Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Life's too short

Hello Candy!

How are you today? I'm swell dear internet friend... I'm not on my mind actually. I'm more of a...a... crazy? I don't know why... Maybe because I've lost communication with my brain or my heart or well.. something..

I've been reading The Alchemist By Paulo Coelho.

It's rather good actually. I mean if you're in searching for yourself then you should definitely read this book. It's some how, realistic.

The story is that, Santiago, the shepherd whom had a dream of treasure in the pyramids of egypt. Being uncertain of his dream, he had help from A King, A Crystal Merchant, An Alchemist and Gypsy Woman to find those treasure and also his destiny. I found it rather entertaining because it teaches about self-enrichment, empowerment, self understanding. There's also a bit of a fairy tale I think hehe.. Not quite sure but I found it has a bit of a fairy tale and amusement with all the magic, prophecy and dreams.

This book really teaches you to follow your dream and not to let them go cause if you do, you'll end up being haunted by them or you'll be thinking what would happen if I do these or I do that, you know? I've been there so yep! I don't know about my destiny actually, because I'm not sure but Santiago found his destiny in his dream so... My destiny will be coming in my dreams??

Anyway! I love the book because the plot is twisted in the end. WHY? read the book OK! But i'll tell you anyway, Santiago was suppose to find the treasure in Egypt but it turns out the treasure is actually back where he had his dream.. see.. there's the twist. But I know you'll be like what? what r u talking about?!! I'm telling you to read the booookkk!!

Oh! I've learn a new word to Maktub, it means "it is already written". In the book it says about how life goes and everything, but seriously.. It is the truth, everything we do in life is already written, no matter how much we tried to change it, you'll only ended going to the same direction.

So if you all please read it. I'm sure you'll find it amusing too. because i've found it very much fun to read! I didn't let go of it!

so if you please my dear friend. Read the book!

bye candy!

Long Face

Hello Candy!

I'm stress out right now. I have no idea what to do. Probably I need to take a time out from everything. Everyone. I can't think straight. I can't. SO much.

May sun shine on You just like how you would love to shine for someone.

I'd like that.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Money Wise

Hello Candy!

Today was an eventful day for me. As you know, I was bragging about not getting my PTPTN and today, as you want to hear about me getting it, I am sad to say, I didn't got them. Some people said that it might be yesterday but yesterday didn't and some say today but today didn't. How do these process works actually? Why is it that some of my peers have already got them but there are some that didn't got them.. right? How unfair! Some of my peers have got their PTPTN and now are spending it because it's sale season and caroler are singing but for those some of US didn't are well, sitting aside and looking at them well being all jealous. Do you get what I'm saying? Huh~!! I'm so frustrated! Is this how you promised us? I know there's system and process and all the crap there is but You really have to think about those of us who are unable to get money. Really it's unfair. 

In other words, I'm dreadful seriously. I can't think clearly. It's not that I want to go shopping and go Jollying my loan or anything, it's just that Well truthfully, I need money. I need to survive. For how long do I need to ask money from My Mom right? She has her own trouble let alone to give me some. I just want to get out of the way and  ensure she has no trouble with me. It's like I want to stop giving her any burden. I just want it to stop! I'm sorry for being a burden to her I'm just am. I'm going to finish studying soon and well going to work and earn my own money. Survive myself. 

You know when you're young, you're always spending and asking these and that and SH*T.. why I bold it?

S is for substance
H is for help
I is for improve
T is for trouble

as crazy as it may sound. It is actually true and actual. As a matter of a fact, how much do you spend buying cloths and etc but you only used them for a short amount of time? In the end, either you sell for second hand or you give it to charity. It may sound nice that you gave it to charity and In Islam it is part of our religion to provide those in need or charity. But, it is critically about how you spend them. I mean you buy cloths and shoes and jewelry and stuff that in the end the value may be dropped or well, you get what I mean! Don't tell me you don't!! Everyone goes through them. Silly me! Why am i explaining it from A to Z anyway. Well since you get what I mean then you might as well know what I'm saying! Sorry I'm not mad just mad at myself.. Can't seem to figure why... hurmm...

Well, I know myself growing up, all I want was to follow my friends who were cooler and dressier or prettier or magazine that shows cloth like these and that and make up and shoes~! oh shoeS!! How mind bothering you are! I wasted all those and in return the shoes are either torn, thrown or useless because the era now has change. The trend has change and well cloths end too, only those that are in season like vintage and retro are you know what I mean. Well, I have to wait till I have children to give it too (if they want them, who knows right?) but serious in 15 years time including me being single and not married no children era, I think my cloths are either HISTORY or BANNED! that's what I'm thinking...

actually... I kinda got off the topic again... hurmmm... you know what, this is my head. and I can't figure my own head my self... I always talk like these, one topic without ending comes another one and here I go again mumbling a new topic about my weird brain!

back to my original topic, which i kinda got loss into, wait...what was my topic? oh yeah, haha... I don't want to trouble mama and me growing up buyiing shitty cloths.. ok.. so, I've plus and add and did calculations (which i suck at mathematics) and tadaaa!! 

even if i got my loan, I have to do these first:
1) pay roadtax of my car (i have a car?? yeah I do! read my previous post really previous why ok!)
2) pay mama back for what she gave me these month
3) buy Mr Arief (my boyfie) his birthday and for getting such a good results for last semester present!! 
4) I promised hazz and nealy, I'll treat them Korean Food! preferably KIMCHI
5) Camera (thinking do I really need them?)
6) SHOES!!! (seriously?? we have to go through that again??
7) format my laptop 
8) go to nealy's home town as I promised!
9) buy cloths (since my current cloths are outdated, i'm an outfit repeater OKAY!)
10) new handphone (current one is broken, i'm using my late papa's handphone)

soooo... as you can see... I've did my damaged! and now I have to regret ever ever ever wasting money! I'm regretting buying those shoes and those useful items that is now not being used!!!! 

I'm so poor!! I mean I have like survive 14 weeks with the amount that I'm having?! yeah I do! Trust me candy, I feel like crying.. I'm so ashamed of how naive I am with money when Mama always told me that "when you grow up, you'll realize how hard it is to earn money" I do know. Sorry Mama for not listening to your advice. I am... If I saved all those cash I've got then, maybe I won't be so in trouble now right? Yeah, you're right. I won't be. So now, I need to save and well SAVE even if it's the SALE season! In malay, I would say "Harta tak boleh bawa bila dah mati" translation! when you die, those property that you owned will not follow you when you die. I know there's beliefs that says you can but in Islam, the only this that counts is the five obligation to satisfy in your life that will be bring you to heaven. or Syurga.

So I think I went off the topic again.. HOW HOW HOW did I do THAT?? ok, nvm... I need to save up or earn my own money and stay away from shopping complex until duly noted I did to buy IMPORTANT THINGS!! PUT THAT IN YOUR MIND NATALIA!! please!!

fuhh...! I did, so I'll end here. That is a lot isn't it?? yup2... I've just read it and I'm like WOW! Ok..

oh, for those of you, I'm not asking for sympathy or your sorry or your charity. I just want to let it out. I do. I have a very heavy burden on my shoulder since I'm GROWING UP. so, I'm sorry if people think I'm KEDEKUT or GREEDY. I'm not. This is why.

bye candy. Thanks for well being there. in some way. 

