entertaining because it teaches about self-enrichment, empowerment, self understanding. There's also a bit of a fairy tale I think hehe.. Not quite sure but I found it has a bit of a fairy tale and amusement with all the magic, prophecy and dreams.

This book really teaches you to follow your dream and not to let them go cause if you do, you'll end up being haunted by them or you'll be thinking what would happen if I do these or I do that, you know? I've been there so yep! I don't know about my destiny actually, because I'm not sure but Santiago found his destiny in his dream so... My destiny will be coming in my dreams??

Anyway! I love the book because the plot is twisted in the end. WHY? read the book OK! But i'll tell you anyway, Santiago was suppose to find the treasure in Egypt but it turns out the treasure is actually back where he had his dream.. see.. there's the twist. But I know you'll be like what? what r u talking about?!! I'm telling you to read the booookkk!!

Oh! I've learn a new word to Maktub, it means "it is already written". In the book it says about how life goes and everything, but seriously.. It is the truth, everything we do in life is already written, no matter how much we tried to change it, you'll only ended going to the same direction.

So if you all please read it. I'm sure you'll find it amusing too. because i've found it very much fun to read! I didn't let go of it!

so if you please my dear friend. Read the book!

bye candy!

Long Face

2010-12-28T01:46:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

I'm stress out right now. I have no idea what to do. Probably I need to take a time out from everything. Everyone. I can't think straight. I can't. SO much.

May sun shine on You just like how you would love to shine for someone.

I'd like that.

Money Wise

2010-12-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

Today was an eventful day for me. As you know, I was bragging about not getting my PTPTN and today, as you want to hear about me getting it, I am sad to say, I didn't got them. Some people said that it might be yesterday but yesterday didn't and some say today but today didn't. How do these process works actually? Why is it that some of my peers have already got them but there are some that didn't got them.. right? How unfair! Some of my peers have got their PTPTN and now are spending it because it's sale season and caroler are singing but for those some of US didn't are well, sitting aside and looking at them well being all jealous. Do you get what I'm saying? Huh~!! I'm so frustrated! Is this how you promised us? I know there's system and process and all the crap there is but You really have to think about those of us who are unable to get money. Really it's unfair.

In other words, I'm dreadful seriously. I can't think clearly. It's not that I want to go shopping and go Jollying my loan or anything, it's just that Well truthfully, I need money. I need to survive. For how long do I need to ask money from My Mom right? She has her own trouble let alone to give me some. I just want to get out of the way and ensure she has no trouble with me. It's like I want to stop giving her any burden. I just want it to stop! I'm sorry for being a burden to her I'm just am. I'm going to finish studying soon and well going to work and earn my own money. Survive myself.

You know when you're young, you're always spending and asking these and that and SH*T.. why I bold it?

S is for substance

H is for help

I is for improve

T is for trouble

as crazy as it may sound. It is actually true and actual. As a matter of a fact, how much do you spend buying cloths and etc but you only used them for a short amount of time? In the end, either you sell for second hand or you give it to charity. It may sound nice that you gave it to charity and In Islam it is part of our religion to provide those in need or charity. But, it is critically about how you spend them. I mean you buy cloths and shoes and jewelry and stuff that in the end the value may be dropped or well, you get what I mean! Don't tell me you don't!! Everyone goes through them. Silly me! Why am i explaining it from A to Z anyway. Well since you get what I mean then you might as well know what I'm saying! Sorry I'm not mad just mad at myself.. Can't seem to figure why... hurmm...

Well, I know myself growing up, all I want was to follow my friends who were cooler and dressier or prettier or magazine that shows cloth like these and that and make up and shoes~! oh shoeS!! How mind bothering you are! I wasted all those and in return the shoes are either torn, thrown or useless because the era now has change. The trend has change and well cloths end too, only those that are in season like vintage and retro are you know what I mean. Well, I have to wait till I have children to give it too (if they want them, who knows right?) but serious in 15 years time including me being single and not married no children era, I think my cloths are either HISTORY or BANNED! that's what I'm thinking...

actually... I kinda got off the topic again... hurmmm... you know what, this is my head. and I can't figure my own head my self... I always talk like these, one topic without ending comes another one and here I go again mumbling a new topic about my weird brain!

back to my original topic, which i kinda got loss into, wait...what was my topic? oh yeah, haha... I don't want to trouble mama and me growing up buyiing shitty cloths.. ok.. so, I've plus and add and did calculations (which i suck at mathematics) and tadaaa!!

even if i got my loan, I have to do these first:

1) pay roadtax of my car (i have a car?? yeah I do! read my previous post really previous why ok!)

2) pay mama back for what she gave me these month

3) buy Mr Arief (my boyfie) his birthday and for getting such a good results for last semester present!!

4) I promised hazz and nealy, I'll treat them Korean Food! preferably KIMCHI

5) ~~Camera~~ (thinking do I really need them?)

6) ~~SHOES!!!~~ (seriously?? we have to go through that again??

7) format my laptop

8) go to nealy's home town as I promised!

9) ~~buy cloths~~ (since my current cloths are outdated, i'm an outfit repeater OKAY!)

10) new handphone (current one is broken, i'm using my late papa's handphone)

soooo... as you can see... I've did my damaged! and now I have to regret ever ever ever wasting money! I'm regretting buying those shoes and those useful items that is now not being used!!!!

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I'm so poor!! I mean I have like survive 14 weeks with the amount that I'm having?! yeah I do! Trust me candy, I feel like crying.. I'm so ashamed of how naive I am with money when Mama always told me that "when you grow up, you'll realize how hard it is to earn money" I do know. Sorry Mama for not listening to your advice. I am... If I saved all those cash I've got then, maybe I won't be so in trouble now right? Yeah, you're right. I won't be. So now, I need to save and well SAVE even if it's the SALE season! In malay, I would say "Harta tak boleh bawa bila dah mati" translation! when you die, those property that you owned will not follow you when you die. I know there's beliefs that says you can but in Islam, the only this that counts is the five obligation to satisfy in your life that will be bring you to heaven. or Syurga.

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So I think I went off the topic again.. HOW HOW HOW did I do THAT?? ok, nvm... I need to save up or earn my own money and stay away from shopping complex until duly noted I did to buy IMPORTANT THINGS!! PUT THAT IN YOUR MIND NATALIA!! please!!

fuhh...! I did, so I'll end here. That is a lot isn't it?? yup2... I've just read it and I'm like WOW! Ok..

oh, for those of you, I'm not asking for sympathy or your sorry or your charity. I just want to let it out. I do. I have a very heavy burden on my shoulder since I'm GROWING UP. so, I'm sorry if people think I'm KEDEKUT or GREEDY. I'm not. This is why.

bye candy. Thanks for well being there. in some way.

PS: in some way, my blog title is named Little Lady Candy Land and it's suppose to sweet as candy. Some how, what I'm writing is not as sweet as delectable as it may sound right? Hmmm.. i'm still searching for new layouts though...

Continuation of previous post

2010-12-24T13:04:00.000+08:00

Sorry I forgot to tell you!

I didn't go back home this week or Go anywhere In particular. So I didn't miss today's class which mama said I couldn't miss it. And Alhamdullillah I didn't miss it, why??

there's a POP QUIZ!!!!!

which took about 10 marks to add up with the previous quiz on tuesday so in total I'll be receiving something out of 30?? or for those who didn't come their marks will be strictly based on 20M total. Whoever came today, I guess was grateful that they came and we all got extra marks.

Yeah.

Okay, now i'm waiting for some decision to make! bye!

my dear religion!

2010-12-24T12:58:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

It's 12.30 in the afternoon on a very religious friday. It means that fridays prayer are going to be held soon. So i hope some of you men and boys go to SOLAT! OkAYH!!

This morning I sort of woke up later at like 8.15 something like that when I have class at 9???! no big deal?? HELLO!! I sometimes can get easily dressed or well I want to look pretty but doesn't achieve any! So yeah. Me and Arief nearly got into a fight because I was late getting ready.. Prolly because I was in the toilet with stomach ache. Nonetheless, we made in time. At first I thought my class was canceled because I saw a few people heading back or i thought that was my classmate... Maybe I should interact some more?? I'm such a snob! haha! I'm not sombong okay! Just malu nak tegur org... seriously! Anyway, we were suppose to have tutorial but it turns to be a ceramah or something... it was my lecturer husband (Ustaz R) (im not sure whether i should call me ustaz or not)(i'll check later on it) whose speaking at the front and he spoke a lot of good things! I mean, i paid attention alright with the coldness and the air cond and everything, I paid attention when he said that some of us weren't paying attention due to shivering and being in winter! so that caught my attention.

What he said was seriously true because As A Muslim we are responsible for our action. We were taught about Iman and Ehsan and Doing the Right Thing and Avoid Fraudulent and Misstatement and Full Disclosure.. I'm talking about accountings and accountants and accountable for your action. so yeah. My lecturer actually said a few weeks earlier that accounting was actually apart of our religion that we as muslim should know already! It was already written in the Quran and to my surprise! I was like really?? Wow we invented accounting firsts! So if your wondering which part of it; It's Surah Al-Baqarah verse 282. This refers towards how as an accountant we are accountable for our action and not to do what we're not suppose to do like you know.. uhmm fraud, lie, cheat, steal, mishaps, embezzle, gambling and stuff. He (Allah) sees everything and everyone. I'm quite intrigue by it actually. Before I ran off the topic, Ustaz R talked about the Angels and how Satan was mad about Adam and Us human being too weak with temptations. Its true actually, I must agree, We are taught that there's life after death like heaven right? And as A muslim, we prayed 5 times a day and that does not include all the Sunat prayers and the recitation of the Quran and Fasting and Zakat and everything else, those are actually what should I say, a deed, every good deed done here in earth, we earn more "Pahala" and we entitled ourselves to His and Heaven. So these is what's important to never forget to pray and the "WAJIB" is always always a must! Never forget! or NEVER EVER EVER EVER!! Leave any of it because on Judgement Day, we will be question! I think I went off the topic.. anyway, it's the same point actually because On judgement day, even if we did all those lie in account and how corporate failings and such, we will be in question too.. Does that make sense to you? I hope it does.

Thus, every one of us has an angel on their shoulders right? Angel in muslim is "Malaikat" and they sees everything we did right or wrong and they wrote it down. If I say a bad word that, it is most likely wriiten down. So, there's no need to lie or to be weaken by temptation of money or anything. I mean who isn't on a situation where Your told to do something bad and in return you get paid triple the amount of your salary or better 10000x more... right? who isn't weaken by that temptation. especially when you have wife ,children, bungalows, cars, etc..etc..etc.. right? I would feel it too but we must think differently. As a muslim, I need to know better. If in earth I live like this than in return what do i get for lying? only grief, resentment and regret. right? so think better. really think harder.

credits to My lecturer and her Husband.

Sorry if i've offended some people or anyone with the written above. i didn't mean too. I do hope however in return I gave you a rather good information or knowledge that was shared to me by two people whom love and adore each other and also whom know more than I do and I just thought maybe I should share it to you guys.

SO thanks!

Bye candy! Love ya!

Haven't we meet before?

2010-12-24T01:18:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm updating my blog soon. Trying to look for a new layout and something well--- some of my friends says they can't comment on my blog so I need to fix it since this HTML does not support comment or i can't find it anywhere.

Anyway, I'm pretty pissed with a few things! firstly, i'm stuck in the woods! booray! y? well, Christmas is coming tomorrow and it's a holiday and every NOT every students of United is going back home but there are a PLENTY i repeat A LOT are at home CURRENTLY! except for hazz my roommate and yaya my beloved friend whose actually travelling to new places as we speak! grrrr... I didn't follow either because well here's the second reason MY PTPTN isn't bank in yet! I'm seriously pissed because some of my peers already have their loan with them and me?? why am i always the one whose late in this kind of stuff?? honestly? C'mon man! I need the doe! I need it!!!! Not because I want to go shopping BUT i want to stop asking mama for money.

The third thing why i'm pissed is easy, I"M SOOOOOO BORED!! I don't know what to do or what to think. I kinda have work but I don't know yet what it is.. stupid isnt 't? Can't say why i don't know my own work! Being a writer is tough man! I borrowed a book from the library title "Writing as Craft and Magic" by Carl Sessions Stepp, it's actually a very good book. Some how, it helps me develop my writing a bit better in lots of ways though I honestly have to say I didn't get to read the whole book because i'm kinda distracted by 2 books which i will review later with to kill a mocking bird. I want to write a review of 3 books that i've read recently. Including Stepp's book I guess that'll be 4 books total then? Okay!

Since, my friends all went somewhere! I'm actually stuck in MUADZAM SHAH the most I don't know what to do place in the world! I went to eat dinner with Mr U. Arif me sexy lover! and then we both ask ourselves, what should we do next? and I was like well.... well... there's tunas manja... and I was like what? tunas manja??!! WTH do i even go there for in times like this? right? it's like a small mini jusco or giant only smaller I think.. NVM.. it is so aggravating! ughhhh.... then, we drove around this 5km or smaller TOWN for like 10 mins and I told me "U, I nk pegi bank, nak check pt dh masuk blom" he agreed and we went. while waiting I was praying and praying and praying.... and TADA RM10.00 hahahahahaha I can't even take that RM10.00 out! hahahaha... what to do what to do... so, I know if Yaya or Nealy is reading this, they'll be like "ALIA, we told you to come" or "Padan Muka! Tu la org suruh ikut xnak!" or somewhere there! but i know their reaction because they begged me to follow them to nealy's house this week only I felt a heavy burden following because I GOT NO MONEY! and I don't like to borrow people's money that is more than RM10. It's because I know I'll forget to pay! talking about paying, remind me to pay Kak Lyn the foodcourt lady I owed her RM3 for this mornings breakfast... SEE???? I forgot! My bad though! I'm such a forgetful person!

Now, i'm here bored. yearning. having nothing to do but read 3 books and well, i'm a reader of course but at times like these it's the only thing i could do...

oh..

i forgot! I was watching these blog by Maria Elena. And she is SOOOOOO SUPERB! I like her very much!

I mean she speaks english like i do! and she is more hyper and more cheerful and OMG OMG OMG SHE IS SOOOOO PRETTY!!! I serious adore her! I actually wore how she wore her hijab today, but Mr U. Arif does not like it... he said it was weird.. hmmm...

but!!! she looks so gorgeous wearing it! maybe she's the only one who can pull it off since it is her look after all... yep... Oh! If you want to learn how she wore her hijab, she actually made a tutorial and it was easy! I must say... Maria Elena is so preeettay! I envy you lar! Keep updating if you're reading this. I just love it!

Oh here's her blog. read it guys or girls or yeah inbetweeners... she's nice too! very nice! (angguk angguk) :P she's fun to watch.. so funny lar!

isn't she kewl?? and a fashionista i must say! kak maria elena how to skinny mcm u? serius jeles!

okay candy! I must go and be bored again or fantasize i've shopping or well.. I'll find something to do.. thanks for reading~!!

4!

2010-12-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

As much as the topic says I'm not sure what I want to write about as the topic. Well, I'm blog-walking and I found some interesting things like a community for hijabi if I'm not mistaken. Since i've started to wear one on ramadhan of 2008, I'm taking liberty of following their community and well see their style and ways of wearing a hijab. I'll hope it'll be fun. SO it means more shopping and more sMONEY!! I need some!

Anyway, Having fun blog-walking.. currently in indonesia! just now? Korea.. they have their ways for sure!