PS: in some way, my blog title is named Little Lady Candy Land and it's suppose to sweet as candy. Some how, what I'm writing is not as sweet as delectable as it may sound right? Hmmm.. i'm still searching for new layouts though...

Friday, December 24, 2010

Continuation of previous post

Sorry I forgot to tell you!

I didn't go back home this week or Go anywhere In particular. So I didn't miss today's class which mama said I couldn't miss it. And Alhamdullillah I didn't miss it, why??

there's a POP QUIZ!!!!!

which took about 10 marks to add up with the previous quiz on tuesday so in total I'll be receiving something out of 30?? or for those who didn't come their marks will be strictly based on 20M total. Whoever came today, I guess was grateful that they came and we all got extra marks.


Okay, now i'm waiting for some decision to make! bye!

my dear religion!

Hello candy!

It's 12.30 in the afternoon on a very religious friday. It means that fridays prayer are going to be held soon. So i hope some of you men and boys go to SOLAT! OkAYH!! 

This morning I sort of woke up later at like 8.15 something like that when I have class at 9???! no big deal?? HELLO!! I sometimes can get easily dressed or well I want to look pretty but doesn't achieve any! So yeah. Me and Arief nearly got into a fight because I was late getting ready.. Prolly because I was in the toilet with stomach ache. Nonetheless, we made in time. At first I thought my class was canceled because I saw a few people heading back or i thought that was my classmate... Maybe I should interact some more?? I'm such a snob! haha! I'm not sombong okay! Just malu nak tegur org... seriously! Anyway, we were suppose to have tutorial but it turns to be a ceramah or something... it was my lecturer husband (Ustaz R) (im not sure whether i should call me ustaz or not)(i'll check later on it) whose speaking at the front and he spoke a lot of good things! I mean, i paid attention alright with the coldness and the air cond and everything, I paid attention when he said that some of us weren't paying attention due to shivering and being in winter! so that caught my attention.

What he said was seriously true because As A Muslim we are responsible for our action. We were taught about Iman and Ehsan and Doing the Right Thing and Avoid Fraudulent and Misstatement and Full Disclosure.. I'm talking about accountings and accountants and accountable for your action. so yeah. My lecturer actually said a few weeks earlier that accounting was actually apart of our religion that we as muslim should know already! It was already written in the Quran and to my surprise! I was like really?? Wow we invented accounting firsts! So if your wondering which part of it; It's Surah Al-Baqarah verse 282. This refers towards how as an accountant we are accountable for our action and not to do what we're not suppose to do like you know.. uhmm fraud, lie, cheat, steal, mishaps, embezzle, gambling and stuff. He (Allah) sees everything and everyone. I'm quite intrigue by it actually. Before I ran off the topic, Ustaz R talked about the Angels and how Satan was mad about Adam and Us human being too weak with temptations. Its true actually, I must agree, We are taught that there's life after death like heaven right? And as A muslim, we prayed 5 times a day and that does not include all the Sunat prayers and the recitation of the Quran and Fasting and Zakat and everything else, those are actually what should I say, a deed, every good deed done here in earth, we earn more "Pahala" and we entitled ourselves to His and Heaven. So these is what's important to never forget to pray and the "WAJIB" is always always a must! Never forget! or NEVER EVER EVER EVER!! Leave any of it because on Judgement Day, we will be question! I think I went off the topic.. anyway, it's the same point actually because On judgement day, even if we did all those lie in account and how corporate failings and such, we will be in question too.. Does that make sense to you? I hope it does. 

Thus, every one of us has an angel on their shoulders right? Angel in muslim is "Malaikat" and they sees everything we did right or wrong and they wrote it down. If I say a bad word that, it is most likely wriiten down. So, there's no need to lie or to be weaken by temptation of money or anything. I mean who isn't on a situation where Your told to do something bad and in return you get paid triple the amount of your salary or better 10000x more... right? who isn't weaken by that temptation. especially when you have wife ,children, bungalows, cars, etc..etc..etc.. right? I would feel it too but we must think differently. As a muslim, I need to know better. If in earth I live like this than in return what do i get for lying? only grief, resentment and regret. right? so think better. really think harder. 

credits to My lecturer and her Husband.

Sorry if i've offended some people or anyone with the written above. i didn't mean too. I do hope however in return I gave you a rather good information or knowledge that was shared to me by two people whom love and adore each other and also whom know more than I do and I just thought maybe I should share it to you guys.

SO thanks!

Bye candy! Love ya!

Haven't we meet before?

Hello candy!

I'm updating my blog soon. Trying to look for a new layout and something well--- some of my friends says they can't comment on my blog so I need to fix it since this HTML does not support comment or i can't find it anywhere. 

Anyway, I'm pretty pissed with a few things! firstly, i'm stuck in the woods! booray! y? well, Christmas is coming tomorrow and it's a holiday and every NOT every students of United is going back home but there are a PLENTY i repeat A LOT are at home CURRENTLY! except for hazz my roommate and yaya my beloved friend whose actually travelling to new places as we speak! grrrr... I didn't follow either because well here's the second reason MY PTPTN isn't bank in yet! I'm seriously pissed because some of my peers already have their loan with them and me?? why am i always the one whose late in this kind of stuff?? honestly? C'mon man! I need the doe! I need it!!!! Not because I want to go shopping BUT i want to stop asking mama for money. 

The third thing why i'm pissed is easy, I"M SOOOOOO BORED!! I don't know what to do or what to think. I kinda have work but I don't know yet what it is.. stupid isnt 't? Can't say why i don't know my own work! Being a writer is tough man! I borrowed a book from the library title "Writing as Craft and Magic" by Carl Sessions Stepp, it's actually a very good book. Some how, it helps me develop my writing a bit better in lots of ways though I honestly have to say I didn't get to read the whole book because i'm kinda distracted by 2 books which i will review later with to kill a mocking bird. I want to write a review of 3 books that i've read recently. Including Stepp's book I guess that'll be 4 books total then? Okay!

Since, my friends all went somewhere! I'm actually stuck in MUADZAM SHAH the most I don't know what to do place in the world! I went to eat dinner with Mr U. Arif me sexy lover! and then we both ask ourselves, what should we do next? and I was like well.... well... there's tunas manja... and I was like what? tunas manja??!! WTH do i even go there for in times like this? right? it's like a small mini jusco or giant only smaller I think.. NVM.. it is so aggravating! ughhhh.... then, we drove around this 5km or smaller TOWN for like 10 mins and I told me "U, I nk pegi bank, nak check pt dh masuk blom" he agreed and we went. while waiting I was praying and praying and praying.... and TADA RM10.00 hahahahahaha I can't even take that RM10.00 out! hahahaha... what to do what to do... so, I know if Yaya or Nealy is reading this, they'll be like "ALIA, we told you to come" or "Padan Muka! Tu la org suruh ikut xnak!" or somewhere there! but i know their reaction because they begged me to follow them to nealy's house this week only I felt a heavy burden following because I GOT NO MONEY! and I don't like to borrow people's money that is more than RM10. It's because I know I'll forget to pay! talking about paying, remind me to pay Kak Lyn the foodcourt lady I owed her RM3 for this mornings breakfast... SEE???? I forgot! My bad though! I'm such a forgetful person!