Nina Semen1

2010-12-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I've been nina semen since forever! Well, i'm actually loving the way she writes, it sort of dark and well pleasant. I'm sure some of you agree with me when you read her i'm not sure to call it a blog. but anyway, here it is, her URL click on it...

http://ninasemen.com/">Nina Semen

have fun reading! I think some commented on my writing to be very gloomy or sad and prefer it to be more scary or action and magical like harry potter, narnia and etc... I'm not sure what they mean but I write from the heart so I'll take note on why they said that and maybe just fix things better. SO if you please, maybe you'll like nina semen as much as i Do.. it is after all one of my idols though i have no freaking idea who he/she is for all i know her name is nina semen and well she exist as some one in this world who i can't trace!

to nina: I just love the way you write and what you wrote is wrenchingly heart warming! love it!

here's a preview of what she wrote!

tucked away in the corner of town is my great uncle’s old house. he’d lived in it since the day he was born. he’s dead now; he was schizophrenic. my great aunt - his older sister - said he came back from the war like that. apparently he’d been fine before. anyway, he went particularly nuts one night and jumped out of a three story window thinking something was after him. a demon or something.

the house has a rusty tin roof; the wood it’s built from is grey; the porch sags. can’t live in it, but i visit ever so often, just because. it’s a good place to think. it’s in the far back of a cotton field that no one tends to anymore, overgrown with brown and green, little bits of white speckled throughout it like dandruff. when i visit my dogs like to delve through it, chasing whatever animals they find until they come back to me, moping, with thorns and pricklers stuck in the fur.

past the field, before the house, at the edge of the yard is a white oak tree that my uncle called the lynching tree.

he said one night, when he was young, the white man that owned the farm his daddy worked on and some of his white friends strung up a black boy from it for not saying sir. that white man had been nothing but nice to our family, he said, and they thought he was fine, as far as white folk went, until that night.

that night they sat in their house, my uncle and his parents and his dozen siblings, including my great grandfather, crouched in the kitchen windows and watched that fine white man - that had treated his black father fairly and was always kind to his Cherokee mother - kick that boy in his ribs and laugh at him pleading for his life and murder him.

he said that after it happened his mother begged his father to cut that tree down, but he refused and that when he asked his daddy why, he just looked down at him with ice in eyes and told him “it’s to make sure ya’ll never forget. you can’t trust a white man as far as you can toss him, ‘less you plan on gettin’ hanged.”

i don’t know if the story is true or something the crazy in him invented. i never asked anyone else in the family: it seemed distasteful.

sometimes in the fall i’ll take people to that house and show them that tree. i rarely tell the macabre tale but i point out how when all the other trees’ leaves start whittling down and turning yellow and orange and brown, this one’s turn a deep shade of burgundy, almost like the red of deoxygenated blood

so visit her page now will ya!

Shall we dance?

2010-12-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I know the title is a bit weird but I like it! Well, I'm home now at ampang and I'm bored because ASTRO is causing trouble which makes mama's life a bit bored! Seriously?? HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO FIX A BROKEN ASTRO DECODER??? A MONTH????? WTF MAN??!!! I'm so PISSED literally! I want to yell at the man for ruining my mother's whole month of boredom! syhushshhhh... FU man! FU man!

phheeewww.. onwards with my life, I haven't been blogging for a while i'm guessing its because I didn't have the time or I'm busy or I'm just plain lazy but all in all I'm trying my best with myself to do some adjustment and some refreshment about my peculiar behavior. I'm still poor if you get what i mean... when is PTPTN going to bank in? I don't know or well I'm searching for my practical training centre and it's hard comparing on to another and the salary they give you and such but I'm in need of a place with good people, good interaction and good moral support so I can have the least of my worries in my future. yup that is all I need for the moment.

Well, I think this might sound stupid and awkward but I'm currently reading harry potter and the goblet of fire, well i don't collect all the series but I only have that one book so i took the liberty to read it and see how it goes and i'm on the 114pg currently, i must admit it is quite a good reading. Frankly speaking, i'm 22 years old turning 23 and reading HARRY POTTER??? wow! WTV! I think the movie have got some loose end that i'm confused with so I decided to read it to understand it better. So it is embarrassing to say but I might go buy the whole series if I may but I don't know if I will.. hmm.. we'll see... After all, I do have the complete series of twilight and I have to stress upon how I do not like the movie! FULL STOP! I don't know why i don't like the movie... I only watch the 1st but the rest is history for me. I even got the host by stephenie meyer. hmmm... didn't get to read that one yet. Anyway, I've finished with to kill a mocking bird by harper lee and i'm going to return it to balqis who is the rightful owner. it's a classic which i like especially with how scout is think and jem is the brother who always take care of his beloved only sister. I find it very sweet and lovely to have family like that. And the book really is cunning to began reading with. I found it to be memorable and well, sure it's ending is fast with Mr ewell dead and all but I was hoping that harper lee would write some more. hmm maybe i'm thinking too much about it... NVM....

continue with my weird mind right now, I'm hungry for no reason at all... its sound means I need food! Feed me! feed me! I just ate like at 1pm just now.. hmm.. what is wrong with me... i've suddently became the fatty bumbum i've been avoiding... need to exercise!!! urghhhhh!! talking about being skinny, i want to dye my hair read I'm father fond of it. Maybe because I'm pale and that colour may make me look more stunning even though i wear a hijab. but nonetheless, it's a very nice colour and i want it badly!!! See this picture.. she's beautiful with that hair colour.. hmm... envy!

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My hair is currently like this long but i think it's a bit more longer.. i dunno i didn't measure it properly

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You guys know how i'm fond of cats right? Aware of it that some of my previous post have pictures of kitten?? Even my blog URL is based on kittens too?? Well, I just found some really cute and adorable kittiess!! UGHH... SO cuddly! I want one! but i can't this place where i live, i'm not sure if we're allowed too but i think its safer to not to adopt a pet. Maybe if I move to a better place than it's likely i'm having one pronto!

so here: the adorable cute and debonair kitten!

isn't he cute!! I found it on a page but i couldn't link it to it's rightful owner. SO if you know, please tell me

I'm loving the books! Its propotion and well i don't know what type of books this is just love the cat and how it fits with the books and the shelf

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from someone's facebook.. didn't catch the name of it.. do tell me if you know thanks!

well, i guess that's all for it now!

bye candy!

Pricing should be fixed!

2010-12-09T23:45:00.001+08:00

Hello Candy!

Well, I went out to eat dinner today and Nealy, Ili and I went to this place near Uniten. Well, since Uniten that I'm in is at a rural area I don't think I should tell you which place it is since there is a lot of students whom eat there too. So, I ordered Tomyam Mushroom and Drink Hot Lime. When I was eating, I thought of how delicious it was and I'd like it because well it's my fave soup and then when I went to pay for it. I told the lady what I already eaten, at first I thought she wanted to calculate it but then she decided not too and then she said "RM8" and I was like WTF?? That can't be! So I asked her "Kak, How much is the tomyam?" her answer was sooooooooo oblivious! It was so unexpected! "The tomyam is RM7" and I was more and more mad! I was furious so I told her that the menu said the tomyam is 'RM3.50' and she was like really? I didn't know that let me check, so she went to asked her friend whom worked there and said it's "RM5" and I was even more mad! excuse me?? RM5?? the menu said rm3.50 and why did u mark up the food for RM1.50?? I was like look the menu said RM3.50 and I didn't want to pay at first then she went on bragging saying that's the old price and the new price is RM5 and I was even more mad then nealy who was also shocked asked "why would you put that price? change it" the lady answered "i already told her (her friend) to change but she didn't change it blablablablabla..." excuse me???? WTH??? ughhhh... I think there is need for rules with these food I mean sure vendors are allowed to sale but the price should be fixed and no mark up! it's not like you gain anything like that, you're only losing customers!

I seriously would not want to eat there again! trust me! I won't! I don't care if I have to strave or go to Segamat or Kuantan! Ughhh.. I said to nealy that with RM5 I can eat Paprik Fried Rice or even Kuey Teow Kung Fu! The rice cost RM4.50 and the Kuey teow cost RM5... or even fried noodle nealy eaten was only RM3.50 and that is even more fulfilling that the tom yam! I am so furious! I'm not rich lady! I have got no income to generate sale or profit! Be fair! We're just students and we have no job! As for me!! I have no father to go to for money! Keep that in mind! Your just being selfish for that! I can even buy Mcdonald Fries that cost less than that!

Bye candy! I'm just pissed off! PPTBMFHGFRTYED!!!!

My Top Anime

2010-12-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hello candy~!!

Today, I'm going to list down my fave anime that i'd watch for a while now. Be seriously, I watched tons already! I mean a lot of them. I'm not just a book worm buff, I'm also an Anime buff and well Music too.. These three components are me. SO I am delighted to say I'm still a child at heart with all this lovely and magnificent interest of mine!

SO, here are my fave anime!

1. Bleach

Kurosaki Ichigo is a 15 year old boy that has an ability to see ghosts/spirits. Because of his ability, he is able to meet a female death god (a.k.a Shinigami) named Kuchiki Rukia. To save his family and friends from unwanted soul-eating spirits (Hollows), Rukia transfers her Shinigami powers to Ichigo. As Rukia takes on a human shell, together they solve mysteries involving spirits and hollows until from the spirit world comes 2 other shinigamis explaining that it is illegal to transfer Shinigami powers to humans and Rukia exceeded the time limit to stay in the human world. After they sentence her death for breaking the laws, Ichigo snaps and swears to everyone he will retrieve Rukia by breaking into the spirit world.

2. Fushigi Yuugi

Miaka Yuuki, an average middle school student caught up in studying for exams, is sucked into an ancient Chinese novel titled "The Universe of Four Gods". There she discovers that she is in an ancient country in what is now China, Konan, and is to be the Priestess of one of the four gods, Suzaku. As the priestess, her duty is to gather the Seven Seishi of Suzaku, who are to be her protectors. Once they are gathered, the priestess will summon the god Suzaku and bring peace between the warring lands, Konan and Kutou. But it's harder than it seems. Along the road, many hardships are faced, as Miaka's best friend Yui Hongo enters the book and becomes her rival, the priestess of Seiryuu in the land of Kutou. Who summons their god first is up to the courage and skill of the priestesses and their seishi, as they meet triumphs and tragedies along the way

3. Blood +

Throughout the passage of time and the shifts in backgrounds, a particular war continues to leave its mark on history, extending its influence into the modern world. There are two major groups involved in the ensuring war. The first group consists of monsters known as Chiropterans who can change their appearances into that of human beings. They are actually immortals who feed on the blood of the living. The second group is an organisation known as the "Red Shield", formed to track down these monsters and exterminate them. Otonashi Saya is a high-school girl who lives a peaceful life with her family. The only problem is, she has no recollections of her life beyond that of the past year. However, her happy life will be destroyed by an event that will lead her to her destined fate

4. Samurai X

Himura Kenshin is a vagabond with a dark past and sunny disposition. Not a ronin but a rurouni, he was never a samurai, but an assassin of utmost skill in the Meiji restoration, who in the turning point of the war simply walked away. His travels lead him to Tokyo in the 11th year of the Meiji era, where he befriends a female Kendo master, a former thief, a brawler and a doctor all with their own secrets. Together they fight off the enemies surfacing from the dark past that Kenshin cannot escape

5. Slam Dunk

Sakuragi Hanamichi is a junior high punk used to getting into fights and being rejected by girls but upon entering high school he meets the girl of his dreams, Haruko Akagi. He will do anything in order to win her heart including joining the school basketball team that is aiming to conquer the nation lead by Haruko's brother. The problem is that Sakuragi has never played basketball before and a freshman sensation is stealing the spotlight and Haruko's affection from him.

6. Card Captor Sakura / Tsubasa Reservoir

Sakura Kinomoto was an ordinary 4th grader until the day she opened a strange book and let dozens of powerful magic cards loose on the world. Keroberos, the Guardian of the Clow Cards, informs Sakura that it is now her responsibility to find and capture the freed cards. However, much to the reluctant Sakura's dismay, things aren't going to be easy for her; simply saying magic words and waving her wand around isn't good enough. Each card is a living, thinking, extremely powerful being. She'll have to learn to cope with her new responsibilities, as well as ordinary troubles involving love, school, family, and friends. With the support of her friend Tomoyo and a young boy with powers of his own, she must learn how to use her newly awakened magical abilities to collect each card and prevent the disaster that will befall the world if she doesn't.

Syaoran, a boy who wants to become an archeologist, and Sakura, a princess from the Clow Kingdom, are childhood friends with a close relationship. On a fateful night, Sakura lost all her memories as a result of a conspiracy to obtain her powers. In order to regain her memory, Syaoran seeks help from the witch, Yuuko. Yuuko tells Syaoran that he has to travel from one alternate reality to another to collect fragments of Sakura's memory. However, even if Sakura regains her memory, she will have no recollection of Syaoran. Travelling together with them is Kurogane, a warrior who was exiled from his country, and Fye, a magician who wants to escape from his King. With the help of a magical creature, Mokona, they set off on an exciting journey through time and space.

7, Chobits

In the future, personal computers have developped into "Persocons", mobile computers that look like human beings. Hideki Motosuwa, a prep school student, desperately wants to buy a Persocon but cannot afford to. One day he finds a Persocon that has been thrown away and decides to keep it. When he turns on the Persocon, all she can say is "Chii" so he decides to name her that. After a while it starts to become apparent that Chii is more than an average Persocon. Having much better performance, it seems that Chii might be a "Chobit", a type of advanced Persocon rumoured to have independent thought.

8. Neon Genesis Evangelion

At the age of 14 Shinji Ikari is summoned by his father to the city of Neo Tokyo-3 after several years of separation. There he unwillingly accepts the task of becoming the pilot of a giant robot by the name EVA01 and protect the world from the enigmatic invaders known as "angels." Even though he repeatedly questions why he has accepted this mission from his estranged and cold father, his doing so helps him to gradually accept himself. However, why exactly are the angels attacking and what are his father’s true intentions are yet to be unraveled.

9. Ah! My Goddess

Keiichi Morisato is looking forward to university life. But in reality, he has no luck in anything, and he has trouble with clubs, love, etc. The truth is that he has an unlucky star above his head. One day, Keiichi is stuck watching the dorm while his sempai are away, and has a mountain of chores to do to boot. But Keiichi is a good-natured person, and is set about doing his duties. As he is about to finish his final chore, he makes a phone call to his sempai. But the words that came through the receiver are, 'Goddess Help Line.' Shortly afterwards, a beautiful goddess named Belldandy appears in front of him from the mirror of his room.

10. Pretear

Himeno Awayuki was a normal sixteen-year old girl until her father married a woman who happens to be rich. Since then, she has been perceived as an outcast by both her new stepsisters and her classmates. Later Himeno finds out from seven men called the Leafe Knights that she is something called Pretear, a girl who has the power to merge with and control the nature of the elemental-oriented powers from the Leafe Knights and stop an evil being called the Princess of Disaster.

here are some of my anime that I'd like to watch but not my listed fave:

1. Gate Keepers

2. Gensomaden Saiyuki

3. Ghost Hound

4. Ghost Hunt

5. A tale of the eight guardian : Haruka

6. Hayate The combat Butler

7. Hell Girl

8. Fruits Basket

9. El-Hazard

10.D- Gray Man

11.Descendants Of Darkness

12.Ayashino Ceres

13.Shikabane Hime: Aka

14.Bamboo Blade

15. Banner of the Stars

16. BECK

17. Bokura Ga Ita

18. Boys Be

19. Sailor Moon

20. Shakugan No Shana

Well, there's too much to put but these are some that I'd watch and I know some are laughing because of Sailor Moon but don't be superficial, it's a good anime.. There are people agreeing with me.

My new housemate Ili said am i bragging about these or something but I'll love to put some anime video here but I'm too lazy too.. sorry.. you guys know where to search for it right? Anyway, these are my fave so go look for it! I'm sure some of you may like it too.

Well, that's it I guess.. ENJOY!

Bye Candy

3!

2010-12-06T14:16:00.002+08:00

Hello candy!

It's monday and my first day of class for the week since last week I only have 1 day which was on thursday but the rest is history! Anyway, I have assignments already?!! Haha... figure! SO i'm going to look for the New Economic Model (NEM) for my paper in Malaysian Economics as well as Sime Darby for individuals assignment. Need for info! If anyone has information regarding this two please do contact me. Thank you!

Well, I just had dinner with friends, Nealy, Hazz, Yaya and Kak Meen. We chit chatted about the mysteries of ghost, ghouls and something between. Kak meen a lot of stories but I didn't hear much of it because I was afraid or well I'm not welll.... you get what I mean. Every one has their fears and they have to be strong. I will try to be strong. Okayh2... on wards... Still reading my book, and still thinking on what to write for part 3 of One Day but I'm going to halt on for a while because Its a dead end. If I write it like this, it'll be one litre of tears according to Is and if I write it like that It'll be well much predicted. SO... I'm going to be thinking about it and fixing it a bit so, it will be different and much more not expected I think. Okay! Bye2.. going to play city of wonders.. fun!

Bye Candy!

PS: having fun!

Happiness in the wind

2010-12-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

I am terribly happy today, honestly, I got to spend time with mama and someone Hehe... We went to MAHA 2010 and I bought chocolate and kek Lapis Sarawak, it was so nice and tasty! seriously, i would go buy them again only if they have a store where i could go but sadly, only the chocolate shop has a factory which does not sell... yup.. NVM... still their delicious and sweet and ouhhh.... i don't want to finish them! grrrr.... The event was fun actually, it was crowded with people whom can't walk properly nor see properly. always trying to hit people and push them. "PLEASE BE PATIENT" we're heading the same way. huh. I'm pissed off because of that. People just push and kept pushing and it was suffocating! I can't even breathe until at one point I just wanted to scream because they were just rude even the children were bothering, they kept screaming and yelling and crying and i'm just not suitable for places like that.