Now, i'm here bored. yearning. having nothing to do but read 3 books and well, i'm a reader of course but at times like these it's the only thing i could do... 


i forgot! I was watching these blog by Maria Elena. And she is SOOOOOO SUPERB! I like her very much!
I mean she speaks english like i do! and she is more hyper and more cheerful and OMG OMG OMG SHE IS SOOOOO PRETTY!!! I serious adore her! I actually wore how she wore her hijab today, but Mr U. Arif does not like it... he said it was weird.. hmmm...

but!!! she looks so gorgeous wearing it! maybe she's the only one who can pull it off since it is her look after all... yep... Oh! If you want to learn how she wore her hijab, she actually made a tutorial and it was easy! I must say... Maria Elena is so preeettay! I envy you lar! Keep updating if you're reading this. I just love it!

Oh here's her blog. read it guys or girls or yeah inbetweeners... she's nice too! very nice! (angguk angguk) :P she's fun to watch.. so funny lar!

isn't she kewl?? and a fashionista i must say! kak maria elena how to skinny mcm u? serius jeles! 

okay candy! I must go and be bored again or fantasize i've shopping or well.. I'll find something to do.. thanks for reading~!!

Saturday, December 18, 2010


Hello candy!

As much as the topic says I'm not sure what I want to write about as the topic. Well, I'm blog-walking and I found some interesting things like a community for hijabi if I'm not mistaken. Since i've started to wear one on ramadhan of 2008, I'm taking liberty of following their community and well see their style and ways of wearing a hijab. I'll hope it'll be fun. SO it means more shopping and more sMONEY!! I need some!

Anyway, Having fun blog-walking.. currently in indonesia! just now? Korea.. they have their ways for sure!

Friday, December 17, 2010

Nina Semen1

Hello candy!

I've been nina semen since forever! Well, i'm actually loving the way she writes, it sort of dark and well pleasant. I'm sure some of you agree with me when you read her i'm not sure to call it a blog. but anyway, here it is, her URL click on it...

have fun reading! I think some commented on my writing to be very gloomy or sad and prefer it to be more scary or action and magical like harry potter, narnia and etc... I'm not sure what they mean but I write from the heart so I'll take note on why they said that and maybe just fix things better. SO if you please, maybe you'll like nina semen as much as i Do.. it is after all one of my idols though i have no freaking idea who he/she is for all i know her name is nina semen and well she exist as some one in this world who i can't trace! 

to nina: I just love the way you write and what you wrote is wrenchingly heart warming! love it!

here's a preview of what she wrote!

tucked away in the corner of town is my great uncle’s old house. he’d lived in it since the day he was born. he’s dead now; he was schizophrenic. my great aunt - his older sister - said he came back from the war like that. apparently he’d been fine before. anyway, he went particularly nuts one night and jumped out of a three story window thinking something was after him. a demon or something.
the house has a rusty tin roof; the wood it’s built from is grey; the porch sags. can’t live in it, but i visit ever so often, just because. it’s a good place to think. it’s in the far back of a cotton field that no one tends to anymore, overgrown with brown and green, little bits of white speckled throughout it like dandruff. when i visit my dogs like to delve through it, chasing whatever animals they find until they come back to me, moping, with thorns and pricklers stuck in the fur.
past the field, before the house, at the edge of the yard is a white oak tree that my uncle called the lynching tree.
he said one night, when he was young, the white man that owned the farm his daddy worked on and some of his white friends strung up a black boy from it for not saying sir. that white man had been nothing but nice to our family, he said, and they thought he was fine, as far as white folk went, until that night.
that night they sat in their house, my uncle and his parents and his dozen siblings, including my great grandfather, crouched in the kitchen windows and watched that fine white man - that had treated his black father fairly and was always kind to his Cherokee mother - kick that boy in his ribs and laugh at him pleading for his life and murder him.
he said that after it happened his mother begged his father to cut that tree down, but he refused and that when he asked his daddy why, he just looked down at him with ice in eyes and told him “it’s to make sure ya’ll never forget. you can’t trust a white man as far as you can toss him, ‘less you plan on gettin’ hanged.”
i don’t know if the story is true or something the crazy in him invented. i never asked anyone else in the family: it seemed distasteful.
sometimes in the fall i’ll take people to that house and show them that tree. i rarely tell the macabre tale but i point out how when all the other trees’ leaves start whittling down and turning yellow and orange and brown, this one’s turn a deep shade of burgundy, almost like the red of deoxygenated blood

so visit her page now will ya!

Shall we dance?

Hello candy!

I know the title is a bit weird but I like it! Well, I'm home now at ampang and I'm bored because ASTRO is causing trouble which makes mama's life a bit bored! Seriously?? HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO FIX A BROKEN ASTRO DECODER??? A MONTH????? WTF MAN??!!! I'm so PISSED literally! I want to yell at the man for ruining my mother's whole month of boredom! syhushshhhh... FU man! FU man!

phheeewww.. onwards with my life, I haven't been blogging for a while i'm guessing its because I didn't have the time or I'm busy or I'm just plain lazy but all in all I'm trying my best with myself to do some adjustment and some refreshment about my peculiar behavior. I'm still poor if you get what i mean... when is PTPTN going to bank in? I don't know or well I'm searching for my practical training centre and it's hard comparing on to another and the salary they give you and such but I'm in need of a place with good people, good interaction and good moral support so I can have the least of my worries in my future. yup that is all I need for the moment.

Well, I think this might sound stupid and awkward but I'm currently reading harry potter and the goblet of fire, well i don't collect all the series but I only have that one book so i took the liberty to read it and see how it goes and i'm on the 114pg currently, i must admit it is quite a good reading. Frankly speaking, i'm 22 years old turning 23 and reading HARRY POTTER??? wow! WTV! I think the movie have got some loose end that i'm confused with so I decided to read it to understand it better. So it is embarrassing to say but I might go buy the whole series if I may but I don't know if I will.. hmm.. we'll see... After all, I do have the complete series of twilight and I have to stress upon how I do not like the movie! FULL STOP! I don't know why i don't like the movie... I only watch the 1st but the rest is history for me. I even got the host by stephenie meyer. hmmm... didn't get to read that one yet. Anyway, I've finished with to kill a mocking bird by harper lee and i'm going to return it to balqis who is the rightful owner. it's a classic which i like especially with how scout is think and jem is the brother who always take care of his beloved only sister. I find it very sweet and lovely to have family like that. And the book really is cunning to began reading with. I found it to be memorable and well, sure it's ending is fast with Mr ewell dead and all but I was hoping that harper lee would write some more.  hmm maybe i'm thinking too much about it... NVM....

continue with my weird mind right now, I'm hungry for no reason at all... its sound means I need food! Feed me! feed me! I just ate like at 1pm just now.. hmm.. what is wrong with me... i've suddently became the fatty bumbum i've been avoiding... need to exercise!!! urghhhhh!! talking about being skinny, i want to dye my hair read I'm father fond of it. Maybe because I'm pale and that colour may make me look more stunning even though i wear a hijab. but nonetheless, it's a very nice colour and i want it badly!!! See this picture.. she's beautiful with that hair colour.. hmm... envy!

My hair is currently like this long but i think it's a bit more longer.. i dunno i didn't measure it properly

You guys know how i'm fond of cats right? Aware of it that some of my previous post have pictures of kitten?? Even my blog URL is based on kittens too?? Well, I just found some really cute and adorable kittiess!! UGHH... SO cuddly!  I want one! but i can't this place where i live, i'm not sure if we're allowed too but i think its safer to not to adopt a pet. Maybe if I move to a better place than it's likely i'm having one pronto!

so here: the adorable cute and debonair kitten!
isn't he cute!! I found it on a page but i couldn't link it to it's rightful owner. SO if you know, please tell me

I'm loving the books! Its propotion and well i don't know what type of books this is just love the cat and how it fits with the books and the shelf

from someone's facebook.. didn't catch the name of it.. do tell me if you know thanks!

well, i guess that's all for it now!

bye candy!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Pricing should be fixed!

Hello Candy!

Well, I went out to eat dinner today and Nealy, Ili and I went to this place near Uniten. Well, since Uniten that I'm in is at a rural area I don't think I should tell you which place it is since there is a lot of students whom eat there too. So, I ordered Tomyam Mushroom and Drink Hot Lime. When I was eating, I thought of how delicious it was and I'd like it because well it's my fave soup and then when I went to pay for it. I told the lady what I already eaten, at first I thought she wanted to calculate it but then she decided not too and then she said "RM8" and I was like WTF?? That can't be! So I asked her "Kak, How much is the tomyam?" her answer was sooooooooo oblivious! It was so unexpected! "The tomyam is RM7" and I was more and more mad! I was furious so I told her that the menu said the tomyam is 'RM3.50' and she was like really? I didn't know that let me check, so she went to asked her friend whom worked there and said it's "RM5" and I was even more mad! excuse me?? RM5?? the menu said rm3.50 and why did u mark up the food for RM1.50?? I was like look the menu said RM3.50 and I didn't want to pay at first then she went on bragging saying that's the old price and the new price is RM5 and I was even more mad then nealy who was also shocked asked "why would you put that price? change it" the lady answered "i already told her (her friend) to change but she didn't change it blablablablabla..." excuse me???? WTH??? ughhhh... I think there is need for rules with these food I mean sure vendors are allowed to sale but the price should be fixed and no mark up! it's not like you gain anything like that, you're only losing customers!

I seriously would not want to eat there again! trust me! I won't! I don't care if I have to strave or go to Segamat or Kuantan! Ughhh.. I said to nealy that with RM5 I can eat Paprik Fried Rice or even Kuey Teow Kung Fu! The rice cost RM4.50 and the Kuey teow cost RM5... or even fried noodle nealy eaten was only RM3.50 and that is even more fulfilling that the tom yam! I am so furious! I'm not rich lady! I have got no income to generate sale or profit! Be fair! We're just students and we have no job! As for me!! I have no father to go to for money! Keep that in mind! Your just being selfish for that! I can even buy Mcdonald Fries that cost less than that!

Bye candy! I'm just pissed off! PPTBMFHGFRTYED!!!!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

My Top Anime

Hello candy~!!

Today, I'm going to list down my fave anime that i'd watch for a while now. Be seriously, I watched tons already! I mean a lot of them. I'm not just a book worm buff, I'm also an Anime buff and well Music too.. These three components are me. SO I am delighted to say I'm still a child at heart with all this lovely and magnificent interest of mine!

SO, here are my fave anime!
1. Bleach
Kurosaki Ichigo is a 15 year old boy that has an ability to see ghosts/spirits. Because of his ability, he is able to meet a female death god (a.k.a Shinigami) named Kuchiki Rukia. To save his family and friends from unwanted soul-eating spirits (Hollows), Rukia transfers her Shinigami powers to Ichigo. As Rukia takes on a human shell, together they solve mysteries involving spirits and hollows until from the spirit world comes 2 other shinigamis explaining that it is illegal to transfer Shinigami powers to humans and Rukia exceeded the time limit to stay in the human world. After they sentence her death for breaking the laws, Ichigo snaps and swears to everyone he will retrieve Rukia by breaking into the spirit world.

Miaka Yuuki, an average middle school student caught up in studying for exams, is sucked into an ancient Chinese novel titled "The Universe of Four Gods". There she discovers that she is in an ancient country in what is now China, Konan, and is to be the Priestess of one of the four gods, Suzaku. As the priestess, her duty is to gather the Seven Seishi of Suzaku, who are to be her protectors. Once they are gathered, the priestess will summon the god Suzaku and bring peace between the warring lands, Konan and Kutou. But it's harder than it seems. Along the road, many hardships are faced, as Miaka's best friend Yui Hongo enters the book and becomes her rival, the priestess of Seiryuu in the land of Kutou. Who summons their god first is up to the courage and skill of the priestesses and their seishi, as they meet triumphs and tragedies along the way

Throughout the passage of time and the shifts in backgrounds, a particular war continues to leave its mark on history, extending its influence into the modern world. There are two major groups involved in the ensuring war. The first group consists of monsters known as Chiropterans who can change their appearances into that of human beings. They are actually immortals who feed on the blood of the living. The second group is an organisation known as the "Red Shield", formed to track down these monsters and exterminate them. Otonashi Saya is a high-school girl who lives a peaceful life with her family. The only problem is, she has no recollections of her life beyond that of the past year. However, her happy life will be destroyed by an event that will lead her to her destined fate

Himura Kenshin is a vagabond with a dark past and sunny disposition. Not a ronin but a rurouni, he was never a samurai, but an assassin of utmost skill in the Meiji restoration, who in the turning point of the war simply walked away. His travels lead him to Tokyo in the 11th year of the Meiji era, where he befriends a female Kendo master, a former thief, a brawler and a doctor all with their own secrets. Together they fight off the enemies surfacing from the dark past that Kenshin cannot escape

Sakuragi Hanamichi is a junior high punk used to getting into fights and being rejected by girls but upon entering high school he meets the girl of his dreams, Haruko Akagi. He will do anything in order to win her heart including joining the school basketball team that is aiming to conquer the nation lead by Haruko's brother. The problem is that Sakuragi has never played basketball before and a freshman sensation is stealing the spotlight and Haruko's affection from him.

Sakura Kinomoto was an ordinary 4th grader until the day she opened a strange book and let dozens of powerful magic cards loose on the world. Keroberos, the Guardian of the Clow Cards, informs Sakura that it is now her responsibility to find and capture the freed cards. However, much to the reluctant Sakura's dismay, things aren't going to be easy for her; simply saying magic words and waving her wand around isn't good enough. Each card is a living, thinking, extremely powerful being. She'll have to learn to cope with her new responsibilities, as well as ordinary troubles involving love, school, family, and friends. With the support of her friend Tomoyo and a young boy with powers of his own, she must learn how to use her newly awakened magical abilities to collect each card and prevent the disaster that will befall the world if she doesn't.

Syaoran, a boy who wants to become an archeologist, and Sakura, a princess from the Clow Kingdom, are childhood friends with a close relationship. On a fateful night, Sakura lost all her memories as a result of a conspiracy to obtain her powers. In order to regain her memory, Syaoran seeks help from the witch, Yuuko. Yuuko tells Syaoran that he has to travel from one alternate reality to another to collect fragments of Sakura's memory. However, even if Sakura regains her memory, she will have no recollection of Syaoran. Travelling together with them is Kurogane, a warrior who was exiled from his country, and Fye, a magician who wants to escape from his King. With the help of a magical creature, Mokona, they set off on an exciting journey through time and space.