Okay, i'm going to stop mumbling about that and talk about the event. I went to 3 hall actually, One was the international thingy and two were something. I didn't get the name but I thought it was interesting. Firstly, I got to see a grouper which is a fish that has spots like a tiger. hahaahaha in malay they are called kerapu harimau. AND they aren't here, but the business is breeding this fish so we could have them. something like that. Mama asked if we could eat them and the guy said we could but if we wanted them we must go to pangkor or some places to fish them. The species is not here in any of malaysian waters only to those who is breeding them. WOW! I like them but i don't want to eat them I think their prettttyyyy.. :P okay! next on I saw turtles!! hehehe NINJA TURTLES!!! yup2.. they were swimming and so cuttteee!!! grrrr.. later, a dugong but it's dead and well it's been mummified for a while. uhmmm it's creepy but for me i didn't liked it much! next on!! We went and saw some more fishes but the most interesting fish to me is the LOBSTER!!!!! why?? easy they were HUGE!! HUMONGOUS!! Mama and someone tried to touch their antenna but I screamed because i was scared and well I was scared because i thought of a movie called the mist which have an alien being that eat people that look like the lobster. hehe.... i want to eat that lobster. YUM! :P sorry dude, lobster is my fave seafood because i rarely eat it! we even saw something called a belangkas and it was uglyyy and yucky and i thought it looked like a coachroach! I don't want to look at it again or eat it too... not my type of seafood! i'll show a picture from the internet but its uglyyyy!!

its this ugly guy!

this one is a female one... hmmmm.. ewwww.... dont like it!

pictures are from wikipedia and someone's blog I forgot the name sorry.

in english it's called a horseshoe crab. OMG! I got goosebumps from looking at the picture! eeewww... eeewww.. yuck yuck yuck!! click on horseshoe crab to see the wikipedia info! okay.. off to a more delicious and delicate thing than this yucky thingy!

after that, we went to one hall which is filled with linen and cloths and some stuff but when we're on our way out we nearly got lost, thankfully we found our way out. so we went to a new hall and the first thing I saw was a huge oven with 3 door panel and I was OMG OMG OMG, a baking oven! I want one! I want one! I told mama, even mama was take the business card maybe later when we need it we can call them. They have machine for the mixing stuff, oven, roller, and some other things, etc,etc,etc but i want to huge oven! i don't care! saving money. uishhh I"M SO GREEDY...! later, we walked and walked and stumble on a few things including some more seafood, yup yup.. yummmmm... okayh! then we saw this car which have 3 tyres. and it was a prototype.. but it was cute.. and other machiine... hmmm.. then we walked again.. someone talked to us and i wasn't listening till he/she said it's chocolate! i was like really?? so i tasted some and i wanted to buy the rm30 which have 6 types of chocolate but mama didn't let me. so i was disappointed so i asked is all this your shop, they said only the small section was theirs. I think the chocolate section have like 10 shops.. if i could tasted them ALLLLLL!!! I love chocolate! who doesnT! I ended buying rm10 for 2 one is a tiramise milk chocolate which is sweet and fine, another was latte milk chocolate which is less sweet but more fine! ughhh... when are you going to be in store??!! I want some more!! I practically don't want to eat them because they taste too delicious i just want to keep em! hmmmm... than some guy yelled KEK lapis.. I came directly to the shop because it's my fave cake other than mama's "sarang semut" and Kak Long kek lapis and Auntie Kamariah Chocolate cake. YUP now! the cake has taken over my taste buds! I was exactly the same as I tasted when Angah's friend brought from sarawak! so moist! yumm.... keeping it too! grrrr.. they don't have a shop! they only send to houses! heeee.. can i call?? tq! I got their numbers... so later we walked outside in the rain and arguing whether or not to buy umbrella but need it badly! so went down to see some more and didn't find anything fun so we went back home. The only thing I want now is an orchid tree.. They have some amazing and pretty flowerss! mama even wanted to buy a tree i think it's called a soursop tree or in malay durian belanda. so we could buy it since the place we lived is a bit different.. hehheee

anyway, today, i went back to the jungle and i think i can plant trees here ILLEGALLY.. well i'm not going to do that. we went to the mall near PWTC which is a massive traffic jam! afterwards we travelled back and it was raining and here I am now! blogging how happy i am with the weekend spent with mama and my friend. It was nice, i want them to spend more together. I had fun so did they. OHHHH i forgot to tell you! after we all went to MAHA 2010, we went to eat near the shop at my house which sells this very delicious steam fish with lime! yummy yumm yumm.. at least we got to eat some seafood!

bye. I'm off to bed!

love ya candy!

2!

2010-12-03T13:48:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm going back home today! Yippie! I miss mama so much, i just want to go home today. Well I am! After friday's prayer, we're going back. Me and yaya. She's my friend from Uniten. A smart litlle person such as myself only thinner. Haha! seriously she is thin and small and she has a brain that is gigantic!Well, since new year is near and I will introduce you to my friends here in Uniten as well as my friends from CBN.

I've got something to say, well rather something very shocking for me. I mean, Well there's this person whom I know once a few years back, we were friends and now I think we're just acquaintance. So, there's this rumous around and about and people come and go talking and I'm hearing things here and there. Honestly, I'm shocked to hear how this person can become so different then till now. I know people change and things but to hear this person change drastically for me was OMG I DON"T BELIEVE IT!! For me, this person before was just simple and tidy but suddenly I'm hearing things like this person is saying things that are just B*** and this person is a backstabber and ETC. I heard that this person has a friend whom this person never really liked and in front of this friend that person is all nice and shit and behind them, this person mocks, talk stuff and others. I don't give a hoots about this person anymore since the day we both stop being friends but that friend is a very nice and sweet and how could you talk shit about her? I mean what did she do to you that offend you so much?! I know this things is girl stuff and kiddie stuff but seriously? You've changed big timed! I wonder if you did the same towards me when we were friends back then? hmm.. i seriously cbf by this! WTV!

Maybe my mood is off by now but I'm listening here and there and there are so much rumours and gossiping going on, CBF by this stuff. I need to focus and sure it's nice to hear but I don't like to hear when it comes to my friends and i know my friends, i know how they are, i would absolutely defend them because I know they'll defend me, but it's not something I would tolerate or i'm proud of but don't ever mock anyone of my friends. they are dear to me as I am dear to them. OKAYH?

PS: kepada siapa terasa, ikut awak la termakan cili api. this person has no idea Its about he/she.

bye candy

1

2010-12-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I've been MIA and it wasn't easy actually, I'm back in the jungle, My University which ins't a university. Well, we were told that our house (my apartment) need fixing, and when we were on holiday for 3 weeks, nothing change, the same thing is broken and well they want to move us to the 3rd floor but we insisted that we want ground floor and no matter what, its a ground floor house that we want! we were told that but nothing changed everything is the same. SO it's a bit for a bust! Anyway, wanis already finished and she is currently doing her practical training and if you're reading this HI NEK NIS! :P she is called grandma nis because she nags all the time! Always! Shouting, and other stuff but most of all she is a trusted friend whom always been there for me. So, it's a bit sad not to see a familiar face here again, and to hear her nag and gossip with her. It's always a good memories.

Anyway, I'm alone. All my housemates are headed home and I'm still in the jungle frustrated whether to go home or not. Hmmm.. Don't know. So if I'm not going home tomorrow than I'll be alone for a very long time like 3-4days. Hmmm... What to do.. what to do.. its a very long long time okay! Hmmm..

I've beginning to wonder is there anyone out there whose reading my blog entries? I always have like 2 hits for russia everyday, which is nice but i'd like you to follow if you can but some how I'm judging myself and my blog. Is it not interesting or what? do tell me. I really don't know. I would like to know. I need to know. So if you can, please comment on my formspring since this HTML doesn't serve the comment purposes. Sorry. for those whom always reads my blog, please do follow and come and visit if you can. I'd appreciate it a lot!

thanx!
bye candy.
P.S:Suddenly nowadays i'm clueless. I don't know why! but i'm currently still reading to kill a mocking bird.

I need to change

2010-11-27T17:23:00.001+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm very tired today, I'm tired of everyone around me. I don't know. that is all I can say. I don't know.

Wonderous!

2010-11-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I know it's a bit late but i just have to blog about this. So today I'm like hype about movies, songs and now I've remembered that I actually like this one writer and I totally forgot about her because it was ages ago! Omg! I think you should read ella enchanted before you look at the movie. I fell in love with that book, it was when I was still in high school. i read that book like dozen times already. I just love it! I also remembered about another book "the wish" it was nice and very typical according to ilina, my best friend but i liked it a lot just like ella enchanted! It was magical and she really wrote magic! I don't know, it profounds me a lot! Well.. Please keep on reading, it's fun and full of wonders!

Trala! Bye candy!

10 things I hate about you

2010-11-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

I love the movie so much, I literally can watch it every time. It doesn't bore me at all. I like the movie because I don't know you know, it's not like all the magic movies and other type of movies. And heath ledger is hot! RIP And Joseph Gordon Levitt was so adorable in this movie and he grew up and acted in 500 days of summer which is also the bomb for me! Ahh... What wonderful movies.. I like indie movies just like I love indie music.. I don't know. My mind is weird.. anyway, the reason why I blog again in 10 minutes or so I don't know i didn't watch the time is because I was trying to post something on my wall at FB and the lyric for this movie 10 things i hate about you came up to my mind, its the ending song where the band was playing on the roof. Yup that song. So i'm going to post the lyrics since it's being played on my head and I don't have the song so I have to watch the movie yea! Just love..

Watch it! So cool!

Songwriters: Nielsen, Rick

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
And I'd love you to love me

BRIDGE:
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me

CHORUS:
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

BRIDGE:
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me

CHORUS:
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

Hey

Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
And I want you to want me

surreal part 2

2010-11-23T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I saw this cute photo of a guy playing with his kitten. It was so cute, he looks like a big tough guy with tattoos and all, it turns out even tough he looks tough, he also has a big heart. I always imagine guys as mean and big and well by definition mean says a lot right? so yeah, i know they have a tender heart too but I'm quite unsure about it until I saw that photos. To be precise, I can now agree with myself that man with tattoos have feelings too and they are sweet as can be. Hehe..

I know some people are like "she's always posting photos of people" and 'those are even hers"... well.. I want to take photos but i don't have the proper equipment for it. If i do, I definite post them! That I promise.. I'm looking for the greens and when I found it, absolutely I will do something with it.. Just wait for it.. I'll try my best on earning my own damn cash!

I'm playing this game on facebook, it's city of wonder and it's fun. Arief introduce the game to me and I felt like playing something so I gave it a try. I'm now in level 11 since last 2 weeks i think.. I forgotten but it was either last week or the week before.. it's quite fun rather than playing with baking, and making cities and stuff.. but for me, it gives me time to decrease my boredness.. Yup i'm bored!

Anyways, Maybe I'll be blogging again tonight we'll see about it. I don't know who even reads my blog. I only know there's a few people which is my friends and relatives but are there any people who really like my blog or do you just simply come and go without notice? well it's up to you right? Just come again if you like mine. No matter how hard I try, there will always be a hurdle. It's beyond your imagination. Anyways, trlalal

Bye candy!

surreal!

2010-11-23T03:33:00.001+08:00

Hello candy!

It's late and i'm blogging.. I just got back home from Negeri sembilan for something, heeee.. i'm getting married :P trlalalala hahaha nope not actually Just went there to get some fresh air and see the scene there. So yeah. it was fun but tiring. anyway, I saw these nice photos on tumblr i think.. i dunno.. havent check that out yet but It's nice and I love the photo I just love photos with nature, retro, old effect and sun effect.. i dunno.. it's so nice that i just love these. but not as much as i love the teddy starbucks picture a few post below.. it's so cute that teddy bear~!!grrrr~!!! OMG! just look at them! i hope you'll love them.. tralalala enjoy~!

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all from:

obviouschoice

heeytakemeaway

wouldyoucareforsometea

Aren't these lovely? I hope you love them.. :)

bye candy!

Easy

2010-11-22T18:39:00.001+08:00

Hello candy!

Let's read shall we?? I want to recommend to you some books at is utterly my most favorite! I just love to read em! Have fun...

1. My sister keeper
2. The lovely bones
3. Diary of Anne Frank
4. Dead Girls Don't write
5. Catcher in the Rhys
6. Perks of being a wall flower
7. the time traveler wifes
8. the kite runner
9. eat pray love
10. the little princess

I hope you love them. Oh these are not my top ten favorite books but there are some of them that is my loved and treasure like jodi picoult, khaled hosseini, alice sebold and many more. Enjoy!

I'm currently reading to kill a mocking bird.. yea! looking to buy new books especially from john steinbeck and mitch alboms.

OMG! I've just read on IMDB that perks of being a wallflower is being make into a movie!! It's still pre-production so I'm waiting for it to come out.. wait if it comes out on 2013 i will be 25.. it's a teen movie.. ughh!! NVM It's still a good book to read and I can escape being a 15 year old :P haha

love ya candy!

A funny joke

2010-11-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm blogging again, hahaa guess what happened today? Malaysia lost to Indonesia in Badminton Mens Doubles today, we got silver. So now I'm watching Dato' Lee Chong Wei perform at his very best. All the luck he needs! Goodluck! :)

Mama made a funny joke today. okay here it goes

mama: alya, whats that sound?
I'm trying to hear the sound
mama: Alya is that your stomach?
alya: mama does that sound like a stomach?
mama: yes it does sound like a stomach
alya: mama that's fire crackers popping.. how could that be my stomach?
mama: you're stomach is always making sound that's why.

haha
it's lame but i hope you get it. :) tralalalala continuing watching the game bye!

powerberries

2010-11-20T17:17:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I haven't blog for a few days, I haven't have much things to do so I thought what should I write? I was infront of the laptop for a while then I went to brain freeze for thinking too much and well I tried writing one day again pt2 and still no improvement. Someone said it was like a romantic story but I have no clue what a romantic story would be like so yeah.. I'm figuring it out since One day was written in only 30 mins with no background, synopsis or even a summary. I just wrote it in pure sense and no acknowledgement of continuing it. So i'm still struggling with it and I'm also in deep depression! Well, my results for my final is going to come one in any due time soon, I'm really worried~! absolutely worried! Horrified and terribly trembling right now! It's the worst I've been so yeah.. I do hope for the best of luck but I want to best I can! Ughhh... It's scares me!

Today, Mama and I went to Papa's Tahlil and we did a doa selamat for amer (my brother) whose taking his SPM this year, we all wish you a best of luck, and for me for my results and for everything else.. It was fun, hectic and chaotic. There were so many people, it was suffocating. I've got to meet up with my cousins and aunts and my younger siblings. It was nice to see them since I'm alone here, no friends, no one to talk to.. I've to spend about 3 or 4 hours talking and gossiping and well helping. My aunt asked my if I wanted to follow her when she wants to go back to johor, I was like I would love too but I need to ask the big mama.. I wonder if mama would let me?? UHmmmm I'm also wondering if arief would let me... hmmm... Anyway, she said it was nice to know there's a relative who have another relative there.. get what i mean?? I hope you can pick up ey? Well, overall the event was nice, people were nice and food was nice but there are some mistakes here and there especially with the food. Balqis brought her friend over, who is handsome according to mama. "EHEM-EHEM" I'm so jealous~! Well, he is her friend according to her but according to abrahem and amer "it's her 'BOYFRIEND'" so.. I'm gooooing to follow with what balqis says since they called arief "brother in-law' yupp.. that's what they called my lovely boyfriend.. hahaha Balqis doesn't have a boyfriend. But he is cute, i agree with mama and balqis if you're reading this "keep him".. mama likes him. She thinks he looks like a korean actor especially with his looks and well he is well mannered. If he is reading this, welcome to the family :P as a friend and as a person. :) smiling!

Afterwards, we went to visit papa's grave with the whole family excluding 2 of my nephews and mummy couldn't come because there are still visitiors, so me,mama, balqis, my sister along, amer, shafiq,abrahem, elida, adam and balqis friend. It was nice to have the whole family together praying for him. Shafiq said it looks nice with the flowers and all, I planted a flower right in the center of papa's grave. my younger siblings had they words shared with papa's especially amer whose taking spm and shafiq whose next week is going to go through a tough tough thing for growing up. It's a boy thing to do... hmmm we teased him about it. lasers..knife..scissors..needles and other medical equipment. I don't want to say what's he is going through next week but it is important to the muslim heritage for a boy growing up. So yep.. If you want to know about it ask me at my formspring.. hehe..