In the future, personal computers have developped into "Persocons", mobile computers that look like human beings. Hideki Motosuwa, a prep school student, desperately wants to buy a Persocon but cannot afford to. One day he finds a Persocon that has been thrown away and decides to keep it. When he turns on the Persocon, all she can say is "Chii" so he decides to name her that. After a while it starts to become apparent that Chii is more than an average Persocon. Having much better performance, it seems that Chii might be a "Chobit", a type of advanced Persocon rumoured to have independent thought.

At the age of 14 Shinji Ikari is summoned by his father to the city of Neo Tokyo-3 after several years of separation. There he unwillingly accepts the task of becoming the pilot of a giant robot by the name EVA01 and protect the world from the enigmatic invaders known as "angels." Even though he repeatedly questions why he has accepted this mission from his estranged and cold father, his doing so helps him to gradually accept himself. However, why exactly are the angels attacking and what are his father’s true intentions are yet to be unraveled.

Keiichi Morisato is looking forward to university life. But in reality, he has no luck in anything, and he has trouble with clubs, love, etc. The truth is that he has an unlucky star above his head. One day, Keiichi is stuck watching the dorm while his sempai are away, and has a mountain of chores to do to boot. But Keiichi is a good-natured person, and is set about doing his duties. As he is about to finish his final chore, he makes a phone call to his sempai. But the words that came through the receiver are, 'Goddess Help Line.' Shortly afterwards, a beautiful goddess named Belldandy appears in front of him from the mirror of his room.

10. Pretear
Himeno Awayuki was a normal sixteen-year old girl until her father married a woman who happens to be rich. Since then, she has been perceived as an outcast by both her new stepsisters and her classmates. Later Himeno finds out from seven men called the Leafe Knights that she is something called Pretear, a girl who has the power to merge with and control the nature of the elemental-oriented powers from the Leafe Knights and stop an evil being called the Princess of Disaster.

here are some of my anime that I'd like to watch but not my listed fave:
16. BECK
18. Boys Be

Well, there's too much to put but these are some that I'd watch and I know some are laughing because of Sailor Moon but don't be superficial, it's a good anime.. There are people agreeing with me.

My new housemate Ili said am i bragging about these or something but I'll love to put some anime video here but I'm too lazy too.. sorry.. you guys know where to search for it right? Anyway, these are my fave so go look for it! I'm sure some of you may like it too.
Well, that's it I guess.. ENJOY!

Bye Candy

Monday, December 6, 2010


Hello candy!

It's monday and my first day of class for the week since last week I only have 1 day which was on thursday but the rest is history! Anyway, I have assignments already?!! Haha... figure! SO i'm going to look for the New Economic Model (NEM) for my paper in Malaysian Economics as well as Sime Darby for individuals assignment. Need for info! If anyone has information regarding this two please do contact me. Thank you!

Well, I just had dinner with friends, Nealy, Hazz, Yaya and Kak Meen. We chit chatted about the mysteries of ghost, ghouls and something between. Kak meen a lot of stories but I didn't hear much of it because I was afraid or well I'm not welll.... you get what I mean. Every one has their fears and they have to be strong. I will try to be strong. Okayh2... on wards... Still reading my book, and still thinking on what to write for part 3 of One Day but I'm going to halt on for a while because Its a dead end. If I write it like this, it'll be one litre of tears according to Is and if I write it like that It'll be well much predicted. SO... I'm going to be thinking about it and fixing it a bit so, it will be different and much more not expected I think. Okay! Bye2.. going to play city of wonders.. fun!

Bye Candy!

PS: having fun!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Happiness in the wind

Hello Candy!

I am terribly happy today, honestly, I got to spend time with mama and someone Hehe... We went to MAHA 2010 and I bought chocolate and kek Lapis Sarawak, it was so nice and tasty! seriously, i would go buy them again only if they have a store where i could go but sadly, only the chocolate shop has a factory which does not sell... yup.. NVM... still their delicious and sweet and ouhhh.... i don't want to finish them! grrrr.... The event was fun actually, it was crowded with people whom can't walk properly nor see properly. always trying to hit people and push them. "PLEASE BE PATIENT" we're heading the same way. huh. I'm pissed off because of that. People just push and kept pushing and it was suffocating! I can't even breathe until at one point I just wanted to scream because they were just rude even the children were bothering, they kept screaming and yelling and crying and i'm just not suitable for places like that.

Okay, i'm going to stop mumbling about that and talk about the event. I went to 3 hall actually, One was the international thingy and two were something. I didn't get the name but I thought it was interesting. Firstly, I got to see a grouper which is a fish that has spots like a tiger. hahaahaha in malay they are called kerapu harimau. AND they aren't here, but the business is breeding this fish so we could have them. something like that. Mama asked if we could eat them and the guy said we could but if we wanted them we must go to pangkor or some places to fish them. The species is not here in any of malaysian waters only to those who is breeding them. WOW! I like them but i don't want to eat them I think their prettttyyyy.. :P okay! next on I saw turtles!! hehehe NINJA TURTLES!!! yup2.. they were swimming and so cuttteee!!! grrrr.. later, a dugong but it's dead and well it's been mummified for a while. uhmmm it's creepy but for me i didn't liked it much! next on!! We went and saw some more fishes but the most interesting fish to me is the LOBSTER!!!!! why?? easy they were HUGE!! HUMONGOUS!! Mama and someone tried to touch their antenna but I screamed because i was scared and well I was scared because i thought of a movie called the mist which have an alien being that eat people that look like the lobster. hehe.... i want to eat that lobster. YUM! :P sorry dude, lobster is my fave seafood because i rarely eat it! we even saw something called a belangkas and it was uglyyy and yucky and i thought it looked like a coachroach! I don't want to look at it again or eat it too... not my type of seafood! i'll show a picture from the internet but its uglyyyy!!
its this ugly guy!
this one is a female one... hmmmm.. ewwww.... dont like it!
pictures are from wikipedia and someone's blog I forgot the name sorry.
in english it's called a horseshoe crab. OMG! I got goosebumps from looking at the picture! eeewww... eeewww.. yuck yuck yuck!! click on horseshoe crab to see the wikipedia info! okay.. off to a more delicious and delicate thing than this yucky thingy! 