Now I'm home with nothing to do but blog and help mama with the chores and clean my room again since my laundry is cleaned and my wardrobe is empty! Oh well, that's my life but i love it every day. I know people sometimes wish they have something better to do like a wisdom that something is going to happen but i am happy with my life and yes sometimes you do want that but in any situation, i'm guessing my life is already perfect all i need is to get married, have kids, get a job, and well grow old with the man i want to spend my life with. Hahaha did i put get married first?? Woowwww! Get a job is more important *wink wink*

well, that is all from me candy. I wish you all well as my life will continue in this journey and oh! i forgot! I saw this bunch of pictures last time it's so beautiful but i lost it.. But i found something else that's interesting. My love for shoes.. I never told anyone about it! but this is what i current crave for shoes looks like.. ughhh... money money money... i need me some green~!

pinkbubblygirl

dirtylittlestylewhoree

whiteseraphswild

electricneonkiss

skimmmmmilk

I would so love to have this! ughh.. can't i?? please

dirtylittlestylewhoree

viewy

Don't you just love them?? Ughh

Bye candy! Wish me well for my results and well I hope i got this shoes some day..

cutie bear

2010-11-17T02:10:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I've found this adorable picture! It's so adorable!! I'm so gushed! and like OMG!! That is so cute.. I don't want to let it go.. so i've decided to post it here for all to see.. SO gullible~!! grrr..

cheap wednesday

Isn't it cute??

Have fun~!

In need

2010-11-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

Hello candy,

Well, I've been in a really bad mood lately and I have no idea why. Yesterday, Arief cheered me up a lot by making jokes and playing games with me. He even explained that maybe I was lonely that I felt the way I did yesterday. I didn't have any friends in this new area of town or place i'm living in. So i got lonely and I got terrified. He even said that I was used to being with my nephews and them being noisy and stuff, and honestly, I do missed it actually. I miss many things that I think I took for granted. I've realize it now. It didn't took my days for it but months! I didn't even notice it until yesterday, I did what i usually do on daily basis I guess i just got bored and didn't know what to do. I used to play with my cats outside, yelling their names and calling them and well feeding them but now, I can't.. It's different here. Everything is. My nephews can't come regularly and I love cooking for them, their my food experiment well actually I made them test my food. If they don't like it than I yell at them or don't cook it anymore :p but honestly? They liked some of my food especially my spaghetti with white or red sauce, my cookies, my fried mee, or fried dumplings. I miss that actually.

At my old place, I love to cook and I always wanted to cook but here living in this new area I guess I just lost touch and I kinda felt like who am I cooking for or what am I doing? right? Huh~! I need a friend desperately.

Anyway, I was blogwalking and I stumble on two or three blogs which has really long and winding post. I thought it was fun to read but then It wasn't. Sorry! but I have to tell you, it was really that long! like long long long post! not like my long post but exceptionally long! I fell asleep on the 2 blog! huh~! It was fun though, it was interesting but it wasn't my thing. Sorry, but I like your HTML and your music. it was nice.

blablablablabla huh ....
okay! it's 6pm and I'm so bored.. I've finished sweeping and mopping the floor again~! that's twice in one week.. hmmm.. i need a life! i went out with mama today, we went to carefour wangsa maju and i saw this lady who wore this really tight striking pink leggings and people were literally looking at her. At first I was like oh that's nice then! I saw her shirt and her inner shirt and it was just not a vision you want to look at! I'm sorry suddenly I'm a hypocrite?? well, she wears a hijab like me and I also wore tight leggings but I don't wear see through cloths that literally see some part not requires by the eyes.. do you get what i mean? I was wearing tights today and when I saw this old lady looking at her I didn't mind at first then she look at me i was like what? then she said "so embarrassing, you could see her !@#$$%%&*($@!!!#" yeah! I was like ok, i'm gonna go away now! I was even more embarrassed! She was comparing with to the other lady! Ok never mind. I hope some of you got my point but i think none of you really got my point... blablablablabka...

I'm tired. Lets watch the biggest loser shall we? One day part 2 is seriously mind bothering me! I need to rest my head. Never thought writing would be so hard!

help me please

2010-11-14T17:20:00.000+08:00

capturingmee

sarahjuillet

angels-overcome

I'm Suffering

2010-11-14T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

Is it me or did I wake up on the wrong side of the bed today? Honestly I don't know! seriously I am bored to death and lonely! I can't put my finger on anything. I cleaned my room today, half of it the other half needs equipment that is missing. I don't know. While I was cleaning, I was sitting down and folding my cloths and stuff, i let out a huge "SIGH" I was like, what is wrong with me today? I don't know... I really have no idea. I text a few of my friends but none of them replied.. i called arief but he is too busy.. I tried blogwalking but it's get boring from time to time... I tried writing part 2 of one day and i got stump! a writer's block! and i tried sweeping the floors and the bathroom but nothing is fulfilling me... I really have no idea! no idea! i think today would be the 4 or 6 time i called arief and he is definitely bored listening to me calling him.. i know it btw.. i got the feeling through his voice.

sometimes, i feel like i'm alone. all alone. I've got something I need isn't that enough? Do i need something else? Please help me ease these pain on my chest! it's killing me! I don't know! I seriously don't know what is wrong with me... i feel like i want to cry and there is no reason to cry.. i feel like killing myself for what reason? i feel like hitting things and smashing them but for what? FOR WHATT??!! insignificant reason! I don't know.. i don't know..

Malaysia Vs China

2010-11-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I was watching the gangzhou asian games just now, it was football where Malaysia was fighting against china. Well, Malaysia lost to China, 0-3. It was embarrassing and I was cursing, yelling, screaming and well I was practically pissed! Haha, Imagine me scream and all that. It was a funny scene. I watched it with mama though. She was even more pissed than I was. In fact she was asking too much question like why that happen, how could that happen and well Why is it that we played so bad? ughhhh... yuck yuck yuck!

i'm not gonna give comment on the game played since I did it for Spain Vs Germany. It was very hard, i had to focused so I wouldn't miss anything. Anyway, I going to tell you a few of the words I'd say during the game also what mama said too. I hope you enjoy!

Mama:
1. Look! Look!
2. Aiyaa.. Ape ni? Xreti main ke?
3. Malaysia Main kasar!
4. Tgk tu! Die sepak org tu buat dunno yg die sepak!
5. Ya Allah, Malaysia ni..
6. Kad kuning lg?
7. Kad MERAH LG??!! MasyaAllah
8. Tgk to no 9 tu.. nakal betul die tu.. patut ade plaster dkt hidung
9. mane pemain malaysia xde dkt depan? sume defend je? uish2.. mne nk menang ni
10. Ai kalah la kita!
11. ape ni! 3-0..
12. Goal! Goal! Alaa xmasuk goal tepi tiang..
13. Malaysia dh marah.. hehehehe
14. aih kuna ni.. aih.. kad merah lagi
15. ape nk jadi la game ni...

imagine my mother said all those stuff! it was funny watching it with her. I'd love it! it was fun and the game kinda suck.. sorry to the malaysia player and to malaysia as well. Play better next time!

What I said:
1. penjaga goal tu sabahan mama kn?
2.eeeee... nooooo!!!
3. ya! mata tu mana!!
4. eh handsome nye pemain china tu
5. goalll!! alaaa china punye goal
6. ape ni sepak kaki org!
7. hello? mane pemain lain.. dh la pass bola ke depan tp xde org!
8. eeee...eeee... amin! xmasuk goal
9. hahahahah die tendang org tu.. die wat dunno
10. tgk tu mama... diorg tendang pas2 bila bunyi wisel suma angkat tangan mcm kena tangkap polis
11. ape ni ref! xcit la xcit
12. omg! omg! 3 goal??!! xley bla la
13. china dh mula melengahkn masa!
14. heh... kalah la kita.. 5 minit lg
15. mne la kembar dua org tu?

Arief called me on half time and I asked him about the malaysian twins whom is on the malaysian team and he answer they are injured so they can't play.. I was like uhmm.. ok... Malaysia played horribly! I'm so sorry! but no offence I think they can do better, I know they can.. if they can defend greatly they might as well score even more better!

I must agree with the commentator he said that if the ref didn't give 2 red cards to the malaysia early in the game, malaysia might have a chance to win. Yup yup.. I agree!!!!!

Oh-kay, I'm sad malaysia lost.. Sorry malaysia...

What candy? What was I saying?? Haha it's in malay and short written malay words.. like when you say how are you but most people would say u ok? something like that.. for malaysian, i think some can understand.. hehe

ok candy!

that's all for today! please wait for one day pt 2 k? I'm currently writing it now.

surpassing inspiration

2010-11-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

Well, I went out with mama today and we went to the some office to sent out my sister's resume. We met a lot of mama's old colleague. Chit chat a bit. It was nice hearing their stories about life, work, husbands and other things too.. I'm going to tell it all today. Not exactly all just somethings that might be interesting for you.

One of mama's friend said that the HR people can take resume and well I need to find a company for my practical training like internship, honestly? she said that one of mama's friend can help but you need a 3 pointer to get a job there and if you're below that than your file will be underneath every heaps of file there is meaning they wont even look at it! seriously? when I heard that I was like "OMG! I need to get my grades up!" then i thought to myself, no wonder there so much people jobless and well "mengganggur". You didn't look at their file, nor did you look at other qualification they might have! I mean like there must be other qualities available right? you just can't assume some one below that grade is stupid? How could you?? I'm not saying I'm below or above or average.. i'm just gonna say "I'm looking" seriously?? Even if i got rejected and not qualified, i'm just gonna say to my self, there are other places and you have other qualities. Look at the bright side, their losing a writer, account student and some one whose mind is awkwardly exquisite! ;p FULL STOP! do you get what i mean candy? there are other qualities in people, even if they don't match the criteria you're looking for then find a suitable place for them to work. right? don't simply reject them! you might eventually reject the next billionaire who invented something..anything.. right? who knows the world is a big place and big things happen! seriously!

onward candy! I'm so hyped about today topics, i have no idea! OK! Well one of mama's friend husband is sick or ill. and it's about marriage, love, lost, divorces and MONEY! well, assuming you guys can tell when i gave you the hints. If you think marriage life is easy, think again. Being in a relationship is simple rather than being married for 1+ or 2+ or 3+ years i mean the trends today are divorces and quickie marriage and young marriages and kiddie marriage.. Divorces?? mama's friend is not yet divorced or will be divorce.. not in that criteria so that get the wrong idea ok! anyway, she was talking about her life, her husband, his illness and things. I wasn't paying too much attention to it but i did pickup something. Like these days people get married because of money. I agree some do look for money sorry if i've offended some body. I mean when you have lots of cash, women or guys come running towards you like tornado! and if you lost all that they go running away also like tornado.. i mean is that what you really see in the people? do you not see love? i'm a hopelessly romantic type of person and i wouldn't want that to happen. i think that's how a quickie marriage comes in. I have no idea what that is actually but i think its where you met the person for a short period of time and you're only married for 1 day.. funny right? or maybe more than that but less than a month period! huh?? why did you get married in the first place? right? right? don't get me started on young and kiddie marriages! ughh yuck! yuckie yuckie yuckie! okay, it's monkey romance but why?? you're 17 and you're getting married and at 21 you're divorced?? hmmm... I want my life to be perfect so i am on my not so perfect path but working on it. get some sense into you! really! really! think about you're future as well as others too you know!

this might be a long post! but anyways...

i watch the biggest loser finale at 2pm just now! it was so fun!! I was so amazed, dazed and i was crying literally! i mean i was sobbing, smiling and tears were coming out! I really like that show. It's a show where they are telling you that you can do things in life in which you thought you could have never begin to do or think of! a 64 year old man named jerry just lost weight in won $100000 USD! and helen a 48 year old if I'm not mistaked won $250000 USD and she is the winner! I mean like OMG! OMG! I'm so like wh-what? no way, i thought tara was going to win and mama thought that mike was going to win, but helen came out of nowhere and WON! Oh.. it's last season or the season before that or some season before that. But I love this show! My sister doesn't think so. I'm not sure about arief but mama is hooked too sometimes hehe.. You guys should watch the show since now there's the biggest loser asia season 2.. watch it at the astro channel 702.. i forgot the name of the channel.. opps sorry! ;p hehe this is by far one of the stories or tv shows i like to see... it shows you how focused and determine some one is just to get that they dreamed of. if they can do it so can u! right? start doing it! never say never! i think this is why i'm so hyped up.

well..... i'm going to start writing my novel again, and blogwalking at the same time. I hope I can finish in time since i did the whole schedule and boxes thingy to get me align. NATALIA! REMEMBER THE BIGGEST LOSER!! okay! i'm hyped up!

Bye candy! Oh! before i forgot, i've started this online story called one day i haven't really gotten an idea what i wrote or how the story is going to end up or what the story is but let's see won't we? I do hope i gain something from it. You guys can comment on it and criticizes about it on my formspring. so yeah

you can click on one day

thanks candy!

bye! see you later :))

i changed my font just to see the effect if it's good or not..

Forgive me

2010-11-12T02:02:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

Sorry for being MIA. How long has it been? Seriously that long? OMG! I didn't realize I was away that long! I'm so sorry. I was busy with final exams and adjusting to holidays.

I am currently on holiday! yea! The finals were rather tough though. I mean, I couldn't do some of it and I was so pissed off. I am praying that I did my best and I do hope my results will get better. Pray for me will you?

This week was fun! I spent time with balqis! She's a blast to be with, we watch the exorcist and it was scary with the sound effects, the face and urghh the vomit! I nearly vomit myself! I like that movie. Anyway, Balqis even baked chocolate chip cookies! Mama liked them. Mama thinks it's delicious. Way to go balqis! I've noticed something that I think as a sister I would be embarrassed no to see! Balqis is quite unique in her way. Well, for instance, she can't sit quietly, always walking about and if she were to sit still it would be in front of a lappy reading blogs and surfing the web. That's my sister! Anyway, after watching the exorcist, I went to sleep while balqis went on an expedition not sleeping the whole night because she was afraid and she wanted to watch poltergeist in the morning. It was funny, she woke me up at 8-ish and we watch about half an hour through the movie, i've noticed she fell asleep! Haha.. She is just adorable! It was nice spending time with her. I like it! It was very rare and I didn't get to do that for ages!

Anyway, Balqis's cat susu gave birth to 2 kittens!! yea! more nephew and nieces for me! hehe.. Abrahem my brother wanted to call them muzu and zuzu i think, But i wanted to call them sisi and soso.. funny right?? Well, i love kittens and their so sweet! I missed mine. How i want to pet a kitten right now.

Well, that's all about it for me for today. sorry candy!

I'll post more okay?

love ya!
bye candy!

For you, my loved ones

2010-10-18T03:53:00.002+08:00

Hello candy!

this is for mama and arief.

you made me happier by the day.. thank you for being there for me every second of every day in every week of every month during the year. I can't thank you much but i'll try to better than the way I am now. I want to make you happier as days goes by, I want you to learn to love me as a billboard would say "semakin hari semakin sayang" love you mama, and que arief.. :) I'll try my best for you.

love Alia..

little type it notes..

2010-10-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

hello candy!

I can't blog much this past and futures day! since finals is on saturday!! wah!!! OMG! I'm terrified already! so Sorry! but I'll try to post something in while. Promise!

Okay! I got 2 questions on formspring and one is from my friend wan. hehe He is my junior in Uniten. He used to be arief's roommate. So yeah. Thank you wan! He also introduced me to these blogger who is uhmm a painter, drawer and easily said an ARTIST.. I followed him. I liked one of his drawings actually.. So yeah. The url is http://deluqies.blogspot.com/">deluqies I think it's great! I never actually seen pictures like he drew before. I'm happy.

Anyway, another question was about my writing from one of my biggest fans.. Thanks! I'm glad you're my biggest fan!! Hehe.. He/She told me to write some adventures so i'm still thinking about it and I'm sure I'm going to come up with stories on adventures in my creative writing webpage or my own adventures stories battling a cat.. hehe I love cats! So i'll try. I'm not being funny about battling a cat, seriously they would scratch you if you didn't give them food or ignored them for a while. They are creatures who in need of attention and love. Like humans, we also need attention..

Okaayh! Candy GTG.. I'm doing notes on Strategic Management! Oh! I've received my carried mark on Corporate Governance and it wasn't what I was expecting for! hurmm.. try harder i guess

bye candy!

pretty pictures

2010-10-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm going to post pictures today because I'm terribly busy with assignments and finals coming up next week! Wish me luck for my finals from 23/10 till 4/11.. On the fourth I might be heading back home with where I will be happy and relaxed! To where my mama is, My beloved mama!

Okay! here is my schedule for exams

23/10 Advance Management Accounting

26/10 Strategic Management

Bahasa Melayu Korporal

31/10 Corporate Governance

3/11 Internal Auditing

So that is my schedule and my study time in between dates! however I am quarantine for 26/10 because both exams are on the same time and I will be facing both exam one in the morning and another one in the afternoon.. Wish me LUck!!

Here are some photos!

maddicallipari

delectablesdesires

i love reading and writing

a complete set for what a writer needs! I want mine too!

thatavares

I love reading and writing!

orkut

sethrader

furoneko

I couldn't find who this picture belongs to

-beauty

fuckyeahvintagediary

cococerise - le blog

Bye candy! hope you love these pretty pictures

Amused!

2010-10-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm so amused today because I got to spend time with him a little while and spending time with him is great. He is busy this whole semester so I didn't get to see him often like before we would go anywhere together. He has project paper to do and tomorrow is going to be his presentation day so Good Luck My dear! and GOODLUCK to all my friends who will also be presenting tomorrow! wish I could be there and support you guys!

Today, I got my results from AMA midterm, and it was a huge bomb! I didn't do great, it is one of the hardest paper in accounting after all. So i got what i expected and i'll try my best for finals.. Ohh i can't wait for vacation! I want to go to the bukit tinggi because they have this farm.. it's a bunny farm! hahaha I'd love to see little tiny bunnies! I want to call one bunny bug, another one patty bug, two more would be chubby bug and lazy bug. Hahahaha... it's fun! I wonder if i can go.. hurmmm... I love that.

I had a chat with hazirah today, and we decided that the little problem is of course avoided! I don't think its huge but just a misinterpretation and misunderstanding that is all. Oh well, Lets ignored it!

I'm going to post some pictures I found a few days ago. I didn't get to post them so here they are... I just love pictures like this! Oh when will I get a camera?? does anyone want to give me one?

starry mornings

missleena

i am looking for this shoes for a long time! they are so adorable!!

I think that is all candy!

Till we meet again..

Bye candy!

formspring me!

2010-10-12T04:01:00.003+08:00

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for any questions or compliments. please do submit it at formspring. i appreciate the thought! thanks! Keep on reading little lady candy land.

awkward much?

2010-10-12T03:08:00.001+08:00

Hello candy!

I think someone misinterpret my creative writing with something else. Haha. Wow. I don't think people really know what it's meant by creative writing. Why don't i give you a definition by wikipedia to understand what is meant by creative writing.. Ok?

Creative writing is considered to be any writing, fiction, poetry, or non-fiction, that goes outside the bounds of normal professional, journalistic, academic, and technical forms of literature. Works which fall into this category include novels, epics, short stories, and poems. Writing for the screen and stage, screenwriting and playwriting respectively, typically have their own programs of study, but fit under the creative writing category as well.

my type of creative writing is fiction. it is based on nothing compared to my life. Though there are some about my feelings towards my father but that's not relevant. It is fiction. It can be towards anyone, but i dedicate it to my dad. However, for ANGER which i wrote, it seems someone might be a bit off about it. I don't write it based on feelings. I don't write it because I was mad. It was on the sept 27, nothing wrong happened on that day. Just someone who pissed me off during a talk or a seminar and that is all. for you who think that is you, don't worry if i were to break your bones, i think i would be in jail now. besides be rational, it was just a simple question and all i wanted is a simple answer. nothing more nothing less. there's no need to worry. I didn't think you should assume that i was attacking you or anything. I was just asking. Honestly, there is nothing wrong in asking a simple question, besides, It was never meant for u at all or to anyone in that matter. Oh thank you for reading my blog too.. I like that. keep on reading..

this is my blog which is called little lady candy land! and my creative writing is called little notes to dotts which where i write my stories or poems or plays. here is the link to my creative writing http://notestodotts.blogspot.com/">little notes to dotts

okay! onwards with my writing, I've finish with the 3rd chapter of my book I was telling you about and I've read about emily giffin, she is a tremendous writer! I read her book but I'd love to read love the one your with. I didn't get it read that one yet. about her, she wrote a young adults book and it was rejected 8 times! OMG! I don't want that! but she tried to do her best. Now, look she's one of the best sellers and one the best writer I love too! oh! I can't wait to finish my book. I hope it's great but I have a few things to add and minus. It still needs working! Huh~!! When I'm done with my final exams, I am going to continue writing it full blast! we'll see!

Candy? I think people don't get me. Haha.. I don't think people know me! I can be odd at times and awkward at times! but most of the times I am quiet. Only the people who knows me really knows me, my behavior, and my disposition. Only one person who knows my thoughts and that is my mom. She can read me well. She says sometimes I'm crazy but most of the times I'm private. But she knows about my problems and she advice me on it though some of the advice may seem a bit off but it's a view i think people don't think about. I love u mama! I think I've mention a few months back that people judged me wrongly, they don't know me. I think people assume differently. But Hello! I come in peace! Peace! I'm a peaceful person and i dislike wars! I don't like it when people assume me differently because someone else says it. Why don't you come and ask me? Let's meet face to face and you'll see.

I've told arief a few times that I've heard rumors here and there about us or him or me. His answer will always be Let it be. As long as we don't trouble them, and they don't trouble us. Let them talk, they don't know us. He doesn't like hearing stuff like these, it's a problem that can be avoid. It's true, I trust him with my life, If we're meant to be with each other than it's good. Allah is the judge on this. So, let him handle this. We both even agreed on it. If we're meant to be then we will get married, if not then we can become friends. He is my best friend after all. I am his too. Only time will tell. I trust my life with Allah.

Oh! I almost forgot, I'm going to be an emcee! Haha.. :P i don't know what will happen but let's rehearse shall we? Candy, candy, candy. Your so sweet and spicy! maybe you can tell some thing about me? I'm going to be honest, I seriously like writing. It's like passion! or more importantly a crave. I write things on little papers, notebooks, during classes and even on my hand. The other day, I had a thought of writing about an apple. APPLE? How delicious it is.. But i got stuck because I saw a cat poop! Hahaha You damn cat! You ruin me! Now, the apple craving is gone.. OHHHHH... Didn't I tell you about a writer on tumblr? Nina semen?? She's wrote a few writings but hers is more much more wonderful! precise and spectacular! she can aim for the words and make it feel magnificent! i don't know why but i've read books with amusing little quotes or words but i've also read books with even more harder words! but her writing are just simple and precise. I don't know. I'm a bit confuse, i've read on a web page that i shouldn't write difficult things but in some web they said its better because it gains more likings. So which one do you think?? ohh,, I don't know. How can i be writer if i don't know...

Anyways, I have to go now! tata..

Bye candy!

Papa.

2010-10-11T04:42:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

Hi, I don't know what to say.. I guess I miss Papa so much that I cried in bed tonight. I cried my heart out. I don't know why I did but truthfully, I miss him. I miss everything about him. I miss his voice, I miss his face, I miss listening to him, looking at him, shaking his hand, telling him it's time to eat, giving him his rice, how he would drink my drinks and feel not guilty about it, i miss him.. I can't tell you how much but i miss him.

Papa, I miss you!

I cried today because of you. I cried knowing your no longer here. You're not going to see me graduate and get married and have children. You're not going to hold my children as if their your grandchild. You're not going to be there when I'm getting married. I hate knowing all this. I hate having the feeling that some how some where you are near to me. I know your so far but your so near. Sometimes, I try calling your phone or texting it but I couldn't I am afraid. Papa, I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I don't know what to do. I can only see your photo now, that is how I can look at you. I can only remember your voice now. but everyday, that voice is fading but my heart will not let it fade because as your daughter i miss you terribly that it hurts me. papa, i don't know what to do.

papa I love you

bye candy.. I'm continuing crying. i can stop it...

happy bubbles

2010-10-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I'm posting after a few seconds but that doesn't mean i'm okay suddenly! Nope i'm still angry and mad! But i've fallen for this picture so much! I want to be like this someday with HIM.. arief... To be happy and you know the romantic and cuddly stuff and the yucky ek stuff.. I'm talking crap but I like this picture. I like very much that It's makes me tingle and smile. i don't know why. Maybe because I miss him today.. I dunno..

happy bubbles

i'm officialy gila!

2010-10-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm going to post something in Malay, so hahaha I hope you're ready.

Apa khabar gula-gula?

Hari ni, hari paling menyakiti hati saya. kenapa? sebab saya ada baca post di facebook yang btol2 "mengilakan" otak saya yg tengah happy dapat menghabiskan masa dengan mama. Serius? Sangat-sangat serius keadaan saya sekarang!! Tak boleh nak bayangkan untuk bagitau! INI otak aaa sudah sakit lor! memang gila punya lor! apa punya org tulis mcm tu dkt facebook lor!

So, candy, if u can understand what I wrote that's good! honestly I am on the brink of being crazy! Well as you can see facebook... Someone post something on facebook which I didn't like and I think it pissed me off a lot! I'm not going to tell you what but i'm going to tell you it effect my judgement on things, my life, my relationship and my trust issues. So it's that serious! I can't explain how exploded my brain was today but HUH~!! I am angry so angry I made mama orange juice. Crazy right? I was suppose to hit or scream but I made orange juice?? hehe :P I wanted to treat mama for something special. Okayh! I must confess i did imagine that orange as someone H*** and I'm not realllly crazy yet but i am mad to what it says. It has a thousand meaning and it has a lot of grudge against me.

No fight! I just want peace and tranquility and seriously? bug of my relationship and family. Stop bothering people!

Do i sound crazy? If i do i must be singing in the bathroom! that is how i am crazy. Oh! i'm so crazy if i don't have my sleep and If i don't i tend to sing in the bathroom or scream or do something out of the ordinary to me. Okay! TATA candy!

Sorry if i've offend people. I am just in no mood today or this week or last week. but I had fun on saturday because it was hazirah's open house and we hang out. about that later... I need to rest my brain!

bye candy!
I love you papa!

annoyance and love!

2010-09-29T23:24:00.001+08:00

Hello candy,

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Alright I have to admit that I was a bit off yesterday but that's how i released it (my tension that is) I'd write about it. So, yesterday was a bit moody but I got back to a good but sill moody phase. I don't know why. Someone people are just damn rude! I mean if you think your so cool, you can get a job anyway, why did u attend the thing yesterday?? Don't say bullshit. I am doing my part because I want to ensure my life is worth living for. If you think your great then why should I care?? I'm no friend to you. You didn't even try to be friends with me, you didn't even know me. Why would you say such a thing to me? I heard every word. I didn't even bother you, stupid! arghhhh.. i hate people like this. Only I know who I'm writing about. If he felt as if it's him, then good for you. Stop bugging!

> graphics world. -- van Juicey bij Imonline.nl!

Urghh, so yesterday didn't end well. I didn't blog anything after that but later last night, arief and I went out to buy food for dinner. So I kinda release everything, every stressed I felt yesterday. He made my day worth yesterday. I'm happy I have him in my life. I'm happy mama is in my life! She is a great, amazing, outgoing and loving mom. I love you mama. They made me happy just by talking and listening to me. So yeah, I don't have to explain more. You get what I'm telling.

you are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold.

Yesterday, was a boredom! I hate yesterday! I don't hate it hate it, i just felt why?you know. of all days why today would shit happens? Urghh.. I got my quiz 3 for AMA yesterday and I was Pissed OFF as like OMG!! I can't see it or feel it or say thing! I just sat there and looked at it! HOW could I get such RESULTS?? ohhh!! damn! later, we got scold by the lecturer but she's nice from my experience of talking to her. I had a chat with her and she is nice but strict at the same time. She's a lecturer what do u expect? I was mad at her, i was mad to myself. I can't believe my eyes! ohh.. i forgot, that morning I went to have breakfast with nealy and I got a message from my Lect saying class at 2pm is cancelled. Yea... I thought to myself but then I remembered what he said the previous night. I dupped! ahahaha.. I have to attend the CV thingy that help us writes a better CV for our future jobs. I liked it! It gives me motivation and well I can't wait to work. oh it's at this seminar that the person I stated in the 1st paragraph bothered me a lot! After the seminar ended, went back home and SLEPT for the day until 7.55pm hahaha I a sucker for sleep! well I didn't sleep the whole night yesterday. Because I have a quiz yesterday. I was so worried that I didn't sleep. And I think about that facebook incident too. ohh well, people are just I don't know. Then I had class at 8pm with mr subhi. I think his nice. He is nice. He talks fast and ends fast too. That's why i guess maybe its because i'm still half asleep?? maybe?? I don't know. hahahaha

you are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold

Ohkay, enough about yesterday! Today, i was happy because i had all my sleeps so i woke up early. not that early. I have class at 8am. :P it was forced waking. Went to class and I was pretty damn hungry! when the kiosk open, i asked nealy if she wanted to go, so we all went me kak min and nealy. hehe. I saw someone whom i might want to have a little chat with. hurmm. still thinking about it. then, we went for another breakfast or brunch i would say. I didn't get to eat much that morning because the kiosk open pretty late! then the lecturer starts class. OMG, in class she told us to do question 2 because she thinks we didn't do our job and she said only 5 people did and tried but end up having wrong answers. So hehe. I did what i could, I guess she was proving a point you know. I got her point. I wanted to tell her i didn't do mine but i was afraid what the consequences might be. so i went ahead in doing the question. she said now you know, what you did is right or wrong. I guess she was mad about yesterday incident. Oh! She's my AMA lecturer. Today, I got what she was teaching about because the answer is based on a game. hahaha actually it was a game production company. :P maybe that's why. Fuh.. next we went to a car wash, it was long! I saw 2 goose and I was that thing might attack me! hahaha I was scared like OO No! Don't come near me! hahahha it was funny. at 2pm we went to see wanis present her project paper. She was fun to watch! it's was so cool and she did this funny thing that we all laugh! I was happy. And here I am today! blogging to you. Err i think this is a lot. but it's good! haven't been blogging for a long time.

ok candy! see you later.

bye!

In no Mood Today.

2010-09-28T09:07:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy,

Haaa.... I just let out a deep breath! I'm so NOT in the mood today! I don't know why.. Huh.. Really something is making me so unhappy and I don't know if that problem is the reason why I"M SO MOODY!! Okay.. You want to know the problem?

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PROBLEM: Someone is talking shit about me! someone is trying to steal something valuable from me! someone is trying to piss me off by posting something that is hurtful on facebook about me and someone I love! Ohh.. I'm still angry thinking about it!

ANSWER: I'm not sure, if there is a misunderstanding involved.. but don't post such things on facebook! Your not only pissing me off, your pissing others off. IF U know WHO U R, pls stop it! delete it or just come to me and say something about it! Don't talk bull behind my back! I promise I won't bite unless your making me mad.

HUH! I know it's kiddie stuff but excuse me? If you like someone keep it to yourself. Can u? U don't have to say it out loud! OMG OMG OMG! I'm so going madd!! I have a test today for AMA. That is another rage inside me! I just want this day to end so fast pronto! Can't take it anymore. I'm sorry if I am overwhelming the situation but I can't stop thinking about it. Honestly.

Anyway candy,

Got to go.. Need to study.. If my mood does change maybe I'll post again.. bye!

hurt

2010-09-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

Sorry for being MIA. I am terribly busy with assignments, studies and no internet. Arief borrowed my celcom broadband so I couldn't blog or surf. Though my house mates have internet, it didn't felt good. I'm decent. I don't like to trouble other people. Okay!

I am absolutely hurt by arrogant and obnoxious people! seriously! do you have no humanity or feelings? Grrr.. Just yesterday, i went to eat at the foodcourt with aien, yana and shera. So on the way back to my house, I hearn noises, a sound of cry. I went to look for it and i found 4 little kittens! Small! Tiny! Little babies kittens!! PLUS!! No mother was in the area of the kittens! only a box with newspapers and 4 babies.. WHO would do such a thing? If you want to abandon 4 adorable and sweet little kittens abandon the mom too you idiot! Who is going to feed them? I can't! even the cleaner said the same thing. Oh!! I'm so hurt right now!! I'm a cat lover and I can't even do anything! Even if i try to feed them, it's not going to guarantee their health! their so small and they need their mommy's milk! Idiot person who abandon them!! URGHHHHH!!!

I'll pray for all of you little ones. I'm so sadddd!! It hurts serious! It's like abandoning your own child! your own baby! seriously it's the same crime! it is the same crime!!

sorry candy! I have to go! I'm too pissed off for such people!