after that, we went to one hall which is filled with linen and cloths and some stuff but when we're on our way out we nearly got lost, thankfully we found our way out. so we went to a new hall and the first thing I saw was a huge oven with 3 door panel and I was OMG OMG OMG, a baking oven! I want one! I want one! I told mama, even mama was take the business card maybe later when we need it we can call them. They have machine for the mixing stuff, oven, roller, and some other things, etc,etc,etc but i want to huge oven! i don't care! saving money. uishhh I"M SO GREEDY...! later, we walked and walked and stumble on a few things including some more seafood, yup yup.. yummmmm... okayh! then we saw this car which have 3 tyres. and it was a prototype.. but it was cute.. and other machiine... hmmm.. then we walked again.. someone talked to us and i wasn't listening till he/she said it's chocolate! i was like really?? so i tasted some and i wanted to buy the rm30 which have 6 types of chocolate but mama didn't let me. so i was disappointed so i asked is all this your shop, they said only the small section was theirs. I think the chocolate section have like 10 shops.. if i could tasted them ALLLLLL!!! I love chocolate! who doesnT! I ended buying rm10 for 2 one is a tiramise milk chocolate which is sweet and fine, another was latte milk chocolate which is less sweet but more fine! ughhh... when are you going to be in store??!! I want some more!! I practically don't want to eat them because they taste too delicious i just want to keep em! hmmmm... than some guy yelled KEK lapis.. I came directly to the shop because it's my fave cake other than mama's "sarang semut" and Kak Long kek lapis and Auntie Kamariah Chocolate cake. YUP now! the cake has taken over my taste buds! I was exactly the same as I tasted when Angah's friend brought from sarawak! so moist! yumm.... keeping it too! grrrr.. they don't have a shop! they only send to houses! heeee.. can i call?? tq! I got their numbers... so later we walked outside in the rain and arguing whether or not to buy umbrella but need it badly! so went down to see some more and didn't find anything fun so we went back home. The only thing I want now is an orchid tree.. They have some amazing and pretty flowerss! mama even wanted to buy a tree i think it's called a soursop tree or in malay durian belanda. so we could buy it since the place we lived is a bit different.. hehheee

anyway, today, i went back to the jungle and i think i can plant trees here ILLEGALLY.. well i'm not going to do that. we went to the mall near PWTC which is a massive traffic jam! afterwards we travelled back and it was raining and here I am now! blogging how happy i am with the weekend spent with mama and my friend. It was nice, i want them to spend more together. I had fun so did they. OHHHH i forgot to tell you! after we all went to MAHA 2010, we went to eat near the shop at my house which sells this very delicious steam fish with lime! yummy yumm yumm.. at least we got to eat some seafood! 

bye. I'm off to bed!

love ya candy!

Friday, December 3, 2010


Hello candy!

I'm going back home today! Yippie! I miss mama so much, i just want to go home today. Well I am! After friday's prayer, we're going back. Me and yaya. She's my friend from Uniten. A smart litlle person such as myself only thinner. Haha! seriously she is thin and small and she has a brain that is gigantic!Well, since new year is near and I will introduce you to my friends here in Uniten as well as my friends from CBN.

I've got something to say, well rather something very shocking for me. I mean, Well there's this person whom I know once a few years back, we were friends and now I think we're just acquaintance. So, there's this rumous around and about and people come and go talking and I'm hearing things here and there. Honestly, I'm shocked to hear how this person can become so different then till now. I know people change and things but to hear this person change drastically for me was OMG I DON"T BELIEVE IT!! For me, this person before was just simple and tidy but suddenly I'm hearing things like this person is saying things that are just B*** and this person is a backstabber and ETC. I heard that this person has a friend whom this person never really liked and in front of this friend that person is all nice and shit and behind them, this person mocks, talk stuff and others. I don't give a hoots about this person anymore since the day we both stop being friends but that friend is a very nice and sweet and how could you talk shit about her? I mean what did she do to you that offend you so much?! I know this things is girl stuff and kiddie stuff but seriously?  You've changed big timed! I wonder if you did the same towards me when we were friends back then? hmm.. i seriously cbf by this! WTV!

Maybe my mood is off by now but I'm listening here and there and there are so much rumours and gossiping going on, CBF by this stuff. I need to focus and sure it's nice to hear but I don't like to hear when it comes to my friends and i know my friends, i know how they are, i would absolutely defend them because I know they'll defend me, but it's not something I would tolerate or i'm proud of but don't ever mock anyone of my friends. they are dear to me as I am dear to them. OKAYH?

PS: kepada siapa terasa, ikut awak la termakan cili api. this person has no idea Its about he/she.

bye candy

Thursday, December 2, 2010


Hello candy!

I've been MIA and it wasn't easy actually, I'm back in the jungle, My University which ins't a university. Well, we were told that our house (my apartment) need fixing, and when we were on holiday for 3 weeks, nothing change, the same thing is broken and well they want to move us to the 3rd floor but we insisted that we want ground floor and no matter what, its a ground floor house that we want! we were told that but nothing changed everything is the same. SO it's a bit for a bust! Anyway, wanis already finished and she is currently doing her practical training and if you're reading this HI NEK NIS! :P she is called grandma nis because she nags all the time! Always! Shouting, and other stuff but most of all she is a trusted friend whom always been there for me. So, it's a bit sad not to see a familiar face here again, and to hear her nag and gossip with her. It's always a good memories.

Anyway, I'm alone. All my housemates are headed home and I'm still in the jungle frustrated whether to go home or not. Hmmm.. Don't know. So if I'm not going home tomorrow than I'll be alone for a very long time like 3-4days. Hmmm... What to do.. what to do.. its a very long long time okay! Hmmm..

I've beginning to wonder is there anyone out there whose reading my blog entries? I always have like 2 hits for russia everyday, which is nice but i'd like you to follow if you can but some how I'm judging myself and my blog. Is it not interesting or what? do tell me. I really don't know. I would like to know. I need to know. So if you can, please comment on my formspring since this HTML doesn't serve the comment purposes. Sorry. for those whom always reads my blog, please do follow and come and visit if you can. I'd appreciate it a lot!

bye candy.
P.S:Suddenly nowadays i'm clueless. I don't know why! but i'm currently still reading to kill a mocking bird.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

I need to change

Hello candy!

I'm very tired today, I'm tired of everyone around me. I don't know. that is all I can say. I don't know.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


Hello candy!

I know it's a bit late but i just have to blog about this. So today I'm like hype about movies, songs and now I've remembered that I actually like this one writer and I totally forgot about her because it was ages ago! Omg! I think you should read ella enchanted before you look at the movie. I fell in love with that book, it was when I was still in high school. i read that book like dozen times already. I just love it! I also remembered about another book "the wish" it was nice and very typical according to ilina, my best friend but i liked it a lot just like ella enchanted! It was magical and she really wrote magic! I don't know, it profounds me a lot! Well.. Please keep on reading, it's fun and full of wonders!

Trala! Bye candy!

10 things I hate about you

I love the movie so much, I literally can watch it every time. It doesn't bore me at all. I like the movie because I don't know you know, it's not like all the magic movies and other type of movies. And heath ledger is hot! RIP And Joseph Gordon Levitt was so adorable in this movie and he grew up and acted in 500 days of summer which is also the bomb for me! Ahh... What wonderful movies.. I like indie movies just like I love indie music.. I don't know. My mind is weird.. anyway, the reason why I blog again in 10 minutes or so I don't know i didn't watch the time is because I was trying to post something on my wall at FB and the lyric for this movie 10 things i hate about you came up to my mind, its the ending song where the band was playing on the roof. Yup that song. So i'm going to post the lyrics since it's being played on my head and I don't have the song so I have to watch the movie yea! Just love..

Watch it! So cool!

Songwriters: Nielsen, Rick

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
And I'd love you to love me

I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying


Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
And I want you to want me

surreal part 2

Hello candy!

I saw this cute photo of a guy playing with his kitten. It was so cute, he looks like a big tough guy with tattoos and all, it turns out even tough he looks tough, he also has a big heart. I always imagine guys as mean and big and well by definition mean says a lot right? so yeah, i know they have a tender heart too but I'm quite unsure about it until I saw that photos. To be precise, I can now agree with myself that man with tattoos have feelings too and they are sweet as can be. Hehe..

I know some people are like "she's always posting photos of people" and 'those are even hers"... well.. I want to take photos but i don't have the proper equipment for it. If i do, I definite post them! That I promise.. I'm looking for the greens and when I found it, absolutely I will do something with it.. Just wait for it.. I'll try my best on earning my own damn cash!

I'm playing this game on facebook, it's city of wonder and it's fun. Arief introduce the game to me and I felt like playing something so I gave it a try. I'm now in level 11 since last 2 weeks i think.. I forgotten but it was either last week or the week before.. it's quite fun rather than playing with baking, and making cities and stuff.. but for me, it gives me time to decrease my boredness.. Yup i'm bored!

Anyways, Maybe I'll be blogging again tonight we'll see about it. I don't know who even reads my blog. I only know there's a few people which is my friends and relatives but are there any people who really like my blog or do you just simply come and go without notice? well it's up to you right? Just come again if you like mine. No matter how hard I try, there will always be a hurdle. It's beyond your imagination. Anyways, trlalal

Bye candy!


Hello candy!

It's late and i'm blogging.. I just got back home from Negeri sembilan for something, heeee.. i'm getting married :P trlalalala hahaha nope not actually Just went there to get some fresh air and see the scene there. So yeah. it was fun but tiring. anyway, I saw these nice photos on tumblr i think.. i dunno.. havent check that out yet but It's nice and I love the photo I just love photos with nature, retro, old effect and sun effect.. i dunno.. it's so nice that i just love these. but not as much as i love the teddy starbucks picture a few post below.. it's so cute that teddy bear~!!grrrr~!!! OMG! just look at them! i hope you'll love them.. tralalala enjoy~!

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all from:

Aren't these lovely? I hope you love them.. :)

bye candy!

Monday, November 22, 2010


Hello candy!

Let's read shall we?? I want to recommend to you some books at is utterly my most favorite! I just love to read em! Have fun...

1. My sister keeper
2. The lovely bones
3. Diary of Anne Frank
4. Dead Girls Don't write
5. Catcher in the Rhys
6. Perks of being a wall flower
7. the time traveler wifes
8. the kite runner
9. eat pray love
10. the little princess

I hope you love them. Oh these are not my top ten favorite books but there are some of them that is my loved and treasure like jodi picoult, khaled hosseini, alice sebold and many more. Enjoy!

I'm currently reading to kill a mocking bird.. yea! looking to buy new books especially from john steinbeck and mitch alboms.

OMG! I've just read on IMDB that perks of being a wallflower is being make into a movie!! It's still pre-production so I'm waiting for it to come out.. wait if it comes out on 2013 i will be 25.. it's a teen movie.. ughh!! NVM It's still a good book to read and I can escape being a 15 year old :P haha

love ya candy!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

A funny joke

Hello candy!

I'm blogging again, hahaa guess what happened today? Malaysia lost to Indonesia in Badminton Mens Doubles today, we got silver. So now I'm watching Dato' Lee Chong Wei perform at his very best. All the luck he needs! Goodluck! :)

Mama made a funny joke today. okay here it goes

mama: alya, whats that sound?
I'm trying to hear the sound
mama: Alya is that your stomach?
alya: mama does that sound like a stomach?
mama: yes it does sound like a stomach
alya: mama that's fire crackers popping.. how could that be my stomach?
mama: you're stomach is always making sound that's why.

it's lame but i hope you get it. :) tralalalala continuing watching the game bye!


Hello candy!

I haven't blog for a few days, I haven't have much things to do so I thought what should I write? I was infront of the laptop for a while then I went to brain freeze for thinking too much and well I tried writing one day again pt2 and still no improvement. Someone said it was like a romantic story but I have no clue what a romantic story would be like so yeah.. I'm figuring it out since One day was written in only 30 mins with no background, synopsis or even a summary. I just wrote it in pure sense and no acknowledgement of continuing it. So i'm still struggling with it and I'm also in deep depression! Well, my results for my final is going to come one in any due time soon, I'm really worried~! absolutely worried! Horrified and terribly trembling right now! It's the worst I've been so yeah.. I do hope for the best of luck but I want to best I can! Ughhh... It's scares me!

Today, Mama and I went to Papa's Tahlil and we did a doa selamat for amer (my brother) whose taking his SPM this year, we all wish you a best of luck, and for me for my results and for everything else.. It was fun, hectic and chaotic. There were so many people, it was suffocating. I've got to meet up with my cousins and aunts and my younger siblings. It was nice to see them since I'm alone here, no friends, no one to talk to.. I've to spend about 3 or 4 hours talking and gossiping and well helping. My aunt asked my if I wanted to follow her when she wants to go back to johor, I was like I would love too but I need to ask the big mama.. I wonder if mama would let me?? UHmmmm I'm also wondering if arief would let me... hmmm... Anyway, she said it was nice to know there's a relative who have another relative there.. get what i mean?? I hope you can pick up ey? Well, overall the event was nice, people were nice and food was nice but there are some mistakes here and there especially with the food. Balqis brought her friend over, who is handsome according to mama. "EHEM-EHEM" I'm so jealous~! Well, he is her friend according to her but according to abrahem and amer "it's her 'BOYFRIEND'" so.. I'm gooooing to follow with what balqis says since they called arief "brother in-law' yupp.. that's what they called my lovely boyfriend.. hahaha Balqis doesn't have a boyfriend. But he is cute, i agree with mama and balqis if you're reading this "keep him".. mama likes him. She thinks he looks like a korean actor especially with his looks and well he is well mannered. If he is reading this, welcome to the family :P as a friend and as a person. :) smiling!

Afterwards, we went to visit papa's grave with the whole family excluding 2 of my nephews and mummy couldn't come because there are still visitiors, so me,mama, balqis, my sister along, amer, shafiq,abrahem, elida, adam and balqis friend. It was nice to have the whole family together praying for him. Shafiq said it looks nice with the flowers and all, I planted a flower right in the center of papa's grave. my younger siblings had they words shared with papa's especially amer whose taking spm and shafiq whose next week is going to go through a tough tough thing for growing up. It's a boy thing to do... hmmm we teased him about it. lasers..knife..scissors..needles and other medical equipment. I don't want to say what's he is going through next week but it is important to the muslim heritage for a boy growing up. So yep.. If you want to know about it ask me at my formspring.. hehe..

Now I'm home with nothing to do but blog and help mama with the chores and clean my room again since my laundry is cleaned and my wardrobe is empty! Oh well, that's my life but i love it every day. I know people sometimes wish they have something better to do like a wisdom that something is going to happen but i am happy with my life and yes sometimes you do want that but in any situation, i'm guessing my life is already perfect all i need is to get married, have kids, get a job, and well grow old with the man i want to spend my life with. Hahaha did i put get married first?? Woowwww! Get a job is more important *wink wink*

well, that is all from me candy. I wish you all well as my life will continue in this journey and oh! i forgot! I saw this bunch of pictures last time it's so beautiful but i lost it.. But i found something else that's interesting. My love for shoes.. I never told anyone about it! but this is what i current crave for shoes looks like.. ughhh... money money money... i need me some green~!

I would so love to have this! ughh.. can't i?? please

Don't you just love them?? Ughh

Bye candy! Wish me well for my results and well I hope i got this shoes some day..

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

cutie bear

Hello candy!