At least, have some decency. they want to live too!

bye candy.

Tired but humorous

2010-09-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

Hello Candy!

Believe me when I say I'm Tired!! Exhausted! and Awkwardly Happy. ;P :) why you asked? easy, last saturday I thought of cleaning my room, packing and well getting ready to back to U so I decided to do all that despite that I'm going to be leaving Mama and be missing her! Suddenly at 12pm, My uncle called Acunan, he said he was coming to my house for raya. I was surprised but happy! I haven't seen him in the longest time but even when I had the time it wasn't suitable but anyway, mama called me or I called mama ( which ever one) she said "AYA! get ready!" So i rushed myself to the toilet, got ready and the funny thing was I forgot to brush my tooth haha so when I remembered i didn't, I'd brush my tooth. Who wants to smell a bad breath right? Then I went downstairs and helped mama I asked how many people, so we both expected to be having less than 7 people but to our horrid shock! it was 4 families in a row! Haha My cousins came! My uncles came! haha I want to tell you who they are, so Uncle Manan came with Cik jak and their 3 kids, Uncle Ehsan came with his wife and one daughter, My cousins, Abg Ali and Abg Man came with their kids and wifes! Haha The kids in total would be 10 kids?? I think so, I lost count. haha.. That doesn't include the grownups ok! wah.. to our surprised the food was also not enough, we improvised and i made Omelet! The kids loved it, My cousins and Uncle and Aunt loved the food too! It was great! So later, when they left at about 20/30 minutes later, auntie Kamariah came with kak ruby, kak ruby husband and afiq (their son) he was soooo cuttee!! The kids that came was soooo Cuuuttteee! I might say, my cousins sons Daniel was the naughtiest! His arm is broken but he still runs around the house, play and well I think he TOOK mama chocolate M&Ms and my chewing gum. Naughty right? Well kids, i don't mind. afiq was quiet and he liked my cookies, he even counted his duit raya and said he had RM50 already. For a kid, he knew his money. I'm proud! I think his going to be a manager or CEO one day. I hope so. I hope everyone does!

Okay, huh! On sunday, Basri (Elida's friend) came and cooked for us Laksa Sarawak. i really LIKE laksa sarawak, no matter what the smell or taste! I liked it! He cooked it and it was delicious! Congrats to Basri! and Thank you for the food! So My bus on sunday was 6.30pm and i told mama I wanted to visit papa before i left, we rushed from home at about 5 to arrived at the grave at 5.15, papa grave's was so beautiful, I was so happy that I smiled all the way there to just see it! Mama did a great job in planting those flowers. Even the flowers I planted grew! Yea! I'm so happy. Later we arrived at the bus terminal at 5.45pm, we waited. Until 6.20 the bus haven't arrived, the lady said it's traffic so it might be a bit late. But thankfully, the bus arrived right on time!The bus driver even knows Mama because she always takes his bus when she sending me to U. I'm a bit sad she didn't now but i'm going to finish soon. So it's ok!

The best thing on these bus was that it broke seven times!! I counted! funny right? I was suppose to arrive at 11pm as promised by the bus driver but we arrived at 12pm sharp at the gate! I like the bus driver because he has a responsibility and he did what he had to do. I even gave him my crackers and drink because he kept going up and down the bus to fixed it and it was raining cold! Pity him. Thank you bus driver! Mama said he was kind enough to do what his job. I like that. So, i was tired! and i almost ran to back home with luggage! The guard says what did you bring? Cookies? Cake? I was just laughing!

Later that night, I tried to finish my assignment that I forgot to do for SM! but i was so tired, I went to asleep and it was the horrible sleep ever! I miss mama! I have a cough! Imagine me sleeping with mama on my mind, and coughing all night! Huh! The next morning i woke up and finish my work. and tralalalala here I am! Tired! I had class on 2pm till 5pm and later at night 8-10pm luckily the night class finishes early. I went to eat with arif afterwards and spend time with him. It's like 2 weeks haven't been able to see him. I missed him too. Last night I went to sleep early and I had class at 11-1pm just now. It finishes early too. So yea! lalalala

I'm blogging! but I might be MIA this week because of hectic schedule and massive cram in assignment and case studies! This week I have replacement class for AMA 3times including the original 2 classes so it's total is 5 class in 3 days! for just one subject!! huhu, really tired!

Okay, candy sorry but i have jobs to do. Sorry I apologies for any mistake done!

Bye candy!

P.S: I love you mama and I love you arif. Papa, I will always miss the sight of you. I miss you, hearing your voice. It's still the same feeling I have all day. Sometimes, I mistakenly called your number because I miss you. Papa, Take care!

la dolce vita!

2010-09-17T15:57:00.003+08:00

Hello candy!

alice baby

Huh, I'm tired and sleepy actually. I'm waiting for my cousin to arrive. They want to raya at my house.. YEa!! I'm happy but I'm tired. it's been a long and tired day but a very fun fun fun day! I went to pavilion today! and I ate kimchi ramyeon! Hehe It's ramen with kimchi. Delicious! Someone even went up and asked me what am i eating and where do i bought it. Wahh.. I can be on TV shows you know! Candy i delightfully happy because someone likes looking at me eating. There's this one guy who kept looking and looking I guess he just like to see me eat the ramen that's all. Oh yeah, I forgot Ramen is actually Maggi Mee.. hehehe... Stupid right? But it's delicious and kinda expensive but i know why. so I'm going to teach you how to cook the ramen with kimchi. First, Just boiled water for 3 minutes and add you seasonings and noodles (ramen/maggi mee)later afterwards when it's nearly cooked you can add the kimchi and vegetables that you'd might like also egg! Their good together! YUM YUM! I think you're suppose to add like vegetables like mushrooms, cauliflower, french beans, etc but it might consume time. SO add the time consuming vegetables first than your noodles and kimchi! alright?? yea.. I'm so hungry thinking about the noodles.. Sllllrrrppp... grrr...

Okay, afterwards we went for window shopping at tangs and parkson. And other venues but I'd like the two first because it's like one whole department install in one location so I won't have to go in and out of an entrance so many time! I like the cloths at tangs! Absolutely love it! especially martina pink! they are so cute and affordable but since I'm a student and money is a bitttt of a problem. all i can do is just drool at the cloths and hopes that someone might want to donate a few hundreds, thousand, millions maybe. Hmmm Keep on dreaming natalia! you wont have it! grrr.. but it is so cute! I showed to my mum, she was like oh yes that is so cute! Why not buy it? and i'm like Uhmm no money! i need to save! grrrr... I guess money does grow on trees. It takes time to have them. Oh well, martina pink! please wait for me! Later, we walked and looked at shoes! OMG OMG OMG! My fave part of shopping and window shopping is SHOES!! sadly One particular shoes I like cost me nearly RM1000 HUHUHUHUHUHUH =S OMG.. I have no word to describe the feeling of anguish, despair and loneliness. It sucks! RM1000???? I could but a whole bundle and dozens of shoes at vincci.. GRRRR... it's not lv or chloe or other famous names. It's I have no idea what the name is. I forgot to looked! hehe Opppsss sorry! But its that expensive! :s :s :s all i can do is just look and not touch! Even the security guard was looking! As if I want to steal! I have moral values too you know! it's his job, i know the responsibility! huh... SHOES please go away! you're hurting me so bad. Oh. I know I want to get photos of the shoes and sweater but the sales person and guard kept looking. I'm guessing they don't like it when someone want to take pictures. i don't want to try it though because i know then i have to buy them (if they look good)... so sadddd....

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the fun stuff stops, me and mama had an argument about going back to the U. I guess its my fault and not arief. He couldn't came and I didn't have tickets. Luckily, when i went to buy tickets at hentian putra. The lady said someone sold it so I was lucky. I'm like yea! Hahahaha.. But it got expensive like addition RM2.50. So yeah.. HMM NVM It my ride home ok. If not i'm here in kuala lumpur not going back for my studies. Mama and papa would be so unhappy! very unhappy with me! :)) hehe I forgot! I bought pancakes for my dinner. Hehe it's at the pancake house international or was it pancake internation house. I don't know either one. But i haven't tried it so I don't want it taste like. The guy that sold them to me say peach and caramel banana is the tastiest and people loved it. so i bought peach waffles. :P it's not pancake but they made them the same way right?

Uh.. excited! I also cooked noodles for my cousin. I wonder who is coming. Hehe. Can't wait! Mama says that all my cooking is tasty, delicious but SPICY! OMG! arief can't eat spicy food! so need to lowermy temptation a bit. :P.. NYUM.. foodies i'm hungry. Later!

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isn't she gorgeous?! I thought it was her cloth turns out her tattoo.. but she's so so beautiful!

Bye candy!

2nd Year anniversary~!!!

2010-09-17T01:24:00.003+08:00

Hello candy!

I guess you can say that my post this few days is a bit awkward. I think I know why. It's because TODAY is my 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY with ARIEF!! yea! Happy ANNIVERSARY SYG! syg means Hunny, or baby or sweety something like that. yea.. I'm all jittery, happy and having butterfly in my stomach! I wonder when will be my wedding?? All i could think of is my wedding.. I wonder why? Is it near or far far away?? Arief said It's very far away. Yeap I agree! 100% why?? We need to earn cash, asset, house, etc, etc and other etc. hehe. It's not easy to get married but I'll try me best to do the best I can! Please support me!

this tumblr is also I wont give out. Sorry not being greedy just it's sweet to share

Arief, to me is a very special person or man. He is 23 years old and he lives further away from me like 5 hours away. which is so so far like 400km I think or more. He is the 3rd of his siblings like me, I'm also the 3rd (:P) and we both have 7 brothers and sisters. So that's like the same right? I think it's meant to be. I'm happy with him. He makes my world go round like no body can. When I'm sad or lonely, he usually comforts me in many ways. He is not the hopelessly romantic type of guy, That I can confirm! but he has his ways in sharing his feelings with me. He is shy, quiet type most people say and he is quite small (my roommate says so) but he has a big heart, ambition, love and he really loves his family and friends. That's all he cares about. Other than me. Sometimes, when people can't help me, he would try to at least make sure I'm safe. For example, I'm suppose to go back to university this sunday but he can't come so he said ask yaya. And i said ok. See, he makes sure. He is also very decent, polite, talks softly and not rude! He likes to make jokes and he is funny in his ways I guess.

The reason why I love him so much is because he always try to do his best for me. Like trying to like this I like. Trying to do things normally people won't do or wouldn't think of doing. I'm that kind of person. He puts up with awkward and misbehaving behavior. Sometimes I fart (:P) or burp (:P) sometimes I scream and sometimes sleep with my mouth wide open! Haha He loves that actually. He said my sleeping ways is awkward but cute. Arief, yaya and I think nealy has seen how i sleep in car trips. Yup it's embarrassing but it's the truth. I got in a car and the air-cond is in my eyes or im sleepy and I'll presumably fall asleep very fast! Oh! I almost forgot, he even try to like japanese animation! I know right, me like anime? Thats the awful but lovely truth about me. He tried them but I guess he couldn't. I'd appreciate it, it's sweet and lovely! No one has try it for the sake of me. Even cooking! He also tries to watch cooking shows like nigella or jamie oliver or afc channel but he said it wasn't for him. at least he tried right? OH! he is a god in making pancakes! haha I suck at it! but he is soooo goooddd at it! I don't know why? sometimes i feel like he can make it better than me. I know he can! he is my heart. One other thing, he even try to blog! That made me so happy, I'd try to help him more on it.

You see, he is my special, special man! Other than papa, he is my second most valuable man in my life! No one can replace him! He is my heart, my soul, my life, my world and my companion in all my living space in the world! I heart you for it! Happy anniversary my beautiful darling!

this is us, on yaya's sister wedding.

This is him my lovely, handsome, debonair arief

I'd like to post photos I think is the best way I can express my feelings for him. I think if you carefully watch and look at these photos, maybe you can understand how I feel for him and felt for him. It's so hard to explain but it's the truth. I do hope one day, your my prince and my life will be perfect just to be with you. You still give me butterflies everytime. I can't tell you why mr. arief but everytime I have those feelings of shyness and jittery just by waiting for you.

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this photo is a reblog so i can't find the real post

yeah carry on

jeseekkah

pictures..

2010-09-16T19:45:00.002+08:00

Hello candy!

johanna mercado

alice baby

life should be beautiful

ART

2010-09-16T16:22:00.004+08:00

Hello candy!

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I'm looking someone's tumblr right now but I'm not going to say who it belongs too. Because it's very not age appropriate to say! Haha I'm old enough okay! The thing I like about this blog is that, he/she puts like this little things about love and romance to another angle. Sure, the photos are provocative but I guess that's what you'd say ART.. right? I know the age right now is about art, internet and etc. But people are forgetting the real deal. The reason why everything started in the first place. If Shakespeare weren't writing his novelty, we wouldn't know about English literature, If it never went to theoretical play, i guess we wouldn't know about acting, movies and others. It's so much that people forget how they affect today's art.

I'm not sure where I'm going with this but I guess that's how i think about it. People are forgetting history as it is. I like history because It's a story that mesmerizes and it's like a fairy tale rather than a boring old story.

Alright! Back to the tumblr. He/she puts this photos and I think they are really really sweet! and also they have this question and answer thingy where you can ask for advice about your relationships with a guy/girl. or ask about something in that area of recognition. I'm all happy just looking and reading about this tumblr. It helps make me smile other than reading about nina semen. She's nice too! Her tumblr are best! I love writing and I suck at it! I'm still learning and when I read her tumblr, she just amazes me. I don't know. I guess I need to learn more.

I think I got into a wrong major candy. I'm in accountancy but I'm loving art!

HUH! alrighty then. I'm going to continue reading about this tumblr now.

sorry i wont tell you which tumblr. Find it yourself!

Bye candy!

A walk in the wangsa

2010-09-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hello candy!

I know the topic is a bit nuts. Haha. Today, Mama and I spend time with mummy (my stepmom) and my other siblings. Abrahem, balqis, amer and shahrul. It's raya so spending time is require. Usually they come to my old house for raya since they live a far but now they moved to my old house and we visited them in return. Honestly, I had fun. I chitchat with abrahem and gossiped with him about his ahem ahem.. It's a secret! and watch anime with shahrul and balqis. It was fun. Amer though was sleeping the whole time and he left to watch movies with his friends at one utama. He is missing out on us. Huh.. Okayh, So i played with susu balqis's cat. She was cute but mad I think. Mama said her face says I have a problem don't bother me. Or something like that. She hates it when people touch her leg. She got mad at balqis once or many times but she didn't try to scratch me yet. I miss playing with kittens and cats.

Later, I think arounf 6.45 something like that we (mama, me, mummy, shahrul and balqis) went out to eat. Abrahem had to stay, he didn't fit in the car or if he wanted to he had to sit in the trunk or on the roof. Hehe.. So yeah, He missed that too. Well we ate at this small restoran, the food was delicious but not that delicious. We chitchat about how dangerous for a girl to walk around Kuala Lumpur at night. It's dangerous actually! I'm worried about my sister. She's young! Hanging out is a must but do watch out for pervert, rapist, killers, sociopath and other people alike! and you should read the newspapers! they gave you a lot of info about such happenings! So we walk around the shopping complex, i showed them where is what and what is where so yeah. It's the 1st time i think. Mama spend time with us all. I mean with the other side of the family. it was fun. Oh the shopping complex is called wangsa walk. Hehe I think you got the idea already about the title.. right?? A walk in the wangsa as in I walk at wangsa walk.. haha..NVM

Okay, I'm off to bed! I'm sleepy and tired! I love u mama!

Bye candy!

regretting is always a burden!

2010-09-12T03:20:00.002+08:00

hello candy!

nothing fun happened today. I made a mistake though I was suppose to watch a movie with mama called andartu terlampau but I fell asleep. Mama called me several times but I'd missed it! I'm regretting it so much now! How i wish I could turn back time. I love spending time with her. I know sometimes she makes me angry but she said that what's drive me. I kinda get it. I get frustrated sometimes but I'm guessing if she didn't push me, no one will. I love her. I really do! That's why I feel so bad right now.. I don't want to lose her. I want to spend more time and love for her.

I love you mama!

selamat hari raya~! eid ul-fitr~!

2010-09-10T20:17:00.003+08:00

Hello candy!

About my raya! OMG!! It's a long happy story! I hope you're ready candy to read! It's sum of happy yet sad. it's going to be a really long post.. I hope you'll enjoy!

The first day of raya was a blast~!! However it's Lukewarm situation was that there is five things happened that saddens me. Firstly was that this was the 1st time we celebrated hari raya or eid mubarak without my beloved late father, papa. I missed him. Honestly, before i went to sleep the night before I cried and I thought of him. I wonder whether he is alright or not. I know it's not good but I missed him so much that I didn't want to celebrate raya at first. I know he is watching us and he wants us to be happy and just move on. Some how I know he is also angry at me for mistakes that I'd made. I really want to shake his hands and apologize for everything, every mistake, and every mishaps. I miss u. I hope you know, papa. Selamat hari raya aidilfitri, Maaf zahir dan batin, papa. I miss knowing that every morning of raya you'd be sitting down watching the news and waiting for all of us to ask for forgiveness. Mostly I'm missing knowing that last raya was the last I'd spent with you. I didn't even know it would be the last. I know I took you for granted some times, but deep down I know you know I love you. I'm sorry for everything.

Sorry candy, I'm actually crying writing this. It's the one place I'd feel the need too. Though, he is no longer here but by writing at least I can let go of some feelings. The feelings I didn't let go of yet. HUH~! Okayh! stop crying!!

2nd thing was that this morning I'd celebrate raya with my aunts and uncle. I only have one uncle on my mother's side, Uncle Mury. He is very funny and the reason why he'd make my raya sad is because he said something which touch my heart so bad and i felt the tears rolling down my eyes. He said "you should take care of your mother! Your the only one who can take care of her! No one else but you! Please take care of your mother!" really it hit me like lighting bolt! My late papa even said that! Not the whole words just that "take care of mama when I'm gone. Your the only one" I'm like OMG! don't say my uncle is leaving us?? He can't! I'm not the only crying!! Even mama is crying when she heard it! I only got to see him for 10-15 minutes, he had an appointment so he had to leave early, mama didn't want to let him go though. She loves him too. Candy, mama is also like me, she's the last of all her siblings. The baby sister, like me. Oh how I feel the pain. I'm the only one?? huh... ok..

3rd thing was that I didn't get to visit papa's grave! I'm at that part of the month. huhu so yeah, it sucked! All my siblings got to be with him, I didn't. So, jealousy is roaming!! huh!! I'm guessing my raya was bad at first but later I'll tell you the best part. I think it is.

4th thing was that I baked cookieeeesss!! Mama though "DIDNT LIKE IT!!!" because its hideous, ugly, not creative and NOT CREATIVE!! hahaha I'm not a pro so I didn't expect much but I guess mama was! She even yelled at me saying "did you see the vendors? Did you look at their cookies??" I'm like I know I know I know! Support me here pleasE! I'm new! Not a pro just say oh that's looks good or something. Don't push me down. It hurts! It stings! It bites! another reason why I didn't want to celebrate. huh...

5th thing was so easy!! I couldn't text my friends with raya message because I didn't have money to buy topup nor do i have topup to reply their text.. SOrry guys! SO instead, I reply or post on facebook.. hehe it's saves my money a bit.. I'm really broke you know!! but this raya really I didn't expect much. I guess it turns me wrong to judge first.

the great and good things!

Okay! So I'm going to begin with the waking hours till now! haha Was it a long post candy?? it's going to be longer. hahahaha I'm happy!! though sad inside.

Candy, I woke up thinking its raya! and I have to get ready and visit auntie banun. My alarms rang at 7am! for every 5 minutes it rang and rang and rang until I woke up at 9am.. hahaha! I'm terrible when it comes to sleeping! I'm addicted to sleeping! As usual, mama yells "if you don't wake up, you'd be left behind!" So I woke and got ready, then it hit me.. aren't i suppose to wear make up?? so I did, and this is how I look wearing make up. don't laugh!

hehe so okay after getting ready, I got downstairs and ate! I'm hungry for SOTO! in Malaysia, different houses have different types of food to serve for example my house we serve soto and lontong! delicious! so by 10-ish our whole family went to auntie banun. once there my auntie salmah was leaving because she has plans or visit others. She did the nicest thing, she gave me my 2nd ever zakat. The first one was my aunt along on papa's side of the family. She gave me a lot that I felt a bit strange to receive it. Zakat is a heritage in muslim. Every one needs to pay for zakat. It's a must! I can receive it because my category is I'm considered as an orphan. Her family gave me that money. It's awkward. but you can research about zakat on wikipedia. I'll give you the website for it, click on zakat. Then she left and my uncle mury also left. So we continue eating, I think this time I ate a lot! people are calling me fat! need to lose weight!! Then my auntie miah arrives with her family excluding her eldest daughter who is in kelantan. anyway, she brought wedding cards, my cousin is getting married! when will it be my turn?? oh.. abg rizal is also getting married! and i didn't speak to him for almost a year over! okayh! deep breath! jealousy..(GRRRR) I saw my cousin's sons and daughters. They are so cute! like little dumplings.. so cute! One baby was looking at me, it felt weird! haha then we left and went back home because adam pushes us. He wants to get some cash! his young.. he doesn't know.. :P when we arrive home, my auntie yang called saying she wants to come and I said okay, we're home already. So we hustle and prepare for her arrival. I was pretty tired and sleepy. I was happy because I got to see my cousins! Guess what?! They like my cookies! hahahaha I'm happy! heeee.... then we talked, watch some tv and then my aunt left she wanted to visit my papa's grave and my other siblings. OHH i forgot, kak sarti was also hear! My former nanny. She came last night to spend the night with us. She also left with auntie yang. So i'm left with the cleaning and sleepy!!! As we both (me and mama) cleans, we decided we're off to bed soon. Haha but we ate again.. :P then we wanted to go to sleep.. but I didn't I was online! SUDDENLY, my auntie timang called. She wants to see our new home. I was like I was suppose to be sleeping but oh okay while I'm still awake lets do this! So we both prepare again in full throttle, I think we're both tired but its guest. need to prepare! then, they arrived and brought cake! yum! to my shocked! they liked the whole food we served them, the soto, lontong, sambal ikan bilis and kek lapis was almost finish! CAput! though they are still others but what we served them is gone! Mama was happy! I was happy! and everyone was happy! they watched tv, a story about jet li as wong fei hong i think.. mama asked me "astro prima also have chinese movies??" all i said was I dunno maybe.. haha candy! My cookies was also a hit! most of my cousins like the french merengue! they said its like cotton candy.. around 7pm they left and i prepare to clean up again.. huhu imagine me being tired! to my shock again!! mama said we are going to visit auntie kamariah after isyak prayers! I was like okay.. as long as I didn't have to redo everything.. Then we went and met with her and her family, she's not my aunt but my former neighbor. When we first arrive, mama and auntie kamariah hugged like its 10 years they havent seen eachother! I was happy to see that. we got inside, her grand daughter umairah came and sat next to me! I was utterly afraid! I wasn't particularly close to children and i'm not that good with them but she was always next to me. hehe it made me happy. she likes me for some reasons. Mama and auntie kamariah talks while kak ruby prepares and then we ate again! :P but this time umairah sat next to me really close! auntie kamariah said that she's not close to anyone, even she felt awkward. Umairah was that close to me. mama said that she wanted to play with me, ohh she was such a beauty! I just want to take pictures of her. I dont have a camera! huhu her curly hair and foreign face. She is adorable! one highlight I think I like celebrating raya. It brings closeness to people or in malay we'd say "mengeratkan siratulrahim". So later, we visit mcdonald and ate again! and tadaaa... i'm here telling about it to u candy! haha I'm FATTT!!!!! GRRRRR!! tomorrow! no more food! it's time to go on a diet!!

i think ur sleepy candy! wake up! here's a picture of my familia

I'm guessing you might asked where's arif?? He is celebrating it with his family. However it might not be a celebration because his grandfather had died at 5am today on the first day of eid mubarak. So it wasn't a happy celebration. I know the feeling, so Al-fatihah to his late grandfather. I hope we all pray for his late grandfather and papa. Oh, another sad news from him. His grandmother on his father's side just got into a coma. I know. OMG. How can that be? It happens to most of us. There are families who just lost or had already lost their family members a few days before, its harder for them because they were expecting to celebrate it with eachother. I hope all those people have good strength, power and will to move one and be strong! I pray for all of them, the people we lost, the people they lost and the people in need. Al-fatihah.

To all my friends, cousins, uncles, family I wish you all
Selamat hari raya aidilfitri! maaf zahir dan batin!

Bye candy! nite!

coooooookkkkkkiiiiieeeeessssssssss.......!!!!

2010-09-05T19:04:00.002+08:00

Hello candy!

I happy! absolutely happy!! I'm baking tonight!! I found 10 recipes excluding 1 because it has cardamom and mama said it might be yucky and people might hate it! so it's 9 recipes!! yea... can't wait to bake this whole week!!

So i'm baking

1) chocolate chip cookies
2) french meringue
3) cut out shaped cookies
4) chocolate fudge with peanut butter / fudge puddle
5) tat nenas
6) strawberry and almond thumbprint cookies
7) spring lime tea
8) russian tea cakes
9) marshmallow treats
10) something behind cornflakes box. its recipes

opppsss i forgot to buy peanut butter!!!

okay bye
mama is yelling because fasting is about to end now.. im hungry!!!

amusement

2010-09-04T20:40:00.002+08:00

Hello candy,

I've arrived from my week in muadzam, finally my midterm is OVER! Advance management accounting and Internal auditing is finished! yea! so I need to concentrate on my finals! ~huh~!! I think I'm doing fine but we will just see right?

okayh~!

Yesterday was my last day of mid term examination! I trust me all most of us could think of is HOLIDAY!! why did they even make midterm on last day of class?? anyway, the exam question was easy for question 1 and 2 however for question 3! It was trick question and I think I can't do it!! Arghhh!! I came out yelling! hehehehehe... I was that frustrated! Don't worry candy! I can try again of finals and there is no turning back!

Today though I was tired because of yesterday long trip home with my beloved ungku arif and cyborg a friend of ours. we arrived at Kuala Lumpur at exactly 10pm! but reached home at 10.40 like that. I'll stop bragging about yesterday. Today, mama took on to the market but my eyes were as heavy! they won't open! so i slept through the whole shopping and visiting my dad's grave and seeing kak long (mama's friend) who made this really delicious cake!! I missed all that for sleep????? i was that tired! ughh..

I thought to myself actually ever since this semester started, I've begin to sleep in early. never let anymore. Usually around 3am I would go to bed but nowadays it's like 1am or earlier! OMG!! I've begin to grow up! that's good right?? i hope so.. by next year I need to start looking for a job and work! yea!

Life as a university student would soon be over and no more long holidays, just long days at work and missing the 2-3weeks of vacation!! hahaha I'm so going to miss my vacation! It's like working 24/7 and 9am-5pm! huh! can't wait! on plus side of working, I got to earn my own money and I can save them for my future needs. It's not like I didn't save money now, I did. I was suppose to have around Rm500 something before semester start. I guess it's finish because I spend it on to buy stuff.. stuff?? NOW i'm regretting my spending!! but i miss shopping!!I like shopping! not an addict just shoes! cloth!

Honestly! I'm not like high end clothed lover! I'm just normal. I like to shop at medium size store price range BELOW RM100 or actually BELOW RM50 haha! I mostly wear t-shirt and some dresses that cost about Rm25 or less. shoes however are my lust! my pride and joy of why I go shopping! Don't really know why, just that their gorgeous! and to die for! huh.. i miss shopping for shoes.. grrrrr....

oh! i almost forgot! I wanted to blog about my writing and i went this ahead?? haha

actually, i got a storyline for my writing. not just 1 but 3. honestly i don't know where to begin! what part to start and HOW to start! I really need help and support for it. I told arif about it and he said it sounds good. interesting. I'm happy just hearing about it! yea! I am too!! just need to start and have an ending! 1 story is almost on the go the other 2 pieces is still in the making. how i want jodi picoult and khaled hosseini to mentor me. For me, I'm in loved with their style of writing and how the story evolve from the get go! it is my amusement to meet them and just see how they work and gain that edge!

huh... i sound lame don't i? I'm still half asleep and half awake. but I hope i can write and do all the things i love in life.

Oh! I'm going to bake cookies for the whole week till raya or eid ul-fitr this week! oh i'm going to tell you about raya too soon okay! just wait! it's the most festive and loved event in malaysia! yea!!

oh well, my roommate told me last week i need to post real photos of me! how i want a camera and to be a photographer! but it all still remain a mystery till when will i become one.

bye candy!

Letters.

2010-08-26T07:53:00.003+08:00

Hello candy,
this letter is for my mother. I'm not sure how long will I be in this world but it would be nice if people know how much I love her till now. How much she meant the world to me. Thank you

Dear mama,

Do you remember when you told me, when I was young I would always followed you wherever you'd go even to the toilet. I'm pretty much you remembered it mama. You said it was hard because I was always right in front of the bathroom door. Even till now, I would follow you wherever You'd go. I'm your daughter, It is my blood and my responsibility to take care you and to love you till time part us. It is also my promise to Papa that I never let anyone hurt you, he gave me his trust to take care of you when he is gone. I never thought that those words would be the last I'd hear from him. I miss him and I know you miss him too but you missed him most.

Sometimes, I wonder if your crying or just alright but I know deep down, it hurts painfully to lose him. I can sense it sometimes. Sometimes, I can't stop crying knowing that I miss him even more when time grew further. But I kept my self strong for you, because I know you need me sometimes but most of the times I need you. Your my mother, your my strength, your the one that kept me alive till now. Your the one who'd pick me up when I got hurt. You always realizes when I'm crying or just sick because of flu. Every time I'd cry you would say anything to make me happy, anything to make sure that I'd stop. You once said that If I cry, it would only make you felt even more worst and you would cry too. Honestly, mama I don't know what to say or do to make you feel better after papa left. I don't know how to make you feel happier. I don't know what to say just to cheer you up. I can't think of any. You'd make me strong when I cry but I can't give back what you did. I don't know how. I want to so bad, every time. Every time. I want you to be happy.

Mama, you sacrifice a lot for me and so did papa. You both gave me everything you could to ensure I have a future, a life and not waste anything to make sure my life would be complete. This I know I can repay every little debt I owe to you both. I try my best with my life to make sure you get the life you want. I remember once you told me about your past. When you were young, you didn't have an easy life. You were also an orphan and you would carry your bicycle some times to school if it rains and mud puddle would be every where. How 50 cent would be more than enough for you to eat for one day. I remember every stories you told me of you growing up, as to that as you daughter I want to make your life easier and more tasteful. I want you forget the past that hurts you. However, those past is what kept me wanting to make you happy. I want you to stop having those burden you'd been having all your life. When the times come, I will take those responsibility that is on you shoulders and try to amends all of them one at a time. For every problem, I want you to have a life without problems and without pain and headache.

Mama, for every little mistake I'd make in my life. I want to ask for your forgiveness. I know I made tons of mistake before, sometimes I'd take you for granted, sometimes I yelled at you, sometimes I didn't listen to you. I know every mistake I've done and I apologies for all the mistake that has happen. I can't undo them but I can learn from them to avoid them. That is what you taught me. You taught me a lot while growing up, even now your still teaching me. Never take people for granted. If you let people have an easy life, Allah may grant you an easy life soon. Always respect the elderly and the young even though their naughty and stubborn most of the times. Always give others people first and your's last. Donate to the poor. All these were the one you showed me, you said to me, you gave to me. Even if you didn't meant to teach me, I would still pick it up with you noticing it. I would say now I'm shaping into someone I know you would be happy to see. After all, you did say I am the nicest but a pain to some people. I will try to make things better mama. I will learn and protect you from any harm.

Mama, I love you. I know there so many things to say but I can't say it all at once. Mama, for every sacrifice you made for me, I will try to repay everything even if it cost me my life. I know it might hurt you hearing this, but if you were in trouble or hurt. I will do my best to make sure the person that harm you will have his justice! Mama, I can't say much but if I could I would want to be your donor one day. Anything to make you happy, it is after all my promise.

I love you, mama.
You meant the world to me. You meant that much to me. I know there are people assuming that I forgotten about you because I have Ungku. But they don't know how I felt deep inside my heart. Even with him in my life, your the one that makes my heart beats, you make my life turn, you made every thing ticks and tocks. Honestly, your both important to me than anything in the world but mama your the only one that can hurt me and sadden me. Without you, I'm not sure where I'll be or how I'll be. Without you, I might not be as motivated as this. You mean that much, that much. I would give everything I could for you. For my love for you. For my duty to you. As your daughter, I love you. As your child, I gave my future to make your past gone. As your friend, I want to be there for you. You are my mother, you're my best friend. You're the only one that I could talk to about anything. I spent most of my life with you. Your my mother. Your my heart.