I've found this adorable picture! It's so adorable!! I'm so gushed! and like OMG!! That is so cute.. I don't want to let it go.. so i've decided to post it here for all to see.. SO gullible~!! grrr..

Isn't it cute??

Have fun~!

Monday, November 15, 2010

In need

Hello candy,

Well, I've been in a really bad mood lately and I have no idea why. Yesterday, Arief cheered me up a lot by making jokes and playing games with me. He even explained that maybe I was lonely that I felt the way I did yesterday. I didn't have any friends in this new area of town or place i'm living in. So i got lonely and I got terrified. He even said that I was used to being with my nephews and them being noisy and stuff, and honestly, I do missed it actually. I miss many things that I think I took for granted. I've realize it now. It didn't took my days for it but months! I didn't even notice it until yesterday, I did what i usually do on daily basis I guess i just got bored and didn't know what to do. I used to play with my cats outside, yelling their names and calling them and well feeding them but now, I can't.. It's different here. Everything is. My nephews can't come regularly and I love cooking for them, their my food experiment well actually I made them test my food. If they don't like it than I yell at them or don't cook it anymore :p but honestly? They liked some of my food especially my spaghetti with white or red sauce, my cookies, my fried mee, or fried dumplings. I miss that actually.

At my old place, I love to cook and I always wanted to cook but here living in this new area I guess I just lost touch and I kinda felt like who am I cooking for or what am I doing? right? Huh~! I need a friend desperately.

Anyway, I was blogwalking and I stumble on two or three blogs which has really long and winding post. I thought it was fun to read but then It wasn't. Sorry! but I have to tell you, it was really that long! like long long long post! not like my long post but exceptionally long! I fell asleep on the 2 blog! huh~! It was fun though, it was interesting but it wasn't my thing. Sorry, but I like your HTML and your music. it was nice.

blablablablabla huh ....
okay! it's 6pm and I'm so bored.. I've finished sweeping and mopping the floor again~! that's twice in one week.. hmmm.. i need a life! i went out with mama today, we went to carefour wangsa maju and i saw this lady who wore this really tight striking pink leggings and people were literally looking at her. At first I was like oh that's nice then! I saw her shirt and her inner shirt and it was just not a vision you want to look at! I'm sorry suddenly I'm a hypocrite?? well, she wears a hijab like me and I also wore tight leggings but I don't wear see through cloths that literally see some part not requires by the eyes.. do you get what i mean? I was wearing tights today and when I saw this old lady looking at her I didn't mind at first then she look at me i was like what? then she said "so embarrassing, you could see her !@#$$%%&*($@!!!#" yeah! I was like ok, i'm gonna go away now! I was even more embarrassed! She was comparing with to the other lady! Ok never mind. I hope some of you got my point but i think none of you really got my point... blablablablabka...

I'm tired. Lets watch the biggest loser shall we? One day part 2 is seriously mind bothering me! I need to rest my head. Never thought writing would be so hard!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

help me please

I'm Suffering

Hello candy!

Is it me or did I wake up on the wrong side of the bed today? Honestly I don't know! seriously I am bored to death and lonely! I can't put my finger on anything. I cleaned my room today, half of it the other half needs equipment that is missing. I don't know. While I was cleaning, I was sitting down and folding my cloths and stuff, i let out a huge "SIGH" I was like, what is wrong with me today? I don't know... I really have no idea. I text a few of my friends but none of them replied.. i called arief but he is too busy.. I tried blogwalking but it's get boring from time to time... I tried writing part 2 of one day and i got stump! a writer's block! and i tried sweeping the floors and the bathroom but nothing is fulfilling me... I really have no idea! no idea! i think today would be the 4 or 6 time i called arief and he is definitely bored listening to me calling him.. i know it btw.. i got the feeling through his voice.

sometimes, i feel like i'm alone. all alone. I've got something I need isn't that enough? Do i need something else? Please help me ease these pain on my chest! it's killing me! I don't know! I seriously don't know what is wrong with me... i feel like i want to cry and there is no reason to cry.. i feel like killing myself for what reason? i feel like hitting things and smashing them but for what? FOR WHATT??!! insignificant reason! I don't know.. i don't know..

Malaysia Vs China

Hello candy!

I was watching the gangzhou asian games just now, it was football where Malaysia was fighting against china. Well, Malaysia lost to China, 0-3. It was embarrassing and I was cursing, yelling, screaming and well I was practically pissed! Haha, Imagine me scream and all that. It was a funny scene. I watched it with mama though. She was even more pissed than I was. In fact she was asking too much question like why that happen, how could that happen and well Why is it that we played so bad? ughhhh... yuck yuck yuck!

i'm not gonna give comment on the game played since I did it for Spain Vs Germany. It was very hard, i had to focused so I wouldn't miss anything. Anyway, I going to tell you a few of the words I'd say during the game also what mama said too. I hope you enjoy!

1. Look! Look!
2.  Aiyaa.. Ape ni? Xreti main ke?
3. Malaysia Main kasar!
4. Tgk tu! Die sepak org tu buat dunno yg die sepak!
5. Ya Allah, Malaysia ni..
6. Kad kuning lg?
7. Kad MERAH LG??!! MasyaAllah
8. Tgk to no 9 tu.. nakal betul die tu.. patut ade plaster dkt hidung
9. mane pemain malaysia xde dkt depan? sume defend je? uish2.. mne nk menang ni
10. Ai kalah la kita!
11. ape ni! 3-0..
12. Goal! Goal! Alaa xmasuk goal tepi tiang..
13. Malaysia dh marah.. hehehehe
14. aih kuna ni.. aih.. kad merah lagi
15. ape nk jadi la game ni...

imagine my mother said all those stuff! it was funny watching it with her. I'd love it! it was fun and the game kinda suck.. sorry to the malaysia player and to malaysia as well. Play better next time!

What I said:
1. penjaga goal tu sabahan mama kn?
2.eeeee... nooooo!!!
3. ya! mata tu mana!!
4. eh handsome nye pemain china tu
5. goalll!! alaaa china punye goal
6. ape ni sepak kaki org!
7. hello? mane pemain lain.. dh la pass bola ke depan tp xde org!
8. eeee...eeee... amin! xmasuk goal
9. hahahahah die tendang org tu.. die wat dunno
10. tgk tu mama... diorg tendang pas2 bila bunyi wisel suma angkat tangan mcm kena tangkap polis
11. ape ni ref! xcit la xcit
12. omg! omg! 3 goal??!! xley bla la
13. china dh mula melengahkn masa!
14. heh... kalah la kita.. 5 minit lg
15. mne la kembar dua org tu?

Arief called me on half time and I asked him about the malaysian twins whom is on the malaysian team and he answer they are injured so they can't play.. I was like uhmm.. ok... Malaysia played horribly! I'm so sorry! but no offence I think they can do better, I know they can.. if they can defend greatly they might as well score even more better!

I must agree with the commentator he said that if the ref didn't give 2 red cards to the malaysia early in the game, malaysia might have a chance to win. Yup yup.. I agree!!!!!

Oh-kay, I'm sad malaysia lost.. Sorry malaysia...

What candy? What was I saying?? Haha it's in malay and short written malay words.. like when you say how are you but most people would say u ok? something like that.. for malaysian, i think some can understand.. hehe

ok candy!

that's all for today! please wait for one day pt 2 k? I'm currently writing it now.