I love you mama.
Always.
Forever.

This is the last photo ever taken by my sister Elida. It is my beloved Papa, Mama, Me and Ungku Arif. A memory that I never forget. This picture was the last the I have ever taken with him. I miss you papa

Love Aya.
(Natalia Sulaiman)

hummmmm exams.

2010-08-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hello candy,

Yesterday I slept from 8PM till 4.30AM.. haha I was that tired and that busy the whole entire day of sunday I was doing my assignment and I didn't sleep till monday 8PM crazy right?

Today I woke up and I was still tired, huh! now it's 12.42 Am and IM still TIRED!!

But tomorrow I have midterm exam for Bahasa Melayu Korporal and on thursday I also have another midterm exam on Strategic Management! That's not all... Next week on 1 september I have another exam on Internal Auditing and on 3 September it's going to be one of the most toughest and hard paper! Advance Management Accounting! Grrrr...

So many exams, So little time!

More eye bags coming!

Ok candy.. tralalala...!

Fantasia~!

2010-08-23T09:52:00.000+08:00

Hello candy,

Since I'm waiting for my friends to finish with their part of the assignment and do wait for discussion, I'm going to post about my dream wedding.. :P hahahaha I know right.. really??? it might happen! it's only a dream though, Just hoping.. but seriously I doubt it going to happen...

I'm so happy for Hilary Duff who got recently wed.. Best wishes for you, Hilary! from one your fan! hehe

I like hair like this because it's easy and very elegant. Also, it is very chic and fashionable. However though, I wear a scarf (tudung) So this type of hair is not in the question. Hurmmmm

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rings.. gosh~!! Bling Bling.. I kind of like cuts and shapes like these but there are other options~!

morphinebliss

morphinebliss

morphinebliss

dresses?? haha well I'm a muslim thus I need to be Muslimah in all way possible~! so I can't have vera wang design for me, I'm not that rich!!! Honestly though, her dresses are really pretty and If only! if only then maybe.. right?? I can only dream of dresses like this...

if you want you can look at her website. OMG!! I loving all of it! But my top 10 would be callalily, dylan, eleanor, devon, daphne, deandra, amelia and tatiana.

I kinda like dresses like this for its waist and longigation. hahaha I want to look taller!! Serious candy, I'm 4 ft 11!! I'm not yet 5 ft!! Not reaching it either!

details like this is just amazing!!

themes...?? I like a lot of them! some would be garden theme, beach theme, simple river runs through theme, white theme, sakura theme and well... MANY!

morphinebliss

don't you think it's a bit lavish and rich?? Yep.. I think so too..

I have to say I havent thought about the food!! Would malaysian food mixed with this lavish and extravagant theme?? Hurmmm Well I hope you guys can guess..

well I guess thats it for my dream wedding but I haven't really thought of it thoroughly, only just what to wear, the ring.. the cake???!! OMG I left that one out.. HUrmm... Maybe later..

Bye candy!! ~~It's time to finish with assignment!~~
Still doing assignment~!! and its 9.11AM

Apple

2010-08-23T02:11:00.001+08:00

hello Candy!

It's been a long time from updates~! But I'm actually busy with assignments, mid term exams, quizzes and tutorial home works~!! HUH.. it's too much.. but I'm happy! Mid term break is coming~!! and Hari Raya Holidays is also near~!! yea!!

Oakay candy!

Later.. Im busy doing assignment and presentation slide for Strategic Management...

HELP

fofurasfelinas

food!! nomnomnom

2010-08-16T13:50:00.002+08:00

Hello candy!

Candy, it is my honour to tell you what I have eaten in this past 5 days of fasting! That's nearly a whole week, I'm just excited to tell you about it! I hope your saliva will be ready and your stomach isn't full for the foods. I'm sure you want to eat it too.. hehehe

okay!

For the 1st day of Ramadhan, I've this acknowledgement that I want to save money. A friend of mine, Farah said that she only spent RM5 for one day! and I want to do it too! Too save money of course! So, that day I've decided to eat LAKSA PENANG! It's cost RM2. For sahur, or I oooked porridge. Yum! Save money =RM3

For 2nd day, I think I sort of overspent or kinda overstress because that night I had an Exam for Corporate Governance which I did not do very well on! HUH! Okay back on the topic of foods, I bought fried mihun, jelly or agar-agar, caramel pudding and air kelapa. hmmmm I like! I was stresses then! All this cost about RM4.50 haha! For sahur, I cooked Kampung Fried Rice and I cooked for 4 people which for me and my housemate! Save money= RM0.50

For the 3rd day however, I went back to KL to spend time with my mother. We both went a little over board with the food since mama said this week is the only week she's going out so she eat what she could. So budget is not included this time candy. Caramel pudding, nata de coco pudding, blueberry tart, creme puff, karipap or curry puff, murtabak,bubur pisang, bubur pulut merah, some assorted kuih muih I'm not sure the name is. That's only for side dishes! The main dish would be Pajeri nanas, Nasi beriyani with kurma ayam, acar, ayam bakar, ikar pari with assam pedas, and I sort of forget. There were too much!! But the funny thing was that Mama and I didn't wake up for sahur! hahaha

For the 4th day, I'm just gonna sum it all up. Mee rebus, Bakso, Bergedil, Bubur Pisang, creme puff, blueberry tart, karipap, jelly. i think that's it. But for sahur, we ate rice, kari chicken, acar, leftover from yesterday which gave me stomach ache.

For the 5th day, Ikar BAKAR!! Ikan Pari!! Ayam percik, pucuk paku masak lemak cili padi, kangkung goreng belacan, caramel pudding and air limau kasturi.

So candy, I think I've not been dieting and this is soooo much food. I'm starting to be getting hungry! Grrr.. But I can wait for berbuka. Oh in case your wondering, I drank Tropicana Twister Orange juice all the time for breaking fast. Hehe Nak promote kejap brand tu.

I hope you have a lovely day candy. Choose your food wisely and don't follow the lust so much. It'll only be wasted.

fasting

2010-08-13T02:05:00.002+08:00

hello candy!

I've decided to actually give a brief summary of ramadhan but instead of saying it in my own words, i'm going to add some from wikipedia.

from wikipeida:-
Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان‎ Ramaḍān, Arabic pronunciation: [rɑmɑdˤɑːn]) (also Ramazan, Ramzan, Ramadhan, Ramdan, Ramadaan) is the ninth month of the Islamic calendar. It is the Islamic month of fasting, in which participating Muslims refrain from eating, drinking and sexual activities from dawn until sunset. Fasting is intended to teach Muslims about patience, humility, and spirituality. It is a time for Muslims to fast for the sake of God (Arabic: الله‎, trans: Allah) and to offer more prayer than usual. During Ramadan, Muslims ask forgiveness for past sins, pray for guidance and help in refraining from everyday evils, and try to purify themselves through self-restraint and good deeds. As compared to the solar calendar, the dates of Ramadan vary, moving backwards about ten days each year depending on the moon. Muslims believe Ramadan to be the month in which the first verses of the Qur'an were revealed to the Prophet Muhammad.

from me:-
ramadhan is a month where we muslims refrain ourselves from eating, drinking, and sexualy activities as stated from above. It also means that we can't put anything inside our body. for example we can't pick our nose, put a finger inside our mouths or clean the inside or ears. this part of months is mostly about the teaching us to be patience and spirituality. this part of months we have tarawikh which for me has lailatul qadar in the end of the month which is 10 days before it ends. this part of time is where "the night of decree or measures" or the holy night of the year where the sun is glowing white. so this is in my opinion.

im sure others has their own. don't be discreet if i make mistakes. im sorry and i apologies for any mishaps i've stated above.

ramadhan

2010-08-13T01:50:00.002+08:00

hello candy!

so it's a new month and a very important month in islam calendar! I'm so happy get to fast! ramadhan al-mubarak has started! and soon will be hari raya!!! yeaaa!!!

tomorrow im going home to break my fast with my beloved mama however im also heavily sad because arif is not healthy and he is sick with fever, soar throat, coughing, flu and his body is tired. i'm not happy nor im not sad.. im in between because i'm happy i got to be with mama also i'm sad because i can't take care of arif! huh~!!

give me strength and let him get well soon. I hope mama will be happy when i come home tomorrow..

bye candy!

dog tired

2010-08-09T01:00:00.002+08:00

Hello candy!

photo by i like tomatoes

I've arrived from KL, a weekend spent with mama and arif with almost of his friends. It was tiring thought when I was doing all the spending and having fun and shopping...bla..bla..bla.. tired!

OKay! to start of, I was suppose to go back on Thursday but Arif said he wanted to follow and some of his friends, cyborg and adam wanted to head there too so eventually we left muadzam on friday, exactly at 6.pm! seriously my lappie is doing s*** because suddenly it crashed! and all what i've wrote is gone!!

photo by kiimchi tumblr

arghhh!!! okay im off to bed now! can't re-write what i wrote my head is sleepy and i have a sore throat.. errrr... yuck!

jaded

2010-08-04T15:59:00.002+08:00

Hello candy,

Im just browsing the internet for some fun stuff to see. There's a few things I like and a few I'm just stagger at. I know it's lame since the world cup is so over but I kinda like looking at Mesut Ozil. Not only is he the same age as me, he is also a muslim. It is so astonishing and ridiculous. Right?? It's possible in this world. It's lame but he is weird looking and plays good but I really have no idea why I like looking at him. Anyway, I'll try to find a good looking picture of him for you to drool over. Haha

~~Found it!~~
Mesut Ozil
photo from his facebook
It's weird about the guy who found the yellow ~~crab~~, i mean lobster is 1 to 30 million??? wow! it's his luck alright! congrats!! I found it to be very amusing. I only know of 1 coloured lobster which is red! haha when it's cooked! so foolish of me! but I'm not that silly I just don't see the world much! If you could see through my eyes, I tend to be guided in one direction. My eyes aren't accurate!

Okay! stop with the mad news of myself! Today, is not a very special day because I'm tired, bored, sleepy and easily enough lets just sum it all in one = JADED!

hurmmm what to do? I have class at 5 and then later at 8 which is boring since the night class finishes at 11!! I'm so famished by then! grrr.. my housemate's hazz and wanis both went to class and nelly is off to KL. it makes me so envy! I want to fo home! I miss my mom!! Mama I miss u! I love u! GRRRRR.... I'm here blogging with u candy! and in 30 minutes time I have to get ready for class... huhuh...

photo byanne tumblr

photo by jewellann (flickr)

both this dresses are so superb! It's shape and design is like OMG!! and the pattern is what i love most!

midnight mayhem

2010-08-03T23:22:00.004+08:00

hello candy!

It seems like wonders today. Actually, I had a quiz today about advance management accounting and it was hard! but not that hard! I just hope I got better results than the previous quiz. The subject is not one to take it likely, it's hard and for me when you memorize it and understand it, it's simple but when your graded by your lecturer it might seem that your not quite adequate enough. I'm troubled actually by this subject. I know what i'm learning and I understand it but my answers aren't correct. Huh! Saddneeeesssss roams my night tonight!

Later at 2pm I had tutorial for Corporate Governance. I heard it was an easy subject something you can understand and have fun in but I'm also not sure what is going on. I guess it's time to study again and over again till my brain damages itself!

My night tonight seems to be much of a worrier! but I did have some fun like screaming just by seeing an incredible weird looking insect flying around inside the house!! It's creepy and yucky!! I don't like it! How am i going to sleep tonight??!!

However, tomorrow is a great day! I have no morning class! but i do have class at 5-7pm and 8-11pm.. the last night class makes me feel like an OWL! duh! It takes so long! and it at night! people just want it to be deal with and go eat!

Okay! I'm going to stop bragging! it's such a mayhem! I can't think straight! I have homework! 9 question!!

bye candy!

paralyzed

2010-08-02T02:49:00.003+08:00

candy,

i miss being loved. i missed having spending time with those people. i miss being with every each and one of them. i miss seeing the sight of u smiling across my eyes. i miss looking at those cheeks, at those eyes and say funny things funny jokes. with u i always feel freedom and happiness. with u i always feel the vast ocean in my life. i miss every sight of days when we were together. i missed it all. i miss u.

I THINK WITH LOVE YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU'RE FINDING IT UNTIL YOU FOUND IT -CHRIS L

mental

2010-08-02T01:18:00.004+08:00

Hello candy!

sometimes in life, you feel the most urges to love, to hold and to behold. Never in your life would you feel the benefit and disadvantages in life to come. You might overcome some challenges but in life truly, there will only be road bumps and humps but it all mostly be crossroads.

we learn to love at a very young age with the help of our parents emotion and devotion towards each other. We also learn to hate from them. I guess that's the nature of life, most people says that your parents may teach you stuff but most stuff they don't teach is the things we learn just by looking at them. My parent love each other thus I learn to love everything in life from them. Especially towards cats, animals and people. Respect and forgiveness. Sacrifices and sadness.

Most people forget that life can be cut short with a snap of a finger. They even forget who have that much power to take them. Actually candy, I'm in no mood for writing what happen in the past week. I'm certainly lost in translation right now. I felt as if a big gulp has stolen my life. I'm embarrassed, ashamed and I feel as if i'm going crazy! I don't know what to do or what to think. All I can think of is I'm scared and I'm alone. very much alone. There is no body in my life. just emptiness and sorrow.

I'm not sure if it's about papa or anything related but I'm in a place where I just want to be alone and i want no one. because no one wants to see me, talk to me or even spend time with me. I'm just ALONE!

You think, you love someone and you want to care for them but they doesn't want it in return. what does that mean?? why don't you want me to care for you? why don't you want me to worry for you? why? why? why? All i want is for you to be happy and safe, am i that troublesome?? am i a pressure in ur life?? i don't understand! seriously candy! I don't! I don't! I don't!

i don't even know what is wrong? what is happening?
candy, i've begin to cry again! it's just frustrating. i can't!
sorry. i guess i'm at that crossroad right now.

reminiscent

2010-07-23T13:49:00.003+08:00

Hello candy,

it's been two weeks right?? I know, you missed me but I'm sort of busy with classes, assignment, going home, going back to muadzam....etc...etc...etc so much things to do! I can't put my finger on it. Honestly, as weeks progresses my free time is limited and manipulated by all the schedule and hectic of life! honestly, I hit brain mode for serious reconstruction of my life and mind! I need to study and get good marks! That's what I promise papa to do so candy I can't blog all the time. Sorry my friend. But keep in mind, I didn't forget u at all. If u always browse and this page then maybe I updated it in times u didn't notice.

I've got a very interesting story. It's about a family whose son died during his sleep, this son is buried right next to my father. He was an architect, and 30 years old if I'm not mistaken. The story about his death was like a reminiscent of how papa died but this man death was unnoticeable until the people surrounding him got suspicious. He was staying with his aunt and uncle, he was originally from Kuantan, Pahang somewhere near where I study. It was morning and he was suppose to go to work but they think he sort of overslept so they left for a morning jog I think. Thus, when they came back, his car was still there and everything was. They figured he might be getting ready. At 8 or 9 am, he wasn't coming down or anything, so they check on him and found out he was already gone. That's the story about him, now the story about his father. I saw his father a few days after papa had left and I visited papa about 2 or 3 days afterward and met with this man family including the father. He rode a big motorcycle and it was loud. I thought of him as secluded it might seem. He was rather a far from where we were standing, I think he got hurt just like I was. So the story goes on like this, Mama and I was visiting papa last week and saw the man family, we talk and talk. Suddenly, the mother said that the father had past away. I was shocked! So mama asked when? She said it was 10 days. I thought it was 10 days ago. I was like OMG!!! but she smiled and said it was 10 days after her son death that her husband followed. Mama begin to cry and I was going to cry but I didn't want to hurt the lady. Her daughter too begin to cry, she was my age 21/22.

These are very strong people! I can't imagine my life would be like this! I only lost my father but to hear they lost two important people in their life in just a short coming of days! That's wrenching even for me! I can't imagine losing mama! Sorry I've begin to cry right now.

People commented on my facebook saying they don't know what they are going to feel or unimaginable if it were to happen to them. I lost only one member but there are other people who lost more than two or 3 in just a split second. That i sympathizes on. I couldn't live if I lost mama, papa or anyone in my family or arief at the same time. Mama says that we need to be ready for all lost to come. I wasn't ready at all when papa left I'm very sure of it. No body was. No body thought of it.

I hope people will remember all those people whom we loved and let go. Don't forget to pray for them. Papa gave me life and I will in return live like he wanted me too.
I'll try to earn and achieve many things in my life even if it was the hardest in this world